Dreams and Hope [POV: Andheera]
Episode 81

Haneul Hospital Jakarta.

More precisely in Anha's room, although it has been a few days passed but it seems that the mother still can not accept the lie from the sister, evident from the attitude of her mother who always turned her face away from Luna.

There was nothing Anha could do, as she herself was confused about the conflict between mother and sister, so the poor girl could only be silent, while Luna is still trying to apologize from the mother by unceasingly deciphering the tears also hold her arm tightly.

He himself knows very well Luna's purpose of hiding the real work is not to make worries for her mother, also she plays an important role in addition to meeting the daily needs of her who is responsible for her sister's education.

But in any case, a lie is something that is wrong and unjustified, even for good purposes, because in the end there will be many hearts that are hurt.

Still in the same hospital, but a different room.

Ceklekk.

“Hanyoora.” how surprised when Shana the mother found her daughter out of the room of a mental specialist by grasping some files in the form of a prescription given by her specialist doctor, he said, Shana was walking down the corridor after a few minutes and came out of the operating room.

“mama..” murmured Hanyoora slowly while rounding her eyes.

“what are you doing here?” Asked her mother with a feeling of growing remorse, afraid that if there were fellow doctors who saw her daughter standing in front of the soul specialist room, Shana pulled Hanyoora's arm and went away from the room.

Can not avoid Hanyoora resigned pulled by the mother to the baseman, the hospital doctors parking area.

From a distance it turns out that there was Yerim who saw the incident, feeling cramped being in the room he also tried to walk around and stop for a while to the hospital cafeteria to buy cheap snacks.

“Hanyoora.” said Yerim who was holding a canned drink in his right hand and a sandwich in his left hand.

“what is he sick too.” muttered as he continued to look at the departure of Hanyoora and her mother for a while before returning to his room.

***

Dorm Yeji CS, more precisely in the room of Andheera and Yuna.

At that time there was still no one coming home from their respective activities, some were still in college, some were playing around at the agency even though not on the training schedule, he said, there are also those who are playing outside with their college friends.

There was only Andheera himself in Dorm, also lying in the room with a blanket that covered his entire body even to the face.

Faintly there was the sound of a miserable cry from behind the blanket that covered the face of the poor girl. After his brief encounter with his grandmother, he could no longer endure the pain he had been keeping alone.

Back flash.

Both of them sat on a bench in the area around the ash house, both Diana and Andheera were silent for a moment with a sitting position that both occupied the very end position. She looked straight ahead before Diana finally made a sound..

“definitely very difficult right?” the grandmother asked without looking at her granddaughter.

Andheera did not immediately answer, the girl turned to her grandmother with a question mark, hoping that her grandmother could explain further what the question meant.

“you bear it all alone.” Diana finally looked at her grandson who looked a little surprised by the continued sentence.

“omaa.. forgive omma, Andheera, forgive omma.” her crying was broken when she saw the face of her granddaughter who had suffered a lot, so far, breaking her heart with endless guilt has allowed her granddaughter to endure all that pain alone.

“omma, I do not understand.” Andheera's response with both eyes that began to water, although not yet know exactly what happened, but being in a situation like this makes her little heart also touched.

Instead of directly answering Andheera's curiosity, the grandmother instead hugged Andheera tightly while sobbing tears that she could no longer bear.

“should omma believe you then, no. should omma hear your explanation to the end instead of ignoring you and avoiding you, Andheera, forgive omma. forgive omma.”.

So surprised to hear the grandmother's confession, Andheera was speechless, she just fell silent in the grandmother's arms with a blank look, it was as if he was still confused by what expression he had to show.

Finally, the grandmother now knows the truth behind the story that is always told by Andromeda, there is no 1 memory of Andromeda is true, because everything has been mixed with bitter memories when he was a child.

Making his subconscious pressure himself to believe what he wants, all of which he does as a form of self-protection, although he was born as a brother but in the end his sister who had always protected him.

He only pretended to play a brother like a superhero on television, and wanted to protect his sister from the mother who always scolded and avoided him, until a bad thought arises when the mother begins to wake up from a coma.

Andromeda was afraid that if his sister would be targeted by his mother again, he decided to pull out a tool that helps the mother's breath until the mother died right in front of him.

After doing this heinous thing Andromeda suddenly panicked, as if he did not believe what he was doing until he was unconscious for a moment, andheera, who was standing next to him, only looked blankly.

Until the medics arrived, because of the noise caused by medical devices that sounded.

Because there was only Andheera standing there everyone immediately looked at him suspiciously, because it could not have been the actions of his brother, because clearly Andromeda was lying on the floor unconscious.

No one knows the truth of the story other than Andheera and Andromeda the perpetrator, but because his love is so deep for his brother, Andheera continued to bury deeply into the true story and let her brother tell the story according to a version of his own memory.

Although the memory was wrong, and certainly had a big impact on Andheera, but he just fell silent not trying to stop his brother or tell the truth to his grandmother.

Because it is proven that he once tried to tell his father, but unfortunately he ignored it as if his father trusted his sister's story more than him. Until he can only move with the existing circumstances.

“I have to how..” he said with a groan of tears that are so painful.

