You are One Only!
130.Revealing II

"W-how could? hiks... how can you make a decision when I am really happy with the simple life we live, how can you? hyx"

"Honey, maybe you did it based on the best decision according to him" Reyhan said again drowning Shinta's head in his chest.

"Why did you do that which actually makes me remember the memories when I was nine years old, hard work I tried to shake the bad memories, he said, but it was the mother who brought me back closer to my father and automatically the memories actually strengthened in my memory, hysteria"

"When the mother was healthy without the assistance and attention of the father, I tried to talk to her about the reference, but the mother replied 'your father is her soul mate, mother, if it's not a soul mate why do we have five children?' "

"It's been arguing until I say that you don't have to regret what you made yourself after talking like that... I'd rather go in the bathroom and spill all my feelings there, flutter my head until it's completely gone" The new thing Reyhan knows if Shinta prefers to cry in the bathroom in order to muffle his voice

"After my head was really cold, I went into my room and pondered all that, I began to think that living two years without my father's attention was normal to me, since I was a child I never got close to my father considering that he rarely had time for his children, but maybe not for my two younger siblings, they already understood that their parents were separated, but living two years like that I don't think it's easy for them, so I started thinking, is it possible that my two sisters would be happy if their parents were reunited?"

"From there I began to try to accept the decision you made just for the sake of my two sisters, I don't want if they feel like a broken home child, I want them to feel full affection."

"You agreed to your mother's decision for the sake of your two sisters?" Ask Reyhan

"Emm. I saw my sister's eyes sparkle when I saw her parents together, and I began to understand that maybe this was best for my sister, but not for me... every time I saw my father's face, the memories swirled in my head, and when he was near me, I would tremble a little, but I tried to hold it all down just for the sake of my sister, as well as my two older brothers who were initially very angry with the decision of the mother was late too" replied Shinta

"Is it because you're afraid of blood?" Reyhan asked by continuing to stroke his wife's hair

"No" Shinta answered

"Trus why are you afraid of my dear blood?" Ask Reyhan again

"A few months after referring my parents to live a husband and wife life in general, it's just that we are still different houses, and one day my father made a mistake again" Shinta replied

"At that time the mother had just returned home after meeting with the father, but the mother was injured and her face had blood flowing"

"When my brother and I asked why my mother was hurt like that, and it turned out that my father did it, he did the KDRT until there was a scratch on my face that made the blood flow, and it was, I-I can what? I couldn't do anything at that time, I just cried in the kitchen and complained all of it to the one above, and from that moment on I became afraid to see blood flowing from other people's bodies"

After Reyhan knew all about it, he could only cling tightly and calm down by stroking the back of the woman who was now his wife, now he knew... the thing that makes Shinta traumatized and the right thing really makes his wife afraid to be close to men, also know why his wife can be afraid of blood, and also know why his wife can be afraid of blood, it's just that he still can't figure out why his wife's life used to be like that, don't his parents feel sorry for their little daughter's mental state? at least please give their little princess some understanding. But what is power? rice has become porridge and yesterday will not be able to be turned back again

"Therefore I can no longer pursue my dreams, at fifteen I must bury them in my mind, and after all the medical tuition is very expensive, I can not afford to spend that much, can just eat already thank God" said Shinta again continue his story

*Have you tried the scholarship, baby?* Tanya Reyhan is inwardly convinced that even though Shinta passed the scholarship, she is also unlikely to be able to become a doctor because of her fear of blood

"After the scars of the mother faded, the mother decided to stay one more house with the father because they had been referred, so it was natural, but, we had to live in an old house with no bathroom, just imagine if we wanted to take a shower we also had to queue up to the public bathroom" Reyhan heard that clearly, if he lives all luxurious and sufficiency, but different from Shinta who has to fight in his youth

"When we were living together again, Dad started to ban me from this and more, and more, you could say I was very depressed because at that time I was interested in a foreign language that even I was forbidden to learn it" Shinta recalled how her father was angry and strictly forbade her from learning a foreign language

"Why did you forbid me? isn't that nice?" Reyhan asked because he thought learning a foreign language was good for knowledge

