MILLY
chapter 76.pov Milly

I kept trying to call Adrian's cell phone. But not once lifted. My stomach feels very painful.

First I thought, this is because I haven't eaten. But the longer it takes, the more it hurts. It looks different from a normal stomachache. I also go to the bathroom more and more to urinate.

I tried to sleep so the pain would go away. But instead of going away, the pain is more and more frequent.

I tried calling Adrian, but there was no answer.

I'm sure right now, he's with Vania. It makes me even more disappointed.

I cried, I remembered my mother who had just died. If only mom were still around, I wouldn't be this sad. Right now I really feel alone.

Before leaving, Adrian promised to order food and would come back here to accompany me. Butwhat? Even the day was already magrib, there was no sign of him coming yet.

I was screwed up, my longing for my mother, my disappointment with Andrian, and the pain in my stomach made me feel like I was losing my mind.

If you want, I can order my own food through an online shopping app. Because I was disappointed I did it.

I remember my pregnancy entering the eighth month. I thought maybe my stomach hurt because of my pregnancy. I also find out on google, it turns out that according to google it is common in pregnant women especially when approaching the time of delivery.

Once again I tried to call Adrian, the result is still the same. I packed my clothes in the bag. I decided to leave here and also from this abnormal married life that I thought was.

Disappointment makes me selfish. I don't want to give this kid to them. It's up to you how, the important thing is that I get out of here.

I'm tired of giving in, let alone my sacrifice being in vain. I sacrificed for my mother so I could always be with her. But the truth is I can't live with my mother.

Before leaving I put all the gifts Adrian mas on the table. An ATM card, a house certificate and also a letter I wrote myself on a piece of paper.

"I'll take this kid wherever I go. Please don't ever look for me."

After writing that. I went straight away, I ordered a taxi online. My first destination was my mother's funeral.

On the street I saw people selling drugs on the side of the road. I don't know where to push from, I asked the taxi driver to stop for a while.

"What do you want to buy, Mommy?" ask the drug dealer. I'll look around for a second. I'm interested in the medicinal pill form.

"It's a drug to kill a rat. Very potent. Eat a little direct KO," said the father enthusiastically.

Without thinking I bought it. Then go straight back to the taxi and continue on to my mother's funeral.

"Sir, really the address is here" said the taxi driver.

"Really, sir."

"Why are you here at night?" ask the father again. He kept watching Milly from the windshield.

It was already night, and the rain had started to fall as well. I don't know what the father thought of me.

"It's up to Ma'am" said the father again.

He immediately got down and walked to the back of the car to lower the bag containing a sizable cloth from the trunk.

Brumm.

I was surprised, I was wrong. He left and drove his car very quickly. In an instant, the taxi disappeared from my sight.

I don't care about that taxi anymore. I have also spent my excess money.

Arriving at mother's grave, I immediately shed the cry that I had been holding back from earlier. I complained about my condition to my mother. Under the illumination of the lights are perfunctory, and also the rain is already heavy. I hugged my mother's grave.

I was shivering from the cold, but I didn't have the slightest intention of leaving.

Suddenly my stomach hurt again, even more than before. I can't stand the pain. I surrendered. Without thinking anymore, I immediately ate the medicine. Just a little bit I bit, my body was shivering violently. I also fell back to the mother's grave.

Not long after, my body seemed to float, I thought I had caught up with mom. But it was strange that I heard the voice of someone I missed so much.

I don't know, I don't understand what's going on, I can't see it because my eyes feel heavy and don't want to open.

I resigned, everything became completely dark and I could hear nothing more.

In my semi-conscious state, I could hear the voices of people talking. Sounds very rowdy. But I still couldn't open my eyes, so I couldn't see what was happening and where I was.

"Mil, why is it like this? Sorry, again I can't take care of you. I thought you were happy with your marriage. That's why I'm trying to cut you. Butwhat? I don't know what really happened to your marriage. But I'm sorry to tell you to that irresponsible man."

I heard the voice of the man again, but my eyes still could not be opened.

"Mil, are you unhappy? Tell me what should I do for you? Mmmm .. I don't know Mil, but tomorrow I will go far away from this country. I did so that I wouldn't continue to expect you. But am I willing to leave you here alone? After this, I know you're not happy. But I also realized that you belong to someone."

He said again, am I dreaming? I don't know. But I was very sad to hear his words.

"Mil, hang. I'm sure you and your baby are strong. I pray that the operation goes well. Have you or not. I love you all the time."

God, why can't my eyes be opened. I want to make sure I'm not dreaming.

***

My stomach hurt when I woke up. But it no longer hurts like I felt before.

It turns out I was in the hospital. And it turns out that my baby was born safely and badly there was a person whom I did not expect to see. Lucky there was Wati who accompanied me. I don't know why I'm here with them.

I resigned, I let them take my baby and unfortunately my fate. I was also divorced by Adrian.

Now that they're gone, I can't stop crying. To the extent that Wati was overwhelmed calmed me down. After that I fell asleep. Maybe because of tired or also the influence of drugs.

When I woke up I was a little calm, I remembered the voice of Dean that I heard back then. But if there was him at that time, why when I woke up he wasn't there.

Even Wati didn't say anything about Dean. If Dean had come, Wati would have told him. I didn't ask either. Maybe I was dreaming that day.

I also banished my thoughts about Dean. After this I will leave all my past behind. I will go and start a new life with no shadow of the past.

"Mas Dean."