Sorry, Thank You & I Love You
The Part 21

‘’Cas,’’ says Xena. Now that she lives alone with Cassie, Yudi has been home since half an hour ago.

‘’Hhmm’’ Xena was hesitant while Cassie was already staring at her, waiting for what Xena was about to say.

‘’What's up?’’

‘’I decided to continue my studies abroad.’’

Cassie smiled, slightly mocked Xena. ‘’Kirain is not so, because you already have doi here.’’

Xena just smiled wryly. ‘’I'll leave it,’’

‘’Ya of course. You can't possibly take him instead and I don't think he'll want to either, given his position at the company at the moment.’’

‘’Not that, I mean I'll break it.’’

Cassie immediately gave a peeking look, paying attention to Xena's unusual facial features. The woman who became his close friend was forcing her smile, as if she was fine.

‘’I think I'm the type that doesn't give up.’’ Xena still smiled blandly. ‘’But, now I have given up hehhehe.’’

‘’What did he hurt you?’’

Xena shook her head. ‘’No, he didn't hurt me and I think I hurt him instead. I don't want to be selfish either, he deserves what he wants and deserves to be with who he wants to be. You know for yourself that I like him so much, so how can I close my eyes and let the man I like suffer, just because of my will to be with him?’’

‘’Xena.’’  Cassie immediately hugged Xena, she knew that Xena was trying to hold back the tears. ‘’Crying, there's only me here.’’

‘’Cas, my decision is not wrong is not it, this is the best for us right? Take it off for her happiness. I won't regret it later on right?’’

‘’If anyone will regret it, it should be Mr. Rayan. He's already wasted someone as good as you.’’

‘’Iya, I hope he who will regret.’’ Xena started crying. It was heavy when he had to think of parting from Rayan. Ah, why could he love that guy this big anyway?

‘’Cas, my decision, do you think it's the best?’’

Cassie was confused as to what to answer. Xena's question convinced her that Xena didn't really want to go and leave Rayan. But how else, if indeed the presence is not appreciated, is not leaving the best way?

After all, it would only be more painful if Xena continued to hold on beside someone who clearly did not want to vote for her. Going and forgetting is the best way, so that the wound does not get deeper.

‘’Actually I know what you want to hear, but sorry, I can't say that. For me, leaving was a good decision for you. Xena, you're so young and love isn't everything. Okay maybe you are upset right now, you are crying because you feel sad about losing him, but believe me you can definitely get through all this. Xena, life is not just about love, but about yourself, about your happiness. Why do you keep love if it can't make you happy?’’

Xena was silent with her tears still flowing. She clearly confirmed Cassie's words, but I don't know, her little heart seemed to refuse.

‘’Xena, you will definitely be happy. And love? You'll get it later, I'm sure it's.’’

Xena nodded. ‘’Ya, of course I will get it.’’ He tried to smile again. ‘’With a face like this, isn't it very easy for me to get a partner?’’ Xena pointed at her own face then started to laugh a little.

‘’Ya, like this the Xena I know, who is always cheerful.’’ Cassie smiled, looking at Xena who had returned cheerful, but in her heart she clearly knew that Xena was forcing herself to smile.

‘’I thought you came to cheer me up, it turns out I am comforting you.’’ Cassie joked that Xena was just smiling stiffly.

Ah, this is all because of Rayan, if Xena hadn't seen Rayan and Sana, maybe she wouldn't be this cool right now. The man was truly capable of breaking his mood.

‘’Xena.’’

‘’When to leave?’’

Xena lowered her head for a moment then sighed softly. ‘’The plan is in a month. Why, you want to come?’'

‘’Ingin but don't want.’’

‘’Aaan hell.’’

‘’What little?’’ Xena narrowed her eyes.

‘’No, it's just that your sister can be away from you?’’

Xena chuckled, remembering how Yudi responded when he heard his decision to continue his studies abroad.

Actually, Xena has long wanted to study abroad and indeed Yudi has been against it. But, after meeting Rayan, the desire seemed to just disappear. He never talked about it again. However, he suddenly thought about it again, when he saw his relationship and Rayan which he thought was getting worse.

And Yudi of course opposed. Where would he let Xena live alone in a foreign land. What if her brother needs something, what if his brother is sick, who will take care of his brother, what if his brother is there. There are so many things that Yudi fears. The man wanted to come, but he could not leave his mother who did not want to move anywhere and always wanted to be close to their father's grave.

‘’That little boy? Of course he was against it, but fortunately there was someone he could trust to take care of me. Hence, despite objections he still allows.’’

‘’Someone?’’

Xena nodded. ‘’There's Bryan, my best friend. Oh yes, I have never told you about it, but later, after we return I will definitely know him to you.’’

‘’I don't think you have anyone sell me.’’ Cassie smiled mockingly.

‘’In retrospect, I did not have many friends.’’ Xena laughed a little.

‘’Mending a little more than a lot but nothing real,’’ timpal Cassie directly approved Xena. The two continued to tell stories, until almost midnight.

*****

This morning Xena and Cassie left early. The intention is they will stop by breakfast at the place selling soto subscriptions Cassie. The place was not too far from the DS group, only about 1 Km. not to forget, Xena asked for a serving of soto, for her to bring.

‘’For sir Rayan?’’ ask Cassie who got a nod of the head from Xena.

Cassie no longer said anything and started eating. He did not want to ban Xena, let alone remember that Xena was about to leave Rayan soon.

*****

‘’I am in the room sir Ray first yes,’’ whispered Xena as soon as they arrived in the group DS lobby.

‘’Morning sir, breakfast for dad,’’ he said put a new soto he bought. Soto he had poured into the bowl.

‘’What's wrong sir?’’ she asked because Rayan just looked at her without saying anything.

‘’Hellow, sir Ray, what is it?’’

‘’Come to you?’’

Xena frowned. Rayan's tumbens asked?

‘’What's wrong sir?’’

‘’I just yesterday where did you go?’’

‘’Yesterday I permission because there is important urusna. Why it?’’

‘’Come out!’’

I'm getting confused Xena. Rayan asked and now the man has kicked her out?

But, although confused Xena still obeyed, he did not argue at all and immediately stepped out of Rayan's room.

‘’Dia why the hell, strange,’’ muttered Xena again noticed the door of Rayan's room that had been closed tightly again.

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