Me And The Stars
Chapter 10 Dilemmas

" Hi Re, how are you ?" Sapa Beni with her sweetest smile put a bouquet of flowers from earlier in her hand on top of a pusara in front of her.

Yes, the place that Beni came to was the tomb of Rena, the friend who turned out to be located not far from the area of Safira's rented house.

" Welcome to Re, sorry to visit you." Beni gently stroked the headstone inscribed with the name of Renata Putri who was in front of her.

Today is Rena's birthday.

Usually, in the past, every birthday Rena he came with Vishnu, now even Beni did not expect to meet his former best friend, it was,

but unfortunately, it turns out Vishnu was already there at this time.

" Why did you leave so soon Re, so much I want to tell you, I don't have any more storymates, because I don't have any friends anymore now Re," Beni monologues and ignores the existence of Vishnu who had noticed himself.

" How are you, Ben? long time no see." Vishnu ventured to greet the friend who was silent in his longing.

" My news is good, and I'm sure you're very good with your new wife and future son, congratulations. But, do you know the news of Safira which is now not okay ? Safira who is now a very thin body, who lives in a small container house in the slums, who struggles alone to survive, who every day goes around holding a map like this to find work? It's perfect you made her life suffer !" Beny stared intently hatefully at the direction where Vishnu was standing.

" Wh-what? Safira, how do you know that, tell me where he is now?" Vishnu shook Beni's body which was now in front of him.

" I accidentally met him just now when I was about to come here, he lives in the slums up there, really can't bear to see the situation he is in now, you are really cruel to destroy his life !" Hardik Beni was no longer able to withstand the rumbling emotions in his chest.

Vishnu's body was limp as if boneless, reed gathered at the side of the navel Rena when he heard Beni's words about the current state of Sapphira, Sapphira which he had longed for for for the past few months,he was looking for his whereabouts but could never be found.

Vishnu opened the red stopmap that Beni threw at him earlier, his tears fell without being able to hold when he saw the fitting photo attached to a job application document.

When he was about to touch the photo, Beni suddenly took the map back from his hand, then left it alone in deep regret.

" Re, what should I do, I do evil to the people I love, and I also make you, Beni, and Sapphira leave me alone, it's my fault, it's my fault, help me Re..!" Her screams of grief hugged Rena's tombstone tightly, as if she was hugging Renata's body of her past lover.

But then Vishnu immediately stood up when he remembered Beni's words that Sapphira lived near the area.

He had to find her, find the woman he missed so much.

Vishnu began to walk around looking for the whereabouts of Safira's house, after asking around, finally a kind mother showed and delivered Vishnu to Safira's house.

Sure enough, Safira who did not leave because Beni promised to return to his house to tell him about his work this afternoon, was seen sweeping the porch of his house, he said,

wearing a house shirt that looks rather muddy, his face looks more thin, not to mention his body that looks like fleshy, very thin, although the line of beauty on his face is still very visible, still make Vishnu who saw it from a distance grimace.

His chest seemed to be in a strong squeeze, really sick, thousands of daggers seemed to stick and dance in his heart to see the scene.

For whatever sake he really wants to run and embrace the fragile body of the woman he loves,

but Vishnu did not have the courage, even just to show his face in front of Sapphira, his mistake was too big to be forgiven.

Vishnu was forced to leave the place after Sapphira finished sweeping the terrace and returned to his house.

But at least Vishnu was calm, because now he knew where Safira lived, so he could see her whenever he wanted.

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" Where have you been? it's been two days since you came home, have you started to forget about your son ?" Mia pointed at her stomach that had begun to look enlarged, her gestational age was 5 months.

Vishnu and Mia relationship is not as warm as before, Vishnu often spend time in the office or even in his apartment, he only returns occasionally to Mia's house, even if only because of the baby in Mia's birth.

" When was our marriage legally legalized ?" The question that Mia always said every time with Vishnu, they are still married in series, I don't know Vishnu it feels reluctant to register his marriage to civil records,

" Mia, please, don't make me keep going, that's enough. You're demanding too much !" Vishnu snapped who never wanted to call Mia again with the name Re or Rena. Because he had realized that they were indeed two different people, just happened to have a resemblance of face, while for the nature, attitude, character and personality Mia was not worthy of being equated with Rena.

" But, how will the fate of our child later, if we are still married siri will be difficult to take care of the deed and letter to him, do you have the same child of your own?" Mia always tried in various ways to get herself married legally by Vishnu because if one day she and Vishnu separated, she would not lose the gono gini treasure.

One of the mainstay weapons is the baby in the womb.

" It's my business, the deed matter is a small thing to me, have you forgotten my father's influential official in this city ? Just taking care of a piece of deed was as easy as breathing.!" Vishnu rushed into the room, leaving Mia speechless at a loss to use any other means to persuade Vishnu.

The next day Vishnu went to a supermarket, he was shopping for groceries, fruit, vegetables, snacks, even all his favorite Safira food he bought.

Today he plans to give the goods to Safira, he has planned carefully, all the goods will be entrusted through the local RT pack to impress that it is assistance from the government, he said, because Sapphira will definitely refuse if she knows the goods from her.

After conveying his intentions and goals to the RT sir where Safira lived and Pak RT was agreed to help him, Vishnu smiled and followed him from afar, he wanted to make sure that all the items were received directly by Safira.

Mr. RT knocked on the rented door in Safira, long in wait but there was no answer, After the door was knocked again a bit hard, a mother mother came out of the house next door, apparently he has a rented house in Safira.

" Eh Mr RT, who are you looking for ?" Ask the mother was surprised to see RT sir who came with so much luggage.

" Neng Safira is there ? here's a drop-off for him from the village." Mr. RT began to carry out his actions with the direction of Vishnu earlier.

" Oh, Safira's moved out, not contracting this house anymore." Said the house owner.

Mr. RT who heard that immediately gave the code to Vishnu to come closer, Vishnu who understood immediately ran towards Mr. RT standing.

" Neng Safiranya is not here, has moved." Mr. RT repeated the words of the mother of the contract owner, and conveyed it again to Vishnu.

" Wh-what ? moving ? but when? where to?" Vishnu panic.

" So, early in the morning he was transporting all his things, if about where to move I didn't ask too far, he just said he wanted to move out of town, that's." The house owner's mother conveyed what she knew to Vishnu.

Vishnu immediately limp, how he seemed to be in a mess of fate, for months looking for the existence of Sapphira, he did not manage to find it, he did not find it,

just yesterday he was happy to find Safira,

now I have to lose track of him again.

Vishnu seemed to despair of the punishment God gave him,

the punishment that felt really painful for him, not being able to meet Safira the person he missed the most and loved, was the most painful thing for him at this time.

" Mr. Vishnu..! Where's this stuff?" Shouted Mr. RT as Vishnu left wordlessly with a shabby face.

" Please share it with anyone in need." Vishnu replied without such spirit as before when he left there.

' Safira, where are you going ? did you deliberately run away from me? do you hate me that much ?' Vishnu dialogued in his heart.

Today Vishnu seems to be drowning in his sadness, in his despair, and in his greatest regret of course.