"I also don't know, the father continues to manage the life of his son which actually makes me not able to stay at home, I then decided to stay alone... because I feel that the house is hell, but it's heaven for me, but you prevent me by saying 'if you leave the house it means you don't understand your feelings' I said I don't understand her feelings, but can you understand my feelings? understand inner? nay! I was forced to stay home until I graduated High School just for the sake of my mother and respect her as a parent"

"Time passed and finally freedom sided with me when I took the pharmacist scholarship in Surabaya, of course I was happy because if I couldn't be a doctor, at least I could be a pharmacist, at least I could be a pharmacist, and during my stay in Surabaya no one banned me this and that... that freedom didn't last long because my parents told me to go home when I was only in college for two semesters, I followed up and went home because I thought there was something important that required me to attend"

"Why did they tell you to go home? they miss?" Ask Reyhan

"You're refusing?" Ask Reyhan

"I just keep quiet because I prefer to take direct action, but in my heart of course I refuse, this is my life and let me make the choice, I refused too for fear that it would happen again, you know my father's activities, right?" Said Shinta at once asked and Reyhan nodded in response, he knew that the father-in-law often tausiyah where and it became a daily meal for him

"People whose level of religious knowledge is high, it's temptation and his lust is also higher and my father failed to face it" Shinta said with a heavy sigh

"After my father told me about the match, I kept quiet asking someone for a passport and a visa because I had never been abroad, just a few days all the preparations were done, that night I ran away from home and took a night flight to South Korea, fortunately I used to keep studying foreign languages in silence and hide my book" Reyhan was a bit surprised to hear, because Shinta's departure to Korea was started from escaping from an arranged marriage

"That's why you're crying at Seoul airport?" Reyhan asked considering that he first met Shinta

"Yes, to be honest I feel guilty for leaving the house without permission, but if I had permission of course I would not be allowed to go and be locked up in the house, I would not want to get married... I want to achieve success first, until I end up living in Korea for four years, after the mission to have a cafe succeeded, I go home. but to bandung and start a new life there"

"You don't feel bad for your parents?" Reyhan asked softly

"If I think so now it's impossible for us to get married, right?" Answer Shinta

"Yes I'm waiting for your host" Reyhan chuckled

"Do you know why Lala, Jannah and I can be friends with us Junior High like now?" Shinta and Reyhan asked in response

"I've attempted suicide" This surprised Reyhan the most

"Why did you do that?" Reyhan asked gently and tried not to get angry because he knew that Shinta hated violence

"Because I'm so depressed, the shadow of the bad past always haunts me like a madman, I'm really not the owner of the body, I'm really afraid if it repeats itself in the future, I'm so scared, hiks..." Shinta replied with a sobbing that came back audible

"So they both helped you?" Reyhan asked stroked his wife's long hair and Shinta nodded in response

"I ask for help in the future, if you are angry please don't hit me. You can scold me but don't hit me" said Shinta still with a sounding sobbing, Reyhan sighed because he also did not want to do the KDRT later on

"I will try, now calm your mind, everything has happened and finished, right? I know that forgetting is not easy, but I beg you never to review it" Reyhan said of the suicide.

*I'm still wondering if the person who killed Brother Zean, kidnapped Sisil, and the one who tried to kill me was the same person?* Inner Shinta

"Emm.. I will not repeat it because I realize that it is a deed that is hated by God" Shinta said, according to Reuters, Reyhan who heard it smiled then put Shinta's body to the side and faced her

"Now read the sleep do'a trus" Reyhan said, he will not take his rights tonight because tomorrow there is still a reception that takes a lot of energy, he also worries that Shinta will not be able to walk

Shinta nodded and did what her husband ordered, Reyhan turned off the room lights and left the sleeping lights then climbed into the bed and eroded the distance between them until they ended up sleeping embracing each other, he said, let this night be theirs and the moon that bears witness to it

Seriate

So the cause of the trauma has been revealed, right? lunas

Btw the story of Zefa's childhood and the story of Shinta's father really exists in the real world, it's just that their story is not finished and the author hopes they will find a beautiful ending from the original ending swt rather than the original ending that will be made a crumb author like me:)