Merlinda (Ranging Back)
Choose Himself

" Meil it's me", cried Elin from behind the door. Meili who was still crying, became aware. He needs someone near him. He needed someone to hug him so tightly and cry all over there. And Elin was his choice. In haste he made the door of his bedroom, and scatters hugging her body. Hugged it so tightly. And her tears are back. " I'm so mean Elin. I was so heartbreaking to hurt others ", she cried. At that time, Elin still did not understand what was happening. And he still digests it. He carried the weak body of the woman back into his bedroom. Meili, need some space to cry. And he's never seen her this broken. Meili is not a whiny woman like her. She's a strong woman. A woman who can hide her sadness when her heart is hurt. But at this moment, Elin found that point. One point where the woman was so devastated.

" I hurt Brian ", he said amid his sobs, and slowly, now Elin understood.

" But you'll hurt her even more if you don't say Meil" quickly ".

" I didn't even get to say anything Elin. He had guessed it. And I was devastated, I was devastated to see his cry. I was devastated, because of my own fault ", he said still sobbing.

" Are you sorry you fell in love with Jerry ? " ask Elin carefully. But the guess was wrong. Meili shook her head. "I should never have promised Brian anything. He was hurt by my promise. My promise will continue to love him. Give her hope. That, everything's gonna be fine. My marriage to Jerry means nothing at all. But the truth is I was wrong. I fell in love and reneged on my promise ". Elin did not speak. And he understood the guilt Meili felt. He had felt that way, even though their stories were different. But guilt, it still hurts, from any story.

Elin could only clench the woman's helpless body so tightly. she was unable to say, that it was indeed her way. That sentence was too difficult in his words. And it does sound very light, to the person who doesn't feel, how painful it is to be Brian. How hurt he feels. They say that everything that happens is destiny. Only from the corner of the person who does not feel hurt.

He knows how to be Brian, and he also feels how to be Meili. Even today, he knows how to be Jerry. The man called her a few minutes ago. He asked so worriedly why she had not told him. And at that moment, he had to lie. Meili was in her room and asleep. Actually he didn't want to do it. But it has to be done. Saying the truth to Jerry, would only make the man more anxious. Telling Meili that she was crying, would only make the man nervous. More agitated when the crying, caused by another man.

Elin doesn't like to see others hurt. Because he had felt it. So even if he was going to lie, he would be willing to do that. Other people are not hurt. And that's the fact all along.he too often lies to himself to look okay. Just because you don't want anyone else to get hurt. Hiding his sadness, like being his habit. And now he does it to someone else. Maybe Jerry's gonna figure it out, but it's better than knowing what's going on in his mouth.

Outside Meili's room. Hannah's car, just arrived. He came with Vale. The woman left in a hurry when Vale told her about what had happened to Meili. Just then, only a second passed as he finished his final move on the catwalk floor. After making sure the designer clothes he was displaying, were no longer tethered to his body. He immediately pulled Vale's body, to leave, and now they reach the Remkez Mansion.

" Mom, can we come in ? ", Hannah asked Viona whom she met at the end of the stairs.

" He does need you" said the woman, looking anxiously at her daughter's bedroom door.

Hannah and Vale nodded, then rushed up the stairs to get to Meili's door.

" Can we come in ? ", they exclaimed as they arrived at the doorway of the woman's room.

Without mentioning names. Elin and Meili immediately found out who was behind the door. The room owner nodded, agreeing to the question, Lin without speaking. The woman just looked at him. But he understands.

Meili was no longer crying. But Hannah hugged him tightly. He was just like the others, not talking, but tightening his arms. When sad, everyone needs a hug, not a speech. Speech sometimes. It could make him even more hurt. Hannah only knows. He should be there. It was when his friend got hurt. Because Hannah has no one but those people.

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Jerry, a little pushy when he managed to find an answer, why Meili did not tell him.

Luckily, he thought about contacting Elin, the only person who could help him, when he was distraught because he was waiting for news of the woman

" He sleeps ", he said repeating to reassure himself. Repeated the sentence that Elin had said, a few minutes ago. He made her sure of the answer. Though in fact, his heart was turbulent. But every feeling of disbelief was soaring. He always assured her that Elin would not lie to him.

And until he gets back to his apartment again. The woman has not yet reported. It felt so impossible to convince himself again, if the woman was right to fall asleep.

Actually he's just scared. She was afraid that Meili would break her promise. He was afraid that everything would not be as he hoped. And the happiness he felt these few days must be finished. His anxiety because of that. For fear that he will again be hurt, for loving a woman.

Jerry laid his body. Stare blankly at the ceiling of the room. He really doesn't want to get hurt. That feeling was felt five years ago. When he once fell in love with a woman who became a sister-in-law, from the woman he now loves. No one knows if his love for her is so deep. And also no one knew, when he was hurt as deeply as his love of that time.

Even without people knowing, love has long been present. Even before the woman loved the man who left her forever. At that moment, God gave him a chance. I hope she opens her heart to him. Even then, he himself was not sure.

