CARNATION (KIARA)
WHERE IS PAPA?

“ Good morning Helen”.

One woman with her gentle smile greeted her little daughter who had just come down from the second floor.

“ Morning mama Kiara.”

With affection Helen came and immediately embraced her beloved mother.

“ How, is everything ready? Today is your first time back to school after a long holiday”.

With full attention the mother said it while hugging the little princess just the wayang she loved the most.

“ Everything is ready ma, today Helen is second grade Junior High, Helen is very happy.”

There is one happiness that emanates from the little girl when saying this to her beloved mother.

“ Mama is also happy dear, mama is increasingly seeing that this mama's daughter has grown into a girl.”

Kiara the beloved mother said that while looking at her two eyes filled with love.

“ Helen shower first yes ma, after this we have breakfast together, today mama who will take Helen right to school?”

Kiara quickly nodded her head.

“ Must be your own mama who will deliver her beautiful daughter this mama to school.”

“ Thank you ma.”

Helen said that while kissing her cheek and then returned to her room on the second floor to prepare.

“Darling you're getting bigger, I'll add extra to keep you later.”

Kiara said this with a smile, Kiara was well aware of Helen slowly growing into a beautiful girl.

His hair was long black, his skin was white and dimples were

adorning her cheeks when smiling makes the girl look even more beautiful.

“Ah I need to get ready soon – is ready, soon the store is open.”

Kiara said that and then put a cup of coffee on the table and immediately went into the bathroom.

Kiara is a novelist who has written dozens of famous novels, besides being a novelist, Kiara also has

a bookstore business in one of the shophouses near where he lives, a small town

in the area of East Java with cold air.

That day, as usual, Kiara drove Helen to school.

“Ma, can Helen story?”

In the car Helen ventured to say that to her mother.

“ What's up baby?”

Kiara casually and to two eyes remained fixed on the highway to answer what the princess only wanted to tell

that puppet.

“ Day after tomorrow there is a parent meeting.”

“ Yes mama know it nak.”

“And surely only Helen has no papa.”

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Instantly it was like a boulder that hit Kiara's heart as the beloved princess finally dared to say that to her.

Kiara quickly stopped her car on the side of the road and immediately stared intently at the beloved princess.

“Mama must be mad at me, right?”

Helen who knows Kiara will always be angry when she mentions having no papa is now ready to get that anger from Kiara.

“ Mom hope you don't say the same thing over and over again Helen.”

“ Why ma? Why can't Helen ask the story of Helen's own birth father?”

“If papa has died where papa ma's grave? why is it as if – mama is hiding all this from Helen? ma Helen is not a child anymore who can immediately believe in all the words of people, Helen needs proof ma, Helen needs evidence where the grave of papa if indeed papa is dead, Helen needs evidence ma, ma Helen wants to meet papa.”

This morning for the umpteenth time Helen's tears

back flowing with a rush, Helen will always end up crying when

discussing the figure of the father who until now for Helen there is something

things that Kiara still covers.

“Have it, don't cry, soon we get to school, embarrassed if your friend – friends see you cry like this.”

Kiara said that while wiping Helen's tears with her handkerchief, while there was not a single – word that Helen said other than a very sharp eye towards the real Kiara

I was reluctant to see Kiara.

By turning his two eyes towards the highway Kiara back forward his car, at once also the atmosphere of the car became

very quiet, yes silent like the hearts of the two women who are currently struggling

with the problem each –, each,

two women with two different generations but the same heartache.

“ Heart – heart dear.”

Kiara says it while shouting from the car, but Helen does not reply to Kiara, Helen still

walk straight into his school yard without turning his body to

say something more to Kiara, and Kiara who is understanding

the condition of the heart of the beloved princess in the end can only accept and return

close the car glass.

For a moment Kiara fell silent and let the car stay in place.

“ Until when, yes until when should I

hiding all these things from Helen?’

Kiara's tears flowed profusely as she said that, to her two hands tightly grasping the steering wheel of the car as if – would

seeking strength from his own grip.

“ Mas your child has grown up, now where are you mas?”

Kiara's heart was broken when the words finally came out of her mouth.

“Mas Adrian, is there not the slightest desire from you to look for me and ask my situation? Mas is all the news that I have sent to you at that time only you consider the wind then?’

Kiara's chest tightens when she says it, a word she almost every day asks for one man in the past who until now still can not meet, question after

questions that until now have not received answers from men – men in the past

his past.

“Ah you are so stupid Kiara, where maybe she remembers you, where maybe – male men seem to remember all the things that

ever happened, moreover, let alone you are an ex-convict woman.”

After saying that Kiara drowned her face inside into her own two hands.

“ Helen what would you do if you

knowing that mama is an ex-convict?”

And in the end only the sound of a very sad cry sounded softly from the tightness of Kiara's chest, every Helen inquired about

where exactly is the father, at the same time surely Kiara will be like this huh

lamenting the past and sinking back into his dark past.

But in the end for the umpteenth time Kiara had to reduce her own sadness without her daring to tell all the things she had experienced in the past.