He, the Unacknowledged
66 Have No Self-Esteem
"Do you know what it was like to be me then? What you know is that the most painful of all is not that this depraved man is unwilling to admit his actions and take responsibility, but because my own family does not trust me. Those who should be in the leading position defend me, embrace me and give me strength. But what did I get? I am only considered a deceiver blind to love. Considered a cheap woman who would sleep with a man who is not her husband. I, whom you consider selfish and coercive, give up all means to get this man. No one stood up for me, no one believed me. It is precisely others who feel compassion and want to be the father of my son. Where were you at that time?" Khea's breath gasped, she breathed out all the emotions that she had been quieting for six years.
"I, who was confined at that moment, sought shelter without having anything other than the fetus I carried in my stomach. Have you been looking for me for six years? There's nothing!"
"Even if I am wrong, it is not in your mind to seek me, to forgive my guilt, to bring me home. Which one says blood is thicker than water?"
"Now when everything is revealed and people are talking about your ugliness, you are just looking for me and apologizing. Hmh!"
"When this depraved man does his barbaric deeds, I may shut up and enjoy them, but I still have my pride. I'm the selfish one and want to win by myself, not as cheap and not as million as love."
"And you, because of you my future is ruined!" Khea pointed at Vara and looked hatefully at the woman.
"Why you forced me to go to this man's apartment, my life was ruined. I hate you, Vara. Hate so! Do you want to show off that you're so happy? I've told you many times to call off the engagement and marry me to her. But you still don't care, just keep thinking that I don't understand your feelings. So I had to cancel the engagement by opening my own disgrace, in front of the people. But what do I get? Only the shame is so many times over. Considered cheesy, self-sale, liar, selfish. Unrecognized and expelled. Even you (pointing Ken's parents) always think that the other child is a nice guy who can't possibly do that depraved thing. Thinking that your son is a responsible man."
"Vana ... Khea, forgive us. Give us a chance to fix everything."
Khea was just grieving, it was easy for them to say that, then what about him who went through all this together with Gean? Of course it's not easy.
Khea recalled those times. The dark time he had to go through was very heavy. All that pain further inflames the hatred in his heart.
"Khea, however Gean is my son. Blood ties can't be removed just like that."
"Yes, Khea. Gean's our grandson, the successor to our family."
"Easy once now you admit it? Don't you have any self-respect?"