***

At the Hanyoora family residence, more precisely in the room of the youngest daughter Shana.

“sak maah..” whine Hanyoora once in her room but her mother still clasped her arm tightly.

“sick?!

Then what about mama, Hanyoora!! you secretly come to the hospital and go to the mental doctor? what if a mama's partner sees you.

are you depressed, Hanyoora, tell mama what made you decide to go to the mental doctor?!

is it because your boyfriend broke up with you again, huh?

already mama said only focus on your education, instead of busy dating an obscure man! why do you always make mama worry about you.”

Shana was so surprised at that time, she was speechless.

“i am tired maa.(murm Hanyoora while kicking her mother's eyes with watery eyes)

I understand you want me to have a good future like sister Yesa and sister Joan,

but…

but it's very difficult for me maa, I. I can't adapt to my current classroom environment, many are smarter than me, even though I have tried to continue learning and practicing even I have not had enough sleep, I still cannot surpass everyone as my mother wanted!!

I've been trying mah, until my head almost broke it felt like, I had to consult a mental doctor because you're all too busy with your work, if I don't take out all the burden of my mind, I'm forced to consult a mental doctor, I think I can GO CRAZY mah!!” hanyoora shouted interrupted his sobs that were becoming more and more, while his mother just stood looking as if she could not believe that what was before him was his youngest daughter.

“even I have thought to die alone rather than me being crazy, and troublesome mama, because it has failed to be the daughter that mama dreamed of, forgive me.” He then left his mother who was silent while crying without a sound.

***

In front of the hospital room Yerim, his steps stopped for a moment his arm was not so to pull the door handle of his room. Yes, after a short walk he returned to his room, but when he heard the sound of his mother's cries, the girl paused her intention for a moment and heard the conversation of her mother and father from behind the door.

“how is this well, brother has started to recover, is our daughter going to jail? our daughter is innocent father, what should we do.”

“ayah will sell bakery bu, to hire a lawyer, so that brother is free and will only be in rehab.”

“ayah sure?

Isn't that the hereditary business of dad's parents?”

“iya, I am very sure, we who have made kaka born into this world, there is no way we make him suffer no, I will try our best for our small family.”

Hearing the conversation made Yerim feel very guilty, because because he was the parents became difficult, even to want to sell a bakery relics from his grandparents first.

Tears of pain were not inevitable anymore, because did not want his parents to hear the sound of crying he closed his mouth and then left again, to momentarily calm his heart in any direction.

***

Around the city park.

The time showed at 20:00, right after getting off the busway, Hanyoora intended to walk around the city park just with a wallet in his pants pocket, because his phone was destroyed thrown by him.

The girl continued to walk down the streets in the city park while hugging herself as it began to feel the coldness of the night angina, although it seemed crowded by some people milling through it, but different from her heart, he felt really lonely, no one by his side.

There is no one to rely on they are all busy with their respective activities,

Now he no longer has it, because of his own selfishness he lost Jaehyun.

Friends, they are tired of the burden they now bear, there is no way Hanyoora added it again with her burden.

Until a few minutes later when Hanyoora's legs began to weaken and almost fell, someone from behind swiftly held Hanyoora's shoulder from the side while putting his jacket on Hanyoora.

Until the two eyes met, how surprised Hanyoora saw someone who was beside her.

“kak Yonggi.” muttered as he tried to blink both eyes, if only his brain gave the wrong signal to his eyes.

“how are you, Yooyoo.” greet Min Yonggi who makes Hanyoora feel happy not to play, to unwittingly widen his smile.

“do not usually you walk to a place like this, alone as well.” he added while trying to invite Hanyoora to walk again.

Hanyoora complied and they both continued their ways.

“aku.. I only.”

“forgive me, for ever leaving you just like that, I was carried away by emotions until I was unaware that I had become a loser, because instead of facing the problem of running away.” The story goes that she moved by embracing Hanyoora's shoulder.

“what brother is okay?” Ask Hanyoora who changed the topic.

“hmm..” nod slowly.

“since when did big brother, decide to become an idol?”

“all you want is to produce a song, sort of work behind the scenes so, but big brother boss deplores it, he says you have to make the right use of your handsome face, so yes taka da takah also brother try.” His face is full of confidence.

“iya sis is indeed very handsome.hihi.” Chirps Hanyoora chuckling.

“hahaha!!

I'm so very guilty of you, forgive my rude words to you first huh.” He said as he rubbed the back of Hanyoora's head.

“I've forgiven you long ago really,” Hanyoora's response while turning to Yonggi whose height is not far from him.

“then why when you were in front of the agency, you even glared at me like that, as if you wanted to stab me with your two narrow eyes.” His complaints while removing his embrace and switch by looking at Hanyoora who began to round his narrowed eyes.

“so sister saw it?

And brother just passed me, did not go down.” grumbled Hanyoora after he knew if Yonggi also found out where he was at that time.

“hehehehehe.. sorry ..maaf.” he said as he ran away from Hanyoora who seemed to start blasting his emotions.

Sure enough they both even ran around the city park with a happy laugh that emanated from the faces of both. For a moment Hanyoora could feel better, thanks to Yonggi's sudden presence.

It made the girl forget the pain she had just felt.

***

Seriate…