When Love Is Afflicting
Gesa rush

"Seriously, Ma?" shaka's face that had been moody immediately turned bright.

"Dear, dear" replied Ms. Drabia, gently rubbing her child's head.

"Can't you speed up any more Ma?" shaka asked, his face turned moody again. Waiting for a month is a long time. Shaka worries that Ustadz Furqon is interfering with Annisa, causing Annisa to change course.

"They must be ready to clean the house first, then they can prepare your wedding."

"Why don't we just prepare it, Ma?."

Ms. Drabia sighed, "It's her marriage contract at the girl's house. How can we prepare it?."

Shaka pursed his lips, cute.

"Good night, rest, tomorrow you have to go to school again. And pray more, hopefully there are no obstacles or calamities before your wedding day." Drabia's mother stood up from her seat, kissed her child's forehead and left the room.

While Shaka who lived alone in the room, instead of resting, Shaka came down from the bed, stepping his feet towards the dressing table in the room. Shaka opened one of the drawers of the dresser, took out a ring box from it, opened the small box, then took one of the rings from it.

'Annisa, I know you don't love me. But it's okay, just let me love you. I'll keep trying to make you fall in love with me' Shaka's inner self.

**

"O Allah, You know my secret and my conduct, accept my apology. You know the beat of my heart, forgive my sin. You know my need, grant my request" Annisa said in her prayer for the third of the night." I love Ustadz Furqon O Allah, what should I do?. Please, O Allah, let go of all the burdens on this breast. Truly a helpless servant, O God."

**

"O Allah, I beg of You, grant this deep-seated faith. Faith is firm until I am sure that nothing will come upon me, except the destiny which You have recorded. I Am Ridha to the provisions that You will set for me O Allah" Furqon said in prayer for a third of the night.

"But I beg you, let go of all the burdens that have been pressing on this chest for many years. Eliminate this feeling of love towards Annisa, if indeed Annisa is not You doomed for me."

**

"O Allah, to you I go, at Your door I stand, by Your side I take refuge, and to You I beg. With the Prophet Muhammad, my family and friends I fought (attempted). With the Prophets of Mu, the messengers of Mu and the guardians of Mu I ask for intercession. O Allah, grant me my wish to marry Annisa, relieve my suffering, and the confusion that befell me" Shaka said in his prayer that night.

**

Furqon stepped into Annisa's classroom to teach. When he said his greetings, Furqon noticed the bench that Annisa used to sit on. The bench is empty, Annisa has not been in school for a week for reasons that are unclear. All of her schoolwork and PR, every day, was assigned to Ferel, Annisa's cousin.

Furqon took in his deep breath and took it out slowly. Remembering that it was fitting to enter the teacher's room, a teacher handed out a wedding invitation card to him. It is clear in the invitation card, the name Nurul Annisa Alfarizqi & Murtado Shaka Budiman. In five days, the two teenagers will have their marriage delayed.

' O God, why do I feel like I love Annisa more?' inner Furqon at the end of his teaching time.

**

Annisa in her room, sitting pensively on the edge of the mattress facing the glass wall of her room that leads to the balcony. Previously Annisa was not so tense to face her wedding day with Shaka. I don't know what made Annisa nervous this time. His mind was not calm this late. Could it be because the previous marriage with Shaka had to be canceled, so Annisa became tense like this.

But it didn't seem like it was because it kept Annisa daydreaming. But Annisa kept thinking about Furqon, Furqon's melodious voice while reading the holy verse of the Qur'an kept ringing in her ears. Annisa also recalled Furqon's hand that had been stuck to her forehead, which was able to calm her mind when she fainted back then. Annisa who had held Furqon's hand accidentally, was able to make something rustle in her body. Furqon's eyes were so sharp back then, capable of piercing into the recesses of his heart, capable of making the heart of an Annisa tremble violently.

'Ustadz Furqon, I love you so much. What do I do to take off this chest-stripping burden. If asked, this heart chooses you, Ustadz. But I have to let you go, for not wanting to make my family hurt' Anna's inner self unconsciously shed her tears.

'O Allah, forgive me for doing wrong' Annisa. Has made the decision to marry Shaka in a hasty manner. Now Annisa is sorry, and can't back down anymore.

'I love you Ustadz Furqon!" annisa shouted in heart.' Lordy! why are you confronting me with such a complex problem?. Why would you let me love Ustadz Furqon?, if he wasn't my soul mate. O God, deliver me from the suffering of this heart. I can no longer, God!. I can't imagine what my life will be like after I marry Shaka. This heart and body, have different owners. What am I supposed to do?' inner Annisa shouted, rebelling with the heart problems she faced.

Desire and reality are often contradictory. So many people are frustrated if life is not based on strong faith.

Tok tok!

hearing the door of her room knock, Annisa reflexes turned towards the door while wiping away her tears.

Tok tok!

'Who?' inner Annisa, usually if Umi, Father or Mama Aqeela, would call her if she would enter her room.

"Just in!" annisa Sahut.

The door was opened from the outside, a hijab-wearing woman who still looked young stepped into her room. Annisa, who knew the woman very well, stood up straight from her seat, stepping her feet towards the woman.

"Sir Yasmin!" annisa's shout arrived after hugging the beautiful and gentle woman's body."Why don't you tell me that Yasmin's sister wants to go home?" Annisa cried for a moment.

"If you say, it's not a surprise anymore dong" replied Yasmin, replying to her brother's embrace.

"Why did you come home?, didn't Kak Yasmin say another year you could just go home?." Annisa took off her embrace then wiped her own tears.

"So, I was very worried about you when you heard the fire. Therefore Brother permission to go home, Alhamdulillah, directly in the love of the campus" replied Yasmin.

"We're good" said Annisa, somehow her tears seemed reluctant to stop coming out. His heart was indeed very sensitive this late.