Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Me - 13

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"Mama is lonely. You can say it because you don't know. Don't you know, huh, Sya? Mama is lonely."

"Syifa is lonely too, Ma. The same thing we do. Lonely!"

"Mama says Mama's lonely, Syifa's also a lot more lonely, Ma. Mama don't think Syifa's been lonely all this time?"

"The lonely one in this house is Syifa not Mama. I don't know how Syifa feels. All of Syifa's friends had complete families, they were all delivered to their Mama and Dad while..."

"While Syifa does not. Dad has gone to leave us, Dad is married and even rarely reply Syifa."

"Syifa is lonely too. We're lonely. Mama just lost Dad but Syifa, what Syifa, Ma? Syifa lost both."

"Now indeed Syifa still has Mama and now if you want to marry Syifa how?"

"Shyifa!" rahmi said, however, it did not succeed in making Syifa stop talking.

"If Mom gets married? Where does Syifa live and who does Syifa want to be?"

"Shyifa!" yelled Rahmi who managed to make Syifa speechless.

"Syifa you're talking as if Mama wouldn't be there for you. We'll keep it together. We will continue together, will not separate," he continued.

"That's according to Mama but not Syifa. If Mama has married Jaya, we will not be together again."

Rahmi shook her head as if she did not understand what her daughter was thinking.

"Pak Jaya also seems not really, like a bad person. Syifa could see from his face. Look at his eyes like that."

"Syifa, you can not, you can not really do not need to ridicule Mr. Jaya. He's good, he's Mama's friend. Mama knows better than you."

Now Syifa was made silent, no longer knowing what to do.

"Mama should understand Syifa's feelings" Syifa said as the atmosphere between them momentarily quiet.

"Your mother also wants to understand your feelings but you also have to understand your feelings."

"Mama, it's lonely. You don't know, do you? Mama can't dong barin pak Jaya that go so. She also loves Mama and Mama."

"Mama can't let him go. He's come really good to ngajak Mama wedding but you're not grateful like."

Syifa clicked her lips in annoyance, took a deep breath and exhaled slowly trying not to get angry.

"Not Syifa grateful, Ma. Syifa loves Mama. You don't have to marry again, there is Syifa. If Mama's lonely we can go for a walk or something, cake let us be together."

"Syifa tastes different. Mama knows you don't understand because you don't know anything, you're still little know not."

"Well, you know Syifa?"

"Syifa, Mama already knows a lot of you so you too, don't understand Mama."

"Mama wants to be equal with you. Can you, anyway?"

"Ma, Syifa can understand Mama but Mama does not need to, is married sir jaya."

Rahmi got up from the bed. He touched his forehead as if he was tired of arguing with Syifa.

"Sometimes you will also know, how it feels if you live without a companion."

After saying that Rahmi then decided to step out of the room not to forget also he closed the door tightly with a thumping sound made Syifa gasp in shock.

"Mama! Mamaa!" call Syifa to try to keep her Mama from leaving, it's not over.

Syifa closed her eyes tightly. It felt like he wanted to shout loudly shaking this world just like that. Syifa's eyes warmed up. It felt like his heart had stopped beating in this second as well.

Pain and pain hit his chest so hard. What should it be now? Her mother now turned her heart she thought that her mother loved her father so much that she did not get married after the divorce but apparently this time a bully came and destroyed everything.

He thought everything would be fine but, apparently not.

"Yahoo!!!"

Syifa shouted loudly. He got up from the bed and threw pillows and blankets in all directions.

Bruack!!!

A loud sound was heard as the pillow that he threw in any direction hit the surface of the dressing table until his makeup equipment was scattered to the floor and there were even some of his makeup tools that broke. Really messy, yes everything is messy like Syifa's heart feeling that has really been destroyed. It's all ruined, a mess he can no longer control.

Syifa grabbed her hair loudly, shouted back and silenced her mouth with the surface of the pillow.

He again shouted and hit the surface of the pillow very loudly voiced his anger.

Syifa grabbed the surface of the mattress hard and pulled it up to her fingers was very painful, this did not hurt. Nothing compared to his heartache.

"Ke-to-napa? Why does everyone stay away from Syifa? Shia-fa don't want whose life is like!!!"

"This is not Syifa's will!!! Syifa doesn't want to be like this."

"Syifa wants Dad and Mama back. Syifa doesn't want to be like this. Syifa did not want if Mama married again let alone the same pak Jaya."

"Syifa just wants Mama and Daddy back. Aaaa!!! Why is it like this?!!"

Syifa again screamed out all the resentment, anger, sadness that mixed into one.

His body trembled, his heart as if it was sliced so painfully into his feelings. Heartbroken, everything destroyed.

What is the fate if Mama and Pak Jaya were later married then what about her fate maybe after marriage Mama will leave her like what was done by her father who has now made a family the new and happier tells Syifa and Mama then Mama now decided to marry pak Jaya then Syifa with whom?

Who will accompany Syifa here? Is Syifa meant to be alone?

Who will wipe away Syifa's tears if she cries?

Who will give encouragement if all problems come and go to see Syifa?

Who would give a compliment if Syifa made something good then who would give Syifa a happy birthday if she had a birthday later?

Wh who?

Wh who?

Please tell me who will do all that! Syifa can't do it alone.

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