He, the Unacknowledged
15 Being Grateful or Regretting Destiny
15 GRATITUDE OR REGRET FOR DESTINY
Vara looked in her room. Thinking and thinking, would Ken really abandon himself?
No, that can't happen. No matter what happens, we have to stay married. How can Ken leave me when I go through trials like this? He has to take responsibility for what's happening to me now.
Vara is beautiful at the moment. He made sure there was nothing less than his appearance. Vara came straight to the Ken family residence. He should talk to the man and his family. Vara doesn't want to be left alone. After years of waiting to be married and staying faithful, she was instead thrown away like trash.
“Vara, come on in. Mom just made breakfast. Ken is also here. You're signing with Ken?”
“No, Ma.”
“Sit first, mama call Ken.”
Not long after that Ken went down, and went straight to the central room where Vara was.
“Vara, sorry at the time I did not pick you up from the hospital.”
“Yes, I know you have a meeting.”
“Let's have breakfast first.”
They had breakfast together. There was no awkwardness for Vara, because over the years, she had been used to having breakfast with the Ken family. So is Ken who has been used to breakfast with the Vara— family without Khea of course.
“I want to talk to you, Ken.”
“Alright, let's go to the back garden.”
Both are in the back garden. The morning atmosphere with the sight of the flowers accompanied the two at this moment.
“What's up?”
“Ken, you will still marry me, right?”
“What? Vara, didn't I tell you I called off our engagement. So, how can I still marry you?”
“You know, I'll have a hard time having children, maybe even can't.”
“Vara, I ..”
“If people knew, no one would accept me as their wife and daughter-in-law. Please don't leave me, Ken.”
“I beg! If not you, who else would marry me?”
“But I already have Gean, Vara. Me ...”
“That's exactly it, because you already have Gean. You already have a child. So, it won't matter, right, if I can't give you a son. You don't need to adopt another child.”
“You could have had a child, Vara.”
“It is precisely that .. anyway if in the end I will also give you a child, it must be much better, right!”
“Vara ...”
“You will have children from two different women. I ... I'm sincere, as long as you don't leave me.”
“No Vara. Can't, I'm sorry.”
“Make me second!”
“What?” Not that Ken didn't hear, but he didn't expect what he heard, coming out of the mouth of someone he had known since childhood.
“If Vana doesn't want to be the second, I'll just. Make her the first and I the second.”
“Don't be crazy, Vara! I'm not a good man. I once wasted Vana and Gean, and I deeply regret that. If only I had known what Vana said was the truth, I would not have wasted them. And now you're telling me to hurt them again? Just be right!”
“But it's the best for us three—foursome with Gean.”
“No, you are wrong. It's not the best, even for one of us. I am .. now I am grateful because until now we have not been married. If we're married, maybe I'll really regret the fate I received.”
Hearing Ken's words, Vara's heart really felt sliced. Are they happy because they are not married? Is he happy because fate hasn't—or doesn't unite them?
If only Vara's love for Ken had also been thinned, maybe he would not hurt to hear it, even would also be grateful.
But all of that was said by the man she loved, while the love was still the same, even bigger than when they were teenagers.
And worse, when he was in a state of slumped so deep, without any support from anyone.
Pain ....
But still, what Vana had experienced, was more painful than she felt right now.