Merlinda (Ranging Back)
Binder Full of Memories

Elin got up from the bed, then turned on the nightstand sleeping lights. He took the binder gift, which his two best friends gave him last night.

He had a smile, when he looked at the cover on the object, a photo of the three of them on graduation day in Darmabangsa and he increasingly smiled when writing The Most Wanted, which was written, it is written at the bottom of the photo.

It was as if he was reminded of that writing. The Most Wanted is not a nickname made by themselves, but by the male student Darmabangsa. And until now the nickname is still attached to them. This time he remembered, but remembered a beautiful memory.

His smile widened when he recalled all the events at the Darmabangsa Foundation, he recalled how naughty they were then and so stupid. They will be punished, if one of them is punished, he remembered when Green arrived late, and asked to stand in the middle of the school room. Stupidly he and Amel asked to follow the law.

And he remembered again the sentence of Green's suspension, the woman was punished for defending him, he rampaged mercilessly at Zahra who at that time denounced her status as an adopted child. He's not the one in the corner, but himself. But Green went berserk, as if the hurtful lines were pointed at him. And Elin's eyes water again in memory of that moment. But after that he smiled again by the first photo in the binder. The photo that was shown in front of everyone. At that time he did not pay attention well, because of the tears that gathered in his eyes.

But now he could see clearly on their cute faces as a teenager. Plain face without make up, and so innocent. Right now looking at it feels so strange, like it's not them. Two braids, a ping-colored ponytail and Bandana on his own head. But at that time they thought they were very beautiful, so did everyone who saw them. No one ever said that their appearance was strange at that time. Especially for Green, she is the most beautiful girl among them, beautiful without makeup, and always beautiful when using anything, including when waking up.

Elin was reminded of the goddess's nickname for the woman, and she did not deny it. Not only did everyone else see her as beautiful, but she herself knew everything about the woman, knowing how strange her behavior was, fiercely, when she was raging, her face was waking up, her face was not bathing. And every time, she's always beautiful, and Elin admits it. Although at this time he was a little hesitant, when he again saw the faces of their teenagers. The pigtails that held their heads up, as well as the small clasps that filled the woman's head, were so strange to see them at this moment. And Elin smiled. On the rubbing of the plain faces inside the picture, "time really quickly passed", he muttered, his tone starting to hoarse at that moment. And then, he continues on the next page, which he opens slowly.the photo of him falling asleep at the classroom table and with a stand of Green and Amel selfie with the background of his sleeping mangap face, " sucks", he smiled. And a few seconds later he almost laughed, but quickly clenched his mouth, so that his voice did not wake Daniel. He chuckles to find a picture of himself sleeping stuck in the back seat of Green's car, and as before, without feeling guilty his two best friends are selfies with a sad background of himself. But his laughter before long, as he went back to the next photo, a selfie of the three of them with puffy eyes, it looked very funny to see, but painful to feel Elin. He recalled the photo when it was taken after the three of them cried. It was at Amel's house, Green was there because he was kicked out of his house by Martin, his father. And himself came when Amel gave the news. And at that time Amel was devastated by the divorce of his parents, he was left alone.

Elin remembers that, she who started crying, because she felt guilty for Green, the woman was expelled because of the suspension she got, and it was caused by, her, Green was convicted for defending him.

Green, who was fragile at the time because of his father's words, became crying. After Amel who joined in crying, at first the woman was just silent, but when she saw her two friends crying, the dam in her eye was like a crack at that time, then she told him what was happening to her. And after that their cries became more and more. And it was an unforgettable moment in Elin's life.

After that heartwarming part of the picture, Elin continued on the next page, Photos of their joy are displayed in several sheets, there is no story worth retelling in the parts of the picture, at that time they were happy. Their smile always expands along the photo sheet .

And then Elin's hand came to a halt right at Green's wedding photo, a picture of them standing and hugging each other. So funny at the sight of it at this moment, they were wrapped in kebaya clothes with faces so young, on Green's unexpected wedding day, and so fast.

That day they cried, and there were many reasons why their tears kept flowing endlessly. All the feelings mixed into one moment of releasing the single status of the woman, but that day they were also happy, and Elin's smile was engraved as she remembered it, and it continued as she moved on to the next image, she said, the picture was taken when they were stranded on the doorstep of the Villa of the Vernandes family in Lombok. Elin recalled, at that time they hugged because the night air was so cold, while they wore open clothes. So funny to remember that back, those who were angry because to three men they talked to another woman, then they left, and then got stranded in front of Villa because they couldn't get in, the key to the building was Alfin.

Elin again held back a laugh, remembering how stupid they were back then, and their immaturity back then. Supposedly, everything can be asked, but they prestige and choose to leave, even though at that time Green was pregnant young. The little girl Naina, was still in her stomach at the time, even though it was in the form of a small fetus.

