The Angel of Heaven I Wasted
Reyfan's Decision

"Hiks, if only to leave me here, why should you take me. You're thinking about your father's feelings, but you're not thinking about my feelings, hick."

Anisa repeatedly wiped her tears so as not to feel sad left alone in a quiet place like this.

. But as she endured her grief, her heart still hurt. Reyfan had been gone for about an hour and had not left him alone.

Instead of being whiny, it's just that, Anisa really felt unappreciated, let alone hearing Reyfan who was embarrassed to take her for the reason that she was widowed and wearing clothes like the one in use today.

Reyfan always brought up her status and that's what made Anisa feel sad.

Tok. tok ..knock the door to surprise Anisa.

Anisa wiped her tears then opened the window glass slightly.

A young man smiled at Anisa.

Anisa bowed her face so that the man would not look at her face

"What's wrong?" ask Anisa.

The young man thought that something had happened to Anisa because he had been watching Anisa crying ever since.

"Mom why are you here alone in danger?" ask the man .

"It's okay, I'm waiting for someone."

"Come on Ma'am, wait in the building alone, this is very dangerous this new building and the level of security is not adequate."

"It's okay, Mom, am I just waiting for my husband here? Maybe he'll be back soon."

"Mother husband? Why not just go with her husband?."

The man noticed Anisa's wet veil.

Anisa was silent, with a downcast face.

"Yes for your safety I will stay here until your husband arrives, because recently there was a case of robbers in the basement. Moreover, women and basement are always quiet because the work hours are over."

Anisa nodded. "Yes, thank you so I closed the window again."

"Yes, ma'am."

As Anisa and the man chat Reyfan accidentally looks towards them.

"Well, how dare he take the opportunity alone with the man" Reyfan muttered in his heart.

He also approached Anisa

Reyfan got into the car with a pouting face. He didn't care about the man smiling at him.

Reyfan took his car out of the basement.

While Anisa was covering both of her hands while nodding as an expression of her gratitude to the man.

"Who is he?" ask Reyfan.

Anisa flinching.

"Your boyfriend?" Reyfan repeated when he saw Anisa was silent.

"Daughter? I've never dated this guy just sorry to see me waiting by myself, he was afraid something might happen to me because the basement was so quiet."

Reyfan smiled cynically.

"It is very difficult to trust a stranger. But strangers seem to care more about me."

Reyfan took a deep breath of Anisa as if he had insinuated it.

"Sorry Anisa, I left you in the basement."

"It's okay, but I think we better be honest with Dad. What we do now is a waste of time. In fact, we're going to split up, too."

"You mean?" 

"Take me to my parents now."

"Did you give up Anisa?" ask Reyfan.

Anisa shook her head while shedding her tears again.

" It's not that I give up, it's just that I can't hear such insults.Am I too dirty, or my status is too contemptible in your eyes. How can man insult another man while God alone does not judge man by his social status." 

Anisa is crying again. He no longer held back his tears.

Reyfan was stunned to hear Nisa's words, a feeling of guilt enveloping his heart now.

"Anisa I'm sorry" Reyfan said as he clasped Anisa's hand for the first time.

Anisa brushed Reyfan's hand away while throwing her face out the window.

"I've forgiven you."

"I just can't keep living with you like this. I need certainty, you must be firm, accept me or drop my talaq in front of my parents.

"Anisa, I promise this is the last time I'll say anything bad about you, but if I'm to be honest, I can't accept you, and I admit I've benefited you, and thank you for being willing to help me."

Annisa took a deep breath..

"So I already know the answer" replied Annisa.

"Sorry Annisa, love can't be forced."

"Yes you're right, but some say love can grow over time. From the beginning you didn't want me, so you shut the doors of love yourself, so as not to grow between us. We both need time to think and move. You still have a few days before you drop me off and make a decision in front of my parents."

"If you want to study religion, there are many other methods. By listening to lectures, reading books, let alone a lot of dad know the ustadz, I better go home to my parents there I can teach in the educational garden of the Qur'an owned by my father. Than we have to live in a house with husband and wife status but we can't live well."

Hiks, Anisa again pulled the tissue and cleaned the tears. Lately, Annisa's feelings are easily touched like never before.

"Marriage is a perfect worship. But we have failed to live it."

Reyfan occasionally still turned his head towards the crying Nisa.

"Nisa after you left, do you still intend to match me with a cousin who is said to be beautiful?"

"God willing, as long as you change and improve yourself, there will certainly be many Sholehah women who can accept you, not necessarily from my family?"

"Yes I will try to change for the better because of God."

"Good Mas, if you realize that. Change for yourself, not for anyone else. For every action we do, we are responsible to God. Be thankful that you can still repent before it is too late, for we basically live in this world to gather charity and provision for a more eternal life in the afterlife. Do not let the pleasures of the world momentarily stupefy you and forget the eternal afterlife."

"Yes Nisa, thank you for reminding me. Thank you also because you have intended to find a future wife for me" said Reyfan.

"Just like me" replied Anisa.