MILLY
chapter 77. Don't pretend

"Mas Dean," said Wati. He did not believe what he saw. He thinks Dean's really gone out of the country.

Milly hears Wati mention Dean's name. It's just that he doesn't want to look there. He still thinks that it might just be his hallucination, because he's thinking about Dean.

"Milly's sister" said Wati. He approached Milly who was still looking at the wall. I don't know what he saw there.

"Sir, I'm out for a while, yes," said Wati again.

Milly nodded her head. He thinks maybe Wati wants to buy something. Milly still doesn't realize anyone's coming.

Wati smiled at Dean, she also gave her thumb. Then go out and close the door.

Dean walked over to Milly. Milly looked faithfully at the wall.

"Assalamualaikum Mil," said Dean. He was standing next to Milly's bed.

Degh.

That sound.

Milly heard clearly the voice. Carefully and heart-wrenchingly Milly moved her body. He wanted to make sure who was coming.

"Waalaikum salam. Dean!" milly was shocked.

"Hi Mil," said Dean again.

Milly replied to him with a nod of her head and forced to smile a little.

A moment later, an awkward atmosphere occurred in the room. Dean was confused where to start talking. So did Milly, even now he is very stubborn with Dean in this room.

Long enough, since the last time in the hospital, they never met again. And now meet again in the same hospital.

"How are you doing?" ask Dean again.

"As you can see," Milly replied flatly.

After that the mood returned to silence. Both are busy with their own thoughts.

"Mil."

"M." mm."

"Why is it like this?"

After a long silence, Dean ventured to ask.

"meaning?" ask Milly wonder.

"Do you know what that means?" dean said again.

"No. I don't know."

Dean pulled out a chair, then sat down next to Milly's bed.

"Mmmmhh .. I already know everything."

"Then" said Milly again, he tried to be as calm as possible.

"Don't pretend, if you're okay. Why not tell me honestly? Am I really meaningless in your life? You even share it with Wati. But with me? Didn't I tell you, I will always be there for you. But it seems like you really never thought I existed."

Dean completely broke his heart. He even forgot that Milly didn't know his new phone number.

Milly did not know what to answer. The corner of his eyes had started to water. With all his might he tried to hold it.

"You think, everything will be fine, after you do such a ridiculous thing. You're selfish Mil, you're almost obliterating a baby who hasn't even seen this world. I'm also sure your mother would be very sad and disappointed to see her beloved daughter like that."

This time Dean's voice was a little firm. So that makes Milly's defense collapse. The tears that he had been holding back from earlier, had now escaped just like that. He wasn't angry at Deanna for saying that. But he regretted himself. Everything Dean said was true.

Even now he remembered, what reply he would receive later in the day of vengeance, if yesterday he really did. And it made Milly's chest feel tight.

Seeing Milly cry so much, made Dean goose. He stood up from his seat and straightened his hair.

"Don't do that again! I'll never forgive you" Dean said.

Then Dean sat back down, seeing Milly still crying. Dean felt guilty. Was it too hard, so it made Milly cry.

"Mil, I'm sorry, if my words were too harsh. I'm worried about you. You don't know how scared I was that night" Dean said.

Now Milly was sure, that night she wasn't dreaming. It was Dean who helped her, but why would Dean know she was there.

Milly did not answer. He really doesn't know what to say. All she could do right now was cry and cry.

Dean kept watching Milly, his heart breaking watching that. Sure enough, this is all very heavy and not easy for Milly. He couldn't bear to leave Milly.

"Cry! let go of all that weighs on you. After this I won't let you cry anymore" Dean said.

Sure enough, Milly's cries broke even more, even his cries sounded bitter in Dean's ear.

Unable to see Milly cry anymore, Dean walked up to him. He pulled out a small handkerchief from his pants pocket, then wiped Milly's tears.

"I can't see you crying. I want to see my old Milly. Milly is strong and also not desperate" Dean said.

Milly tried hard to calm herself down. Every word Dean kept making his tears fall.

"Why look at me like that?" dean asked, as Milly kept looking at him.

