
Floral
For the first time in two years, I saw that handsome face. I miss him really! If there's no one here, I'm gonna get in his arms and paint*p that sturdy jaw.
I thumped at him. Seeing the same great love and longing in his eyes. He looks more and more mature. Brother, you're getting handsome!
I was preparing, looking at myself in front of the mirror. Because after Friday prayers Kak Satya will pick me up with Bintang and Zoya. As promised to take them to the giant Aquarium.
I wear light blue jeans and a white long-sleeved blouse top. I've sent a message to Kak Lintang to put on matching clothes to Zoya and Bintang.
I perfected my appearance with a nude lipstick. But my memory soared during our first meeting on a bus.
I am desperate to go to Jogja, because of a man who has the status of my girlfriend. The guy who's barely six months has never met me on the pretext of busy college. And armed with the savings I set aside from my pocket money, I followed him to Jogja.
I lied to my parents, I said stay at my friend's house. What I do when I have group work.
I carried a small backpack containing only a pair of change of clothes. I arrived at the hotel where he lived. Ask the security guard to make sure he's staying here. "Oh, Calvin's not home yet, madam. Usually it's noon. His brother?" I hesitated.
I waited for him at the security guard post, and while the guard was in the bathroom, Calvin came with a woman who was sitting on her bonnet and hugging her waist tightly.
I still haven't seen him. They went up to the second floor and they haven't come in yet, they've kissed each other. Oh, my God, what am I seeing?
I photographed them, and sent them the photo.
Thanks for the hot welcome. After this don't look for me or call me again!
I immediately went and bought a ticket home at the terminal. I checked my phone and the man didn't reply. I put the phone in the bag. And my ticket put it in my pants pocket.
Half an hour before the bus leaves, I'm pickled. A skinny man ran my backpack. I tried to chase, but nothing.
I'm confused how. Contacting my mom and brother is like detonating a suicide bomb.
Finally, with a shaky step I entered the bus. Thankfully, my ticket was in my pocket. At least I can go home.
And at night the weather is raining heavily. I who don't wear a jacket feel my body shiver. I can't stand the cold temperatures.
The man next to me gave me his hoodie and wind oil. Strangers can be kind to me. While Calvin who claimed to be a boyfriend actually hurt**me.
And I was surprised when I curled up in the cold, the man I was kissing right on my lips. I'm slack. But her roar of breath full of warmth invaded my face, especially as she fused our eyebrows together. My face's warming.
This is clearly pelec*han. But I know he won't do more. He couldn't possibly be raping my* here, could he?
If Calvin can, why can't I! My heart is still full of anger.
He repeatedly said sorry. I don't understand why my body didn't reject her, when she hugged me I sobbed.
I feel alone, being a stupid woman who is willing to lie to parents for the sake of a pecund*ng man.
A few days after the incident, she met me at school and greeted me in the garden chair. I was fascinated, he was looking for me. If he's a baj*ngan guy, he won't see me again after his treatment on that bus.
But he's different, he's a fun talkative. She became the sister figure who advised me when I told her every problem I faced, especially the school problem.
We were in a relationship without the knowledge of our family. I intentionally didn't introduce him. Because he's afraid he's like Calvin. I will only introduce the man I truly believe will be my husband.
L loved her. But Rezki's sister was having an affair with her. All this time I've known brother Arum, my sister's boyfriend in high school. But brother Arum got married, left my brother because he was a matchmaker. Then after my sister got married, she came back, ruining the household of sister Rezki and sister Lintang.
I can't continue our relationship. The future that I have often imagined was shattered to pieces when the bodies of brother Rezki and brother Arum were stretched stiff in the hospital. Especially when I see the man I love staring fixed on his sister's body.
I backed off, but my love never faded. Until yesterday we were found back at the house of Kak Lintang.
A housekeeper knocked on my bedroom door. And said Satya's brother has come and is waiting in the living room.
"Well, kids where's sister?" The man in the white shirt looked at me who was walking down the stairs.
"Still at home, just woke up to take a nap. So I picked you up first." The answer.
"Drink first, brother?" I offered.
Gandeng, No? Hugs, can? I almost laughed as the strange thought flashed through my brain.
I sat next to him driving. At first we were quiet. But it seems he can't stand this silence. "How's your heart, Na? Is it still the same?" tanyanya glanced at me.
I didn't answer. I choose to be swept away in daydreams, staring at the crowded streets.
"I'll come, ask you to om Darma." Said firmly.
I looked at him who was concentrating on driving. "I'm not ready yet?"
"You're never ready, Na? You're too scared."
"What if we're not approved and we're separated?" lirih. At least I can see his face now. I've been separated from him for two years. Even at my request, but I myself am tormented. I repeatedly gave other men a chance. However, nothing can ever take its place in my heart.
"Married run!"
I hit his arm. "The crazy idea." My word is cynical.
"Or I perk*sa here. And come home and cry in front of your parents." He said with a small laugh.
"I'm pregnant and you're in jail!" Sewot. He could think like that.
He's snapping. He took my palm and held it. "Trust me, as long as we buy time. That feeling will never change, Na."
He put my hand on his chest. "The reality between Rezki and Arum can never be changed either, Na."
"Our family is fine."
"Now is the time to clarify this relationship."
"My life is already three heads, Na. Live with me, give birth to my descendants. Be the wife and mother of my children." He propose to me?
"Be the woman I can see before and when I wake up. Be the woman I work for, the reason I smile and the reason I stay alive."
"Our story's too long to hang, Na?"
"Two years ago, you wanted to see how we are right now, right? And this is us. Still with the same taste even much greater."
"I love you, Na. Still and will continue to love you. No matter how many women come to offer love. Because my heart's been lost since you took it on the Jogja-Jakarta bus."
I laughed with tears flooding my cheeks.
"Laugh at me." He pretended to sulk.
The car stopped because of the red light. I opened the seatbelt and hugged it tightly. It's up to you to say aggressive or incongruous. I don't give a shit.
"Eh.." he was surprised.
"Be my husband, brother. Ask me to papa. May our paths be paved, brother. I love you, really."
I put our lips together. Sweet.
He didn't waste a chance. Eaten me all out until breathing was difficult.
"Tiiiii..." The car horn made us break away from each other.
"Sister, are we seeing people?" I just realized this. We might be a spectacle of people at red lights.
"Dark glass, Na."
"Again, yuk!" continued.
I threw my face away, my face heated up and it was definitely red.