Old Jacket
Chapter 22. Dinda's Message.

The day has changed in the morning, then transformed into the afternoon. I was still lying on my lonely bed without a sun. Before long my eyes opened, I also woke up from my bed while rubbing my eyes. My head still feels dizzy from drinking too much alcohol. I sat in my study chair facing the window every once in a while my gaze glanced at a scrawl of paper as I expressed my love for Dinda.

" What are you doing, dinda? " whispers my heart.

I soon picked up a bottle of alcohol I had hidden under my bed. I drank a few sips to calm my mind. Suddenly my mother came into my room and saw me drinking alcohol.

" lana! " whispers.

I turned to my mother with a smiley face due to the influence of alcohol.

" Why did you become like this son, mother thought you were sincere with the departure of Dinda. "whimper mother.

I just fell silent not thinking of my mother's words. My mother soon left me alone in my room. In the evening Bara, Bang Nusa and Bang Apoy came home to see me, because since that incident I have never been to the waterfall again. They knocked on my door and went inside. They were shocked to see a bottle of alcohol in my room.

" When do you drink gini-rich ? " ask Bara.

" Lately a bar, you want ? " answer.

" Do you know that you drink gini ?" tanya Bang Nusa's.

" You know the most, "I answered.

" Lo is not Lana who the cave knows, you change" said Bara.

I was silent when I heard the words from Bara. He was so upset to see me familiar with alcohol. Suddenly Bara took my drink bottle and threw it into the trash.

" Lo bar dog" I shouted.

The atmosphere became tense, I who had been affected by alcohol as soon as my hand hit Bara's face. Instantly Bang Nusa and Bang Apoy held back me who had been empowered by emotions. Soon they decided to go back home.

" Lo's not the Lana that the cave knows. " She said while pointing at me.

Mother can only cry when there is a commotion in my room, but I remain in my room enjoying the rest of the alcohol in the glass.

The next day when the sun was at its peak, I woke up in my sleep, then walked out of the room. I called my mother, but there was no answer from her. Before long I put on my jeans and walked out with my motorcycle to go to the stall near my house. Instantly I stopped my motorcycle as my eyes fell on a truck parked in front of Dinda's yard.

" Eh Lana. "greet Dinda's father.

" Yes, would you like to move now? " tanyaku.

" Yes na, this house plan will not be sold but only rented" he said.

" Yeah om, Trus how about aunt ? " tanyaku.

" Aunty again mused in the room na, very heavy for aunty to have to move house. "his answer.

" Hmmm, can I see auntie? " tanyaku.

Dinda's father has accepted my request. When I knocked on the door and opened it, we walked in.

" aunty.". "my word.

Mother Dinda turned her head towards me with tears still flowing. I sat down beside him.

" Dinda is happy mother." I whispered.

Mother's tears flowed more and more when she heard my words.

" Lana, Dinda used to tell aunty a lot of stories if she really wanted to read the novel of your work na. " She said.

I could not say anything when I heard the story from Mother, before long my tears came out so hard so wet the cheeks. Instantly Dinda's father said goodbye to me because the goods have been transported to the truck.

We walked out to the gate.

" There are many memories of Dinda in this house, but the more we remember the more hurt we became" said Dinda's father.

" Yes, be careful on the road. " I said with a smile.

Then I took my motorcycle to the waterfall to calm my mind.

On the motorcycle my tears don't stop coming out. I drove my motorcycle so fast through the sidelines. I finally got home near the waterfall.

" The cave again needs its own bar, sorry about yesterday" I said as I walked towards the waterfall.

When I reached the waterfall, I sat quietly on a boulder while remembering the joy with Dinda on this rock.

The day changed evenings. My steps walk down the path that has been deserted by visitors. I sat on the porch smoking cigarettes. Soon Bang Nusa came to sit beside me.

" The cave never na, lost something valuable. It hurts a lot when the cave is in that phase. The cave never lost its direction as you did yesterday, even worse but the cave may not be so continued. Because what ? because the cave must stretch the journey na. The cave must finish what the cave has started. You once said the same cave if a place will change because of the times but will not change the memories in it. "he whispered

I just kept silent to Bang Nusa's words.

" A week later the cave will embark on a journey to make amends in the past, the cave will continue S2. Finish what you have started, realize the dreams lo na. cave sure Dinda will smile when your dream is realized, did Dinda ever say that ? " the added.

I was still speechless, unable to say anything.

The night was getting late, Bang Nusa said as if he would give me a slap that made me realize. Then Bang Nusa left me in my daydream. Then I wrote a poem on paper.

I wrote a poem called your name.

I'm sorry I couldn't take you.

I'm sorry I couldn't keep you company.

Like our old school days.

Now that time has passed.

separate the heart.

without you.

Just your banyang.

Life, meaning, and then death

You're already alive

You already mean.

but don't die.

separate me myself.

i alone...

I said tonight

Good night and happy dreaming.

Sorry if there's no fairy tale tonight.

But I'll tell you one day.

Lana.

My tears immediately came out wetting my poetry paper. I tried to smile at Dinda's departure. As the night grew late, I entered the house. I stepped past my friend who had fallen asleep until I laid my body in a room. Soon my eyes were closed.

*******

" Why are you smiling Dinda?" My toot.

" You'll know the answer later, baby. " Answer Dinda.

" What's your max ?" my spoken.

" Continue your journey baby, finish what you started. " the answer.

I woke up in my sleep. Then I opened my phone looking at her smile photo.

" Thank you Dinda, I'll continue the journey." whispered my inner smile.