The Angel of Heaven I Wasted
Apologizing

Reyfan was in the car thinking of a way, how could he persuade Nisa.

"Did I take him for a walk to the shopping mall for branded goods, or did I just buy him jewelry huh, diamond rings maybe?" while driving Reyfan monologue.

"But Anisa, unlike most women, prefers to be alone. So confused."

Suddenly Reyfan passed by the flower shop. She finally had the initiative to order flowers.

It just so happens that Reyfan has the phone number of his subscription florist.

While driving Reyfan called.

"How can I help you?" ask a woman across the phone.

"Oh I want to order a bouquet of flowers."

"What flowers are you?"

"What kind of bouquets are good for wooing someone and declaring our apology?" ask Reyfan.

"Oh white roses can be Mas, because white roses usually symbolize sincerity and purity."

"Okay then I order ten, make the best bouquet of flowers yes later I transfer the money."

"Well ready sir."

***

This afternoon Reyfan deliberately stopped by the flower shop to take his flower order.

With a box of imported chocolates, she hopes to apologize from Nisa.

Reyfan went into the flower shop.

"Can I help you?" said a shopkeeper girl.

"I'd like to grab my order bouquet."

"Oh that ten white rosebuds huh?" ask the shopkeeper to make sure.

"Is he right?"

"Before a while, the flowers are in chains. Because your order was sudden, we had to order the roses first .

"Oh no problem I'll wait."

"While waiting do you want to make a special greeting card?"

"Special card?"

"Yes, like a greeting card or an apology or whatever you want to say."

"Oh yeah, give me the card let me write my own hand."

Reyfan wrote the card himself in gold ink prepared by the shopkeeper

I'm sorry I hurt you, my tongue is too sharp for the tender feeling you have. But all I regret and I promise this is the last time I hurt you, I hope that after reading this card, you will smile as sweetly as the chocolate I sent you, yeah, even though I know your own smile is sweeter than this box of chocolates.

While writing Reyfan smiled, while imagining the smiling face of Anisa. Yeah, even though she never saw what Anisa's face looked like.

But Reyfan has his own shadow about Anisa.

Reyfan also signed the card.

"It's over."

The shopkeeper handed him a large enough bouquet with gold ribbons dangling with gold-framed cellophane paper also added to the impression of luxury and elegance.

"Hopefully Anisa likes."

Reyfan carried the bouquet carefully in the car.

He also took his car carefully so that the flowers would not move.

Ten minutes later than usual, because of Reyfan's low car speed, upon arrival at Reyfan's house immediately approached Anisa's room.

Tok..

 there was a sense of nervousness when he brought flowers to Anisa, one side he was afraid Anisa was wrong, persuading her did not mean Reyfan accepted Anisa as his wife. He did this only because he wanted to apologize sincerely, however Anisa was willing to teach many things, while he himself felt that there was not a single good he had ever done for Anisa.

Yes Reyfan tried to convince himself once again, if he just wanted to apologize, not to improve their marital relationship.

I don't know, but it was as if there was doubt in his heart about his intention to apologize.

If Anisa is completely meaningless in her life, why should she think about Anisa's feelings.

Again Reyfan had to convince himself if this was just an apology attempt.

Huh Reyfan took a deep breath several times while in front of the door of Anisa's room.

After adjusting his breath, Reyfan knocked on the door a few times and then paused to see the human reaction in the room.

Tok to tok.

Kreak.

It looks like Anisa who is wearing a long negligee with a hood that is not wide as usual to show her smooth and shiny forehead. 

White smooth without any streaks. With thick eyebrows perfectly engraved and a pair of eyeballs like shining black pearls, despite still wearing a veil.

Just this time Reyfan saw a third of his wife's face.

"What's wrong?" anisa asked as Reyfan looked at her unmoved.

"Ehm, I have this for you" Reyfan said as he held a bouquet of flowers.

Anisa grabbed the flower, because Anisa's negligent arm was only limited to Reyfan's wrist can see how white and clean Anisa's palm with fingers that level and beautiful.

Glutton.. Reyfan swallowed his saliva to see a little part of Anisa's body makes Reyfan now curious about Anisa's face.

"What is this for?" ask Anisa.

"I want to apologize, because yesterday I hurt you."

"It's not that I've forgiven you, there's no need to give me a gift like this."

Um, not even Reyfan said a word.

"Yes thank you.I closed the door first," concluded Anisa.

Anisa was about to close the door, but was restrained by Reyfan.

"Hold on hold."

"What else is it?" ask Anisa.

"Anisa can we talk to you for a second?"

"Well wait a minute, I'll change my clothes first."

"No need to change clothes. We'll just talk for a second. Let me in."

Reyfan slightly forced to push the door, making Anisa did not have time to hold the door.

Reyfan turned to Anisa. It's appropriate since Anisa hid her body behind the door leaf, it turns out that by wearing a long negligee, Anisa's body is visible, her waist looks slender with a flat stomach and a solid butt filled. Anisa often wears layered clothes to cover her body that looks like a Spanish guitar.

Reyfan immediately turned his gaze in the other direction, when he saw Anisa who was uncomfortable at such a level.

"I'm sorry to turn away, I introduced my robe first" said Anisa.

'What, why wear the whole robe, he thinks I desire him, ' Reyfan's inner self.

Reyfan looked back.

Anisa immediately put on her robe by directly inserting the loose clothing without removing the previous negligee.

"It."

Reyfan pun menoleh kearah Anisa.

Dengan pakaian seperti itu, lekuk tubuh Anisa tak terlihat lagi.

Mereka duduk di atas tempat tidur dengan jarak beberapa kilan saja.

"Mau bicara apa?" tanya Anisa.

"Anisa kau masih marah ya pada ku? Sepertinya kau ingin menghindari ku?"

"I'm not angry, just keep my distance. We'll be separated soon and I won't…"

Anisa's words stopped.

"Why not?"

Nisa silently flinched for a while, while Reyfan was still waiting for an answer from her.

"Allah hates divorce. But if you never accept me, I think we should just split up. Because I think, if it's maintained it will only add harm."

"I need time to prepare myself to be a widow again. I have to be strong to see my parents disappointed. Hearing blasphemy from people that I might later receive and I have to prepare myself from now on" said Anisa with a soft voice.

"Will our farewell hurt you?" ask Reyfan.

"Yes, separation hurts, but surviving is harder."

"But you take it easy, I've experienced something like this before, even worse than this.I just need time to adapt, and the third time it comes, I can already accept the widow's status back with a breastplate."

Reyfan looked at Anisa's bowed face.

" If there is nothing to talk about, please get out of this room, I think I have answered your curiosity," concluded Anisa.