My Life Journey
67. approaching the day H

all the neighbors have never liked my family, no matter what my family's fault until almost all the neighbors consider my family inferior.

not only mother who humbled my family, but also the children of teenagers my age who always looked down on me, the real motive they insulted me was me, I never did anything wrong with them.

because the wedding day mbak mia is getting close, the mothers' fathers' mothers and the teenagers are all coming, there is cooking in the kitchen' there are arranging tables and chairs, if the teenagers they medecorate the stage for his bride later.

there are also those who prepare food and drinks.

when I sit alone no matter where, until there mbak mia come I do not hear.

" he...!

" what the hell is mbak..? I jumped in shock.

" what else do you think..? until you call many times you don't hear.

" no mbak, just look at people, my elak.

there is no way that I say the same mbak mia, about the sadness of my heart which is where it is always low on people, because mbak mia will soon get married, soon, so I don't want to burden mia's mind.

"who actually just saw you again daydreaming, what's the matter tia.?

" really, I don't think about anything, just think about it again.

" what about mas anto.?

" i want to also be like mas anto mbak, can buy a motorcycle if you have a motor where you don't need to ride the bus anymore.!

actually that's not what I thought earlier, but it's true what I said the same mbak mia, I really want to be able to buy a motorcycle.

"the patient does not need to be too thought of, later if it is time he can definitely buy it.

mbak mia can always provide calm, I am always carried by emotions sometimes can not think clearly.

the difference between me and mbak mia is indeed very far, if I am always thinking in a hurry, different from mbak mia if mbak mia always think relaxed but washed away.

not only that among the five of us is indeed the least berutung, only I who where low people, including village teenagers as if ostracizing me.

only in the house bu tri lah I get peace and justice, because only in the house bi tri lah I appreciated and not in low right.

although mbak mia and mas anto always advised me, not to hear the words of people, maybe I could smile in front of them, but not in their stripes, he said, maybe I can lie to them, but not to my heart.

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the pain is sure, maybe people see me fine, but actually my heart is crying.

' look at tuh si tia she really pretentious beauty, said the teenagers who came to the house.

' what is it.?

' when you don't know the hell all the guys in this village will adore him, he said,

' beautiful neither but pretentious beauty, others chimed in.

because I was sitting not far from them so I could hear their words, I pretended not to hear because I was busy playing mobile phone. I was sitting with mbak mia but mbak mia was gone, I was sitting alone while playing mobile phone.