"Are you the one who took me to the hospital?" ask Milly.

"Yes." Yeah."

"What's the matter, Mil?"

"Why do you still care about me? Why did you know I was there? Who told you to? You should have just let me in there, no need to help me."

"O Allah Mil. You regret. Let's replay that ridiculous behavior. I'll take you there again, do as you please, this time I won't care anymore" said Dean angrily. He'll also lift Milly's body.

"Dean, stop!"

"Why? isn't that what you want?"

"No, I'm just making sure that I didn't dream that night. At that time, it was like I heard you. But when I realized, I didn't find you."

"Did you really hear my voice? Why doubt and ask? One more thing, you know why I did it. Don't pretend you don't know. Or you're not sure what I say. Well after this I'll make you sure. How's it?"

"What's how?"

"Ahh Miles. You're not a child anymore, everything has to be explained."

Milly did not answer. That's right what Dean said, he knows exactly why Dean did it. But Milly doesn't understand why Dean's still helping her. Milly had obviously hurt her heart.

"I love you."

Booms.

Milly was fixated, she couldn't believe Dean was saying that anymore.

"You want to know the reason, right? That's why. I love you Mil. I want to have you so I can always take care of you."

"Why Shut up? Is your curiosity now cured?

"Eitherway. Don't talk to me about that anymore. Throw that away from your mind."

"Why? I won't ask your opinion anyway. All this time you want to be forced to accept something, which even you yourself know will hurt you. Then why can't I? After all, even if I force you, I'll make sure I won't hurt you. This time don't stop me anymore" Dean said.

"Stop! I don't deserve you."

"Say, who deserves me?"

"Dean, understand! There are still a lot of good women out there who deserve you."

"Don't teach about being worthy or not. If you can't choose who deserves it or not."

"Dean, why did you corner me? I have a reason why I did it."

"All right, forget it. I don't want to talk about the past either. But don't stop me from making you happy."

"Bas on the forcible."

"I can still hear it" Dean said.

Milly glared, she did not expect that Dean could still hear her. He said it with a small voice.

"Don't look at me like that. Don't say anything about me. No need to think of anything. Now focus on getting better quickly" Dean said.

It's been quite a feeling all along that Dean's been relenting. Now he doesn't want to anymore. His waiting must end soon. He should be able to have Milly completely.

"Excuse me."

It turned out that the hospital attendant came to deliver the meal to Milly.

Dean quickly took the food. Then bring him near Milly. He raised Milly's bed to the head. To make it easier for Milly to eat.

"Let's eat, let me take a bribe said Dean. He sat down next to Milly again, holding a tray of food for Milly.

"Later, I'm not hungry."

"Open your mouth!"

"Dean, I'm not hungry yet."

"I didn't ask. Let's open your mouth. After this you have to take medicine too, right."

"I can eat by myself" Milly said. He asked Dean for the tray.

"O Allah Mil. Why be like a child? Just want to eat a lot of excuses," Dean said again, smiling as he shook his head. Then again thrust a spoonful of food into Milly's mouth.

Milly no longer refused. He took the bribe from Dean. Even Milly spent it quickly. Milly's stomach is hungry.

Dean smiled as he saw that Milly's food bowl was empty.

"She was not hungry, but could finish one bowl with ease. Especially if you're hungry, Mil?" dean asked Milly.

Milly did not answer. He just pouted and turned his lips. And that makes Dean anxious.

"Haha .. haha ...."

Dean laughs at Milly. Those who are laughed at still frown. After that Dean also helped Milly to take medicine. He asked Milly what medications to take.

"After this rest. You must recover quickly. I can't wait" Dean said again.

Milly frowned hearing Dean's words.

"Can't wait? What's for?"

Dean looked at Milly and then brought his face closer to Milly's. Milly deg-degan with what Dean would do. Milly closed her eyes as Dean's face was very close to her.

Milly's mind had drifted far away, but Dean had brought his lips closer to Milly's. He whispered something that immediately made Milly's eyes bulge. He couldn't believe Dean whispering that to him.