EL (EN) Dless Love
Anger and hate vs. never-ending guilt
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"Dammaemmm....."
El puffed up, and reflexes instantly wiped away the tears that had soaked his cheeks. The girl quickly put on a flat face. Although it might be useless because the man had caught him crying.
En looked at the girl with puffy eyes and a pale face who was looking at him expressionlessly. It's too late if this girl, wants to be arrogant or look okay, because to her, El is a book she can read.
"Is crying without sobbing so much fun? You look like you're addicted to doing it." He walked in, then stopped a few feet from the hospital bed. The man re-examined El from head to toe, and the conclusion was that the girl's condition had not changed much since the last time he saw her.
The girl is still loyal to the turtelneck that covers her neck, despite wearing a patient's shirt. Bandages on both of his badly injured legs are also still there, the man recalled their last meeting at home which he said belonged to the actress' mother, at that time El was not wearing footwear at all, the girl was walking with a thick bandage that wrapped her legs and did not look at all in pain other than tears that kept coming down her pale cheeks.
Well nothing has changed. The cheeks were still pale, making this man's hands itchy to touch him to be able to split the hue a little. The girl would definitely look much prettier if that pale face was slightly flushed, En was deep.
"I will check out from this hospital immediately, so you don't have to bother to apply for a patient transfer procedure again"
En snorted hearing the girl's words. Alena must have told me everything that happened. It's just natural, isn't it? What is unnatural is that this girl knows nothing.
"And my exclusive contract, which will expire in 2 months, will not be renewed" El looked at the man with seriousness.
"We are not discussing the contract" En finally made a sound after a long silence was created between them.
The man exhaled, for some reason his chest suddenly felt tight.
"Wantas? Our relationship is not a relationship that can discuss anything other than work issues" El pursed his lips. Trying to catch his breath back.
En unconsciously clenched his hands, the girl's words were indeed true. From the beginning, their relationship was not a normal one. The beginning of everything is a wound and until now only the wound was created.
"We'll talk next time, it looks like you need more time to rest. Now you're filled with emotion, so you can't think more clearly" The man turned his body to leave. I don't know why he could be so understanding with this girl. It seemed that when he fell in the abyss of time his head or maybe something else in his heart had been hit hard, so it shifted from its original place.
"Please.I want to get away from you, please.don't stop hating me for feeling sorry. I don't deserve anything from you other than hate"
En's steps stopped. The man clenched his jaws tightly, as the anger crept up filled the entire bloodstream. Like a fuel that only a picker needs to burn, that's the way a Kayden Abraham is today.
The man twisted his body quickly, took long steps to approach the girl sitting on this hospital bed, his outstretched hand holding the girl's jaw and forcing her to look at her.
The two of them looked at each other, En with anger and hatred that came back to dominate, and El with a gaze full of resignation as well as guilt that never ends.
If in the past El would desperately thrash to save himself from the anger of this man, now he was resigned to the situation. Now he had lost his reason to stay alive.
En finds despair in the pair of eyes, very different from when they first looked at each other at his welcoming event as the CEO of the girl's agency.
Or the radiance of fear while at Lana's house and their meetings after the incident.
El's pair of eyes this time look empty, dim, and dark.
Kayden retreated, releasing the grip on the girl's jaw. Somehow he wanted to scream out loud, but he was sane enough at the moment not to, instead the man hit the wall that was right next to him many times and only stopped when the tall man in black clothes walked in to take him away from the wall.
The man nodded then tried to take the CEO to the exit.
As he was about to reach the doorway, En pushed the body of the man in the suit away from him. He turned to look at El who was staring at him, for this time there was a radiance of worry from those eyes. Makes En grin.
"You should know yourself not to try to escape after what you've done. You want me to hate you? Ok, fine! I will still hate you and will keep you in the agency, so that you can be content to accept this hate"
After saying that line of words Kayden continued his steps, in the 4th step he stopped again, he looked at the tall man in black clothes who was behind him, tailing his steps.
"Jordan. Your job to be the girl's bodyguard is valid now. His safety, all his activities, you should know."
The tall man nodded. Making En put on a smile then pat the man on the shoulder with his fine hand.
"Love me every 15 minutes" he whispered then walked out of the room. Leaving El and a bodyguard named Jordan in this hospital's VVIP room.
"My name is Jordan, I'm serving as your bodyguard from now on"
El nodded slowly, not at all wanting to try to ask, think or fight what had already happened.
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"Cinting!!!" En cursed as he stared at his injured hand, looking terrible due to the almost dried blood and his slightly chipped flesh. Fortunately, Jordan arrived on time to stop him from doing anything crazy in front of the patient being treated.
This man then recalled with those pair of eyes, a silent radiance very clearly visible.Depression and emptiness were too clearly emanating from the girl's body. En grabbed his phone lying on the dashboard, this man grimaced in pain as he tried to type a few words to send to someone.
📤 How is he doing?
En exhaled, with attention still on the phone screen.
📥 Safe sir, Miss El is currently sleeping.
The man felt a little relieved, as he received a reply message from Jordan
📤 Keep an eye on, there's a chance he's doing something stupid. Your eyes must not be separated from him.
The man put his phone back on the dashboard, then immediately leaned his body against the car seat.
"Please.I want to get away from you, please.don't stop hating me for feeling sorry. I don't deserve anything from you other than hate"
You hit the steering wheel in front of him "you're less sure about this hate? Ok from now on I will show you more clearly" muttered the man with a straight look forward.
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