Fake Princess
Clxxvii Chapter
"Is the bond too tight for you?" I said as I gulped my fingers to tie the cloth that covered Zeki's body.
"You tied him up too tight, do you want to make me die from suffocation" he said, as I looked back at his face as he looked back.
"If it's like this?" I said as I reopened the ties to the cloth and tied them again, turning my eyes to her who nodded back at me.
"rest. I have left you drinking water, call me if you need anything" I said as I stood up.
"Where are you going?" he said, I looked at him who was holding my arm.
"To meet my brother, and to give you some time to rest," I told him.
"Can't it.." he said to a halt, lifting his head to look at me.
"You're here, please," he said again as he shifted his gaze from me.
"I didn't know you'd act like a child when you were injured, Captain," I said, crouching before him.
"You don't want to do it?"
"I understand, lie down... I'll take care of you" I told him again.
I stood up while I put my arms together to help him lay down his body in the bent position. I thrust my legs closer to a wooden box full of cloth, and I took a blanket in it and put my feet back toward Zeki...
I opened the folds on the brown blanket while quilting the blanket covered the tip of the foot to his waist... Go back and sit me next to his head which he had laid on a pillow...
I thrust my fingers closer to the pigtails that still tightly bound her hair as I opened them very slowly... My fingers moved back down his slightly long black hair as I occasionally patted his head softly.
"Zeki, have you fallen asleep?" I said slowly as I patted my palms against her cheeks.
"What's wrong?"
"Okay, I was just thinking... If only I had not been born in this world, perhaps my two brothers would not have had the ambition to rebel against the Empire. And maybe now, those who died out there can still be together with their families now..."
"Then, what about me?" he said cut my word.
"That's it, because sometimes I don't feel worthy of anyone's affection. Because in the beginning, I never gave anyone any kindness, I just used a lot of people for my own benefit."
"I just want happiness, can't I get it easily?" reveal it to him again.
"Come here, lie down beside me. I couldn't see your face" he said, turning my gaze to the palm of his hand he moved patting the cloth beside him.
"I don't want to" I told him.
"Takaoka Sachi, don't make me move pull you, do you want to make the wound on my back open again?"
"You're not going to kill me for saying those words?"
"Come, my dear, I won't do it to you" he said again, moving his palm.
"It hurts," I said, letting my right palm rub my cheek gently.
"Throw away your ugly thoughts, throw away those ugly thoughts... You're a fool" he said, again I felt the pain in my forehead from the blow from his fingers.
"There are so many people who feel helped by you, no matter what good you do is fake or not. As long as it gives meaning to others... That's more than enough..."
"The pessimistic attitude you have is really." he said again as he again pinched firmly my cheek.
"Listen to me," he continued, releasing the pinch he did as I stared at him who several times unceasingly sighed.
"Everyone wants you to be happy, me, your father, your two brothers... We want the same for you, if you're tired of just leaning on one of our shoulders..."
"If you're sick, just hide yourself in one of our backs. You're the one who pulls me every time I try to get away from Sachi, so take care of everything..."
"If you want to disappear, heal my heart. If not, I will not let you go. Of happiness? Whatever it is, I'll make it happen..."
"You want to destroy the Empire, don't you? You want to make everyone happy, don't you?" he said again, I felt his palms touch my cheeks.
"So trust me with everything, I'll make it happen. I'm gonna make it all happen... Your dreams, your dreams..."
"Do you hate this pessimistic attitude of mine?" I cut his words.
"I am often pessimistic, and every human being will feel it. So, if you bring up that pessimistic attitude again... I'm just gonna have to hit your head again..."
"I like every advantage or disadvantage that you have, because if you have no weakness... I won't have a chance to be with you, because of that.... Go to sleep, you make my time to rest less..."
"I understand" I said, trying to sit down.
"Where are you going?" he said as he put his arm against my shoulder.
"Get out, leave you rested," I said, looking at him.
"Sleep here, outside too many men."
"But you're a man too."
"What can a man whose back is injured like mine do?"
"Sleep, I'm worried about you. You must be tired too, right?" continue again to me.
"I worry about tomorrow, I don't know... All my plans will be back or not."
"Have you lost your confidence? What if I told you, I gave up my life on all your decisions... Are you still gonna lose that confidence?"
"You're saying it because you know that I'm gonna change my attitude if it's about someone's life, right?"
"Don't blame me, you're the one who showed me your true nature" she said, pinching my cheek again with a smile as she looked at me.