Elin's hand began to move to open the next sheet, and just then her hand trembled slightly. He seemed unprepared to see the next part, but then he gasped, he could not find the picture he was worried about, something he was afraid to see, not there, " they must have deliberately ", he muttered, then sighed. And it's better. Photos that he has stored in the box in his drawer, it should no longer be in the sheet. Although he initially thought, that his two best friends would put it there. But the two women, indeed the ones who understand him the most, should not have time to hesitate.

Now he smiled again, when he saw the picture on a happy day. Birth day of Naina Pragiya Vernandes. The three of them took a selfie, with Green still on top of the hospital bed, while holding Baby Naina who was still closed. The feeling came back in that moment. Those were the happiest moments between the days they had been through, the presence of little girl Naina, like glaring at the cloudy clouds that had been between them. His figure, like replacing the place of someone who had already left before he was present.

And at this moment, Elin rubbed the surface of the photo, even she could again feel, how she felt on that day. He remembered how frightened he and Amel were when they saw Green rebounding, because of his sick stomach, and he did not stop crying when he saw the woman struggling in the delivery room, his spilled sweat, his cries of pain, all still vividly remembered in his memory. And Elin's tangisa broke when Naina's crying voice first sounded. Not just him, but everyone was crying. Crying because moved and also very happy for the presence of a beautiful girl with eyes exactly like her mother.

And after that memorable picture, almost all the parts of the next photo, the picture of the little girl Naina was never absent, and Elin again smiled as she looked at the parts of the memories. Even at that time, his mental state had not fully recovered. She is still mourning the loss, but she tries to be happy again, and Naina becomes his cool at the time.

Then he met on the next photo, the photo on their graduation day. That day Green had become a mother, and she recalled, when they chose to go home schooling, because Green could not go to school because of Naina's presence. and returned to Darmabangsa that day, on the day of their graduation.

And Elin's mouth moved to repeat the sentence uttered by the Headmaster on that day, and even her eyes were closed, as requested at that moment, "Thank you for all the wonderful days, and I've forgiven any mistake that's ever happened here. And now let's start without forgetting each other", muttered Elin repeating the Headmaster's words very smoothly, no part of the sentence was forgotten by her, all still vividly remembered in her memory, even all the memories that happened that day, and again he looked at the gray white clothes full of scribbles in the glass cabinet, and at that time his heart was immediately filled. At once he felt so grateful for having had that day, a day that would never repeat itself in his lifetime. At that time they were so happy, but also crying because it was the last day they were in Darmabangsa.

Then move on to the next picture. The first time he was going to New York, they were at the airport. Cuddle each other with puffy eyes, when they cry, because the first time they will be separated by distance.

" Why are we so crybaby", he murmured with laughter, but his heart ached when he recalled that day.

And then he found a photo of the three of them hugging. The photo was taken a few days into Amel's wedding day. There he and Green laughed, but Amel cried. Crying because he lied that he would not come home that day. And Elin laughed again as she recalled that day. And the pictures after that are happy moments. Memories that were taken not long ago.

And one of them is a picture of the three of them when they first met in New York, the two women came to surprise him on a proud day for him. And he never thought that his two best friends would be there that day.

He recalled, the champion he got did make him very happy, as well as a sudden proposal given by Daniel on that day. But of all, he was happier when the two women were there. And his happiness was complete when the two women existed.

The binder page was closed by a photo of the three of them on their wedding day, which happened a few days ago.

The photo was taken when the two women approached her in the bridal room. Eyeliner in Green's eyes, seen slightly melted there, as well as Amel's makeup, a stream of tears on his cheeks that were flushed by the color of blush on.

in the picture, he is in the crush of the two of them. He smiled sweetly there, with one cheek kissed by Amel, and Green became the one who took the picture.

Her tears flowed back when she realized the photo was the last part of her chest tight, as if their story was closed on that day, on her wedding day.

It was as if it was their last moment together, and it was like that, tomorrow he was already going to New York. After that they will have distance and they will separate.

His heart became broken, in his arms tightly binder full of memories.

Reviewing the one and only memories they went through, did not make his mood good, it became destroyed.

It turned out that time passed so quickly between them, and as it were now, time brought them to the end of their story.

Their friendship will be eternal, Amel was right. But time will make it not the same, distance will make it different. It should have started when Green got married. Their playing time could no longer be like before the woman had a family. Then when he went to New York, they should have also started to realize, that one day, the distance would have kept them away. And they are no longer what they used to be after his departure. They are still exchanging news, but very different is not it, everything is no longer the same as before. There is a lot of time that can no longer be sacrificed, even if only for them to joke behind the scenes. It has not been the same since then.

And today the reality is realising them. The time they spent was precious and gradually left behind, their story was never the same again.

Elin sobbed hugging a binder full of memories. At that time he wanted to turn the clock around, give it back, give it back when they had plenty of time to meet, to play, to joke, and do things they had never done before. But it's an impossible thing, he'll never be able to do that, it won't even be possible.

And what makes his heart slashed the most is, because the binder was closed by the picture on his wedding day. As if that was the case, her marriage seemed to be the closing of their long friendship. Because the truth is like that, when he leaves tomorrow, their story will never be the same again.