Sorry, Thank You & I Love You
The Part 20

Xena just came out of the supermarket, she immediately stopped one taxi that happened to pass in front of her.

‘’Rayan?’’ muttered by accident seeing Rayan, Xena smiled and immediately shouted to call the lover.

‘’Ray .. Rayan .. Ra -’’ her screams stopped, as soon as she saw Rayan who was not alone.

‘’It turns out like that,’’ he said softly while smiling wryly. All this time he always thought positively, about Rayan who never allowed him to sit in the driver's side seat. But now, he was seeing clearly. It was not about Rayan who could not focus on driving, but rather who was sitting next to him.

Depressing. Xena felt herself so pitiful. Rayan was clearly limiting and it was obvious that the man did not want her, but Xena always pretended to be blind and looked for an excuse to understand something like that.

It turns out that their relationship is really meaningless for Rayan, no matter how hard she tries, no matter how strong she survives, if Rayan does not open her heart, for what?

In the end, it is he who will lose. How could he possibly win whereas obviously Rayan did not want him. All he could do now was to slowly retreat and learn to let go of something that was not destined for him.

Xena did not want to force anymore, she did not want to make Rayan suffer even more, with her beside the man.

Leaving Rayan was not an easy decision, but Xena had already made up her mind. Like her who wanted to have someone she loved, she thought Rayan must be the same. Xena does not want to be selfish, her presence will only hinder the happiness and love story of Rayan.

Xena has already raised her heart, as soon as possible she will leave. Not because she doesn't love Rayan anymore, but she leaves because she loves him so much. In the past, Xena had never believed in the name of sacrificing for someone she loved, but now, Rayan's presence made her aware, she said, if love does not have to be together and this time he will release the man so that the man can fight for his own happiness.

It's difficult, but it's the right decision and he should have done it a long time ago. Only, at that time his little heart could not accept and always told him to keep fighting to maintain his relationship and Rayan. But, this time he would really sincerely take off his beloved man.

Xena was still watching Rayan and Sana who had passed into a cafe that happened to be located next to the supermarket where she was shopping, earlier.

‘’Mbak, so up no?’’ ask the taxi driver because Xena did not go up and instead daydream.

‘’Mbak.’’ call taxi driver divert Xena.

‘’So up?’’

‘’Ja - so pack.’’ Xena immediately went up, she glanced back at Sana and Rayan before the taxi actually left the place.

Xena tried to accept, to encourage her, but still it hurt, to see the man she loved so much along with other women. Tears were not able to hold him, Xena sobbed to make the taxi driver confused. The driver stopped the taxi and asked what had happened to Xena, but Xena shook her head and said she was okay.

Xena had already held back her cries, she bit her lower lip and placed one hand in front of her mouth, her head propped against the car window. He really couldn't hold back his tears. Really, it hurts a lot.

He had only known Rayan, there had not even been 4 months and the man seemed to have taken over his entire life. It felt, his happiness and sadness depended heavily on the man. Xena was speechless, she only felt tightness in her chest, so tight that she was hard to breathe.

‘’It's up to mbak.’’ Xena was again shocked by the taxi driver. The beautiful woman was still silent, as if she was lazy to move.

‘’Mbak.’’ The taxi driver called back. Xena limply took the wallet, paid the taxi and got out of the taxi. He closed his eyes for a moment, as if he was gathering strength. Xena tried to smile, as there was no way she would show her sadness in front of Yudi, whose sister would interview her and would keep asking about what happened.

Not to forget Xena also bought 2 bottles of mineral water in a small shop near Cassie boarding house, she used the mineral water to wash her face, so as not to be too obvious if she had finished crying.

*****

Xena drew and took her breath out first, before entering Cassie's boarding room. The woman already displayed her cheerful face.

‘’Yud, help sister dong,’’ he said so log in. Yudi of course immediately approached, taking over the groceries from Xena's hands.

‘’Oh yes, you want to eat what, sister who cooks,’’ he said avoid making eye contact with Yudi.

‘’Kakak is not chef Yud, where can make such food.’’

Yudi instead smiled, the man had started busy inserting and arranging his sister's groceries into the refrigerator. ‘’As for what sister would cook, I am not picky.’’

‘’Not picky, but worse than that.’’

‘’Oh yes sis.’’ Yudi glanced at Xena at a glance, then shook his head and resumed his activities.

‘’Hhmm, why?’’ ask Xena who got the reel from Yudi. Yudi did not not know that Xena had just cried, the man was quite sensitive and he had seen the eyes of the brother, even though only a glance because Xena who continued to avoid making eye contact with him.

Yudi wanted to ask, but did not want her brother to be depressed. He did not want to force Xena to tell him that her brother was not ready to tell a story. But one thing is for sure, he will accompany his brother and will comfort his beloved brother.

‘’Kak, why smell once?’’ Xena looked up, looking at Yudi who was already standing beside her while sniffing the smell of her hair.

‘’Nak aja, kak brother shampooing every day kok.’’

‘’Times anyway, but it doesn't smell good gini huh?’’ Yudi instead laughed while Xena was already snorting annoyed. He turned around, asking Yudi to look down a bit.

‘’This smells anything yes, kok bad gini.’’ Xena replied, the woman pretended to sniff the black hair of the sister.

‘’Fitnah aja kak.’’

‘’You are slanderous, the big brother's hair people always smell good.’’

Yudi smiled, his hand raised to gently rub the top of his head, but before long he had already pulled his hand, then showed a strange expression. ‘’Ih held her leg, her hair.’’ After that Yudi laughed, because he had managed to understand the brother while Xena immediately nagged.

‘’You are a habit, always a tegodain brother. For your sister this is beautiful so not easily offended.’’ Yudi of course laughed.

“‘No relation sis, beauty equal offence. Yes, yes.’’

‘’Funny doang.’’ Xena grin. Yudi's laughter grew louder. Xena reflexively hit the little arm of the sister, then told her to shut up.

‘’Cassie sleeping Yud, take care of your voice.’’

Yudi nodded and resumed their activities. Yudi also helps Xena cook, she prepares delicate seasonings and she is also in charge of cleaning the kitchen and washing dishes.

Without them knowing, Cassie had been watching the two. He was a little envious at the closeness of Xena and Yudi. It is obvious that the two love each other and care about each other. During the cooking, she heard Xena grumbling a few times while Yudi always laughed.

‘’Loh Cas, are you awake?’’ Cassie is shocked when she accidentally sees Cassie standing not far from the dinner table.

‘’Yudi sound really hard yes, until you sleep gangu?’’

‘’Kok me anyway kak?’’ Of course Yudi immediately protested.

‘’No, I woke up to smell the fragrance of your cooking, make laper become.’’

Xena stepped up, pulled Cassie to the dinner table, and the three began to eat, interspersed with a few jokes.

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