And it really happened. It's as if the universe didn't give her the chance to have that woman just once. Luckily, he was still so close to her. Still joking with him. Still talk to him. Because of her naive friendship status. No one can be friends after ever falling in love. But in order to stay close to the woman, she wanted to do it. He wanted to be a clown, for the sake of women to see the woman laugh. The love he had with Elin back then. And no one knows it. He is too good at playing. Hiding it feels like it never existed.

He just really stayed away, when he found out that the woman already had a lover.

At that time, no one knew how she was destroyed, how she was wounded, by a hope, that perhaps one day, the woman would belong to her.

And after a long time, they meet again in Bali. After he tried to get away, as far as possible. Living on the island of the Gods was not his choice. But to keep away he came here. Origin work. While staying in Jakarta, will not make his business bankrupt. But to eliminate the woman. For the sake of not meeting the people closest to the woman. She's away.

But his power is not as great as the owner of life.

No one can avoid the fate of the meeting, if He so desires. Even if you go as far as you can, if it's time to meet. Then he will be brought to where you go.

Making her lips smile wide in front of Green and Amel. Really back then, teasing Meili was just a distraction from her broken heart, seeing Elin with Daniel.

What he had not expected from that painful encounter, Meili's blue eyes, kept ringing in his mind. Not off, even until he wants to fall asleep and wake up again. Meili's face was on her mind.

And until now. It was as if his disappointment over the years by the one-handed love found an answer. Elin was not meant to be his. But being his brother. Destiny is so funny. After half-dead withstanding the pain, they were rediscovered as brothers.

No one can ever be friends again after falling in love. But it's harder than that. Not just friends, but brothers. And luckily, Jerry was used to it and luckier, now that feeling was no longer left. It's just, now he's scared. Fear of disappointment will reappear.

His eyes closed without him wanting to. Now, the dreamland is confusing him. Resting her. temporarily from thinking about Meili.

At ten o'clock he woke up. Realizing that he had fallen asleep with his office clothes still complete on his body. And he sighed. Currently he is not as sure as before to open his cellphone which is still lying next to him.

He was afraid, he was again disappointed, when he found the object had no news from someone he was waiting for.

Jerry moved out of his bed. Without touching the phone first. Right now, he wanted to reduce his sense of disappointment. Reduced her hopes for the woman.

He chose to look at the glitter of small lights in the middle of the sea. Unknowingly he did the same thing, like three years ago. When he was disappointed to find out that Elin's heart had been grayed on a man in New York.

He chose to look at the brilliance of the small lights in the middle of the ocean under the night. Staring at him with repeated sighs, and this happened again. It was already the third time he had sighed, while gazing, the sea without waves tonight.

" If this would be disappointing. I hope it doesn't feel as good as it used to be ", he murmured softly.

Suck from his place. He heard his phone ringing. Although hesitant, he ventured to look into his bedroom through the large glass, which became the separator, between himself and the object.

And he gasped, when he found the screen alive. This means that the ears are not hallucinating.

His feet move fast. Reach the location of the flat object. The hope is great, that the one who contacted him at the moment, right Meili. And it should be. No one dared to disturb his rest except the woman.

All his anxiety, anxiety, and worry seemed to melt right then and there. When Meili's name is listed on the screen of the phone that lights up. His disappointment just disappeared. By one phone call from the woman, her heart was too weak. But that's how people fall in love. Longing is more than disappointment.

" Where have you been ? ", assault the woman. Only a second later their calls were connected. Jerry's lip line is curved. Hearing her voice, it had made her so happy. "I fell asleep" she told. And as usual. Meili instantly switched the call from a phone call, to a video call.

" You see. I'm still wearing my work clothes" said Jerry, convincing Meili, if there's no lie. He was stunned when he saw the woman's face. His eyes were puffy and his blue light dimmed. "what happened ? ", he said asking and couldn't resist it.

Meili was silent for a moment. This is what he doesn't want. When the man found his eyes. But he was too long to delay seeing the man's face. And can't help it.

" Are you asleep ? ", ask Jerry again.

Meili remained silent. He thought about where he would start telling stories.

" I met him here in the afternoon" he said, starting to talk. Jerry's face looked different at the time. But he didn't try to interrupt. Even now, like a small needle was being stuck in the flesh within his body.

" It's all done" the woman smiled. Although it looks a little bland. And Jerry realized it. "you're sorry ? ", he asked and the woman shook her head. " I'm just sad for hurting him ".

" That's the same as you're sorry ", Jerry unconsciously.

" Sorry that in many ways Jerry ? ", he said he didn't want to lose. "I regret hurting him, but I don't regret falling in love with you.

Jerry's lips instantly burst into hearing that. Her happiness was without feeling. Here he is so happy. Somewhere, someone was hurt by his happiness. But this time, he really did not want to give up. It's okay to say he has no heart, as long as the woman he loves also loves him.

He never took the woman from anyone. He never forced her to love him. In fact, he had thought of giving up when he found out she had a lover. At that moment, he was injured again. Origin Meili happy. He did not come to the airport that day to beg. He only wanted to see the woman's face one last time, before he left.

But Meili gave him hope. Promising him happiness. And it was not his fault that he smiled now, for his wish had come to pass.

Jiika's position is behind, maybe now she is the one who is injured, while the man there is smiling. It's just about luck between them. And luckily, Meili chose herself.