DIRASTA (ON GOING)
24. Contrition
Regret always comes at the end, because God wants to see you in the process, and when the final grade comes out, your task is not to lament but to repair Aldi Varenza Munaf
Aldi knows it's a late form of regret, but his heart can't lie if he wants Danira. Aldi played his guitar singing a song called The Scientist from Coldplay.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I have to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tail
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's like a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
“Wehhh mellow ni” Sapa Zaky , Aldi stops its activity.
“Bother both of you”
“Di, lo again there is the same problem Orion?” Orion's question makes Aldi more badmood.
“Gw go first” Aldi choose to go rather than have to tell about Orion
“You are why the hell so kayak gini, why our friendship so not solid gini” Zaky vented his heart, making Aldi stop his steps.
“Gw do not know what happened to you and Orion Di, but I hope you can be mature to react to it, I know you are the most able to think of adulthood among us” Zaky continued his speech.
Well indeed Aldi is the most cold-brained among the four of them. Aldi is a person who can melt the atmosphere and mediate when they are fighting.
***
“Kak Orion wants breakfast now?” I hope today my relationship with Orion can be better after the things that made us misunderstand. Brother Orion changed his position towards me, instead of waking up he hugged me.
“Nyaman” Wirings
I'm also comfortable kak there in your arms like gini, even though it hasn't been bathing but Orion's body scent doesn't smell at all. Why, but I like hehehe.
“Kak not laper?” I asked again, instead of answering Orion's brother even kissed my forehead, as a result of my cheeks blush made.
“Udah noon, sister did not school” Tanyaku again and again.
“Enggak” Beoku
“Keep sister truant?”
“You forgot what day it is?”
“What day is it?”
“Think alone” Brother Orion even more tightened his embrace, I feel comfort in the chest of Orion's field. We also fell back asleep.
Again his presence pisses me off, who else if not Anna.
“For Anna” My reply is no less gentle
“Kak Orion is there?” ihhh said tanya emang can not see such a big person.
“Ganteng ya our husband” said Anna again, I want to taste like moss his mouth with flour dough in my hand.
“I went there first yes, bye Dira”
“Yon, yuk” road Invite Anna
“Gak”
“IHHHH lo why the hell cuekin me?”
“Gw can no longer nemenin lo, I want nemenin Danira”
“But Yon I came all the way to lo”
“Now everything is different, I've married lo tau it”
“Kok lo suddenly gini sih”
“Gw don't want to hurt wife gw”
“ORION LO DO NOT LOVE HIM, LO ONLY KASIAN” I was jolted to hear Anna's words, is it true that Orion's brother does not really love me.
“Don't ever see me again” Orion stared coldly at Anna and went to the room. Anna looked cynically at me, and left the house.
I know Orion's brother is not doing well, I brought his food to the room.
“Kak, eat yuk” Invite me while approaching the place where Orion is sitting.
“Ra” Call Orion, and I turn. Brother Orion held both of my cheeks rubbing it gently and ended up with a brief kiss on my lips. I feel the beat of my irregular heart, I'm sure my cheeks are red now. But for the first time I dared to look Orion in the eye. Orion brought his face closer, now not a kiss but rather******* the subtle thing Orion did to my lips. God, I could die.
I took a deep breath as the kiss came off and suddenly we became awkward with each other.
“Eat” Say Orion suddenly
“I-iya kak” We also eat food that I have cooked.
“Ra, I can ask you something to lo” Deg my heart stops, will Brother Orion ask for it
“Why confused, you think what?”
“Emmm not kok brother, brother Orion ask what?” My blood rippled as Orion stared intently back at me
“Lo just calm down, I will not ask for it if you are not ready. I'm just asking you to stay away from all my friends, especially Aldi”, I turned my face towards Orion who has changed his standing position. Want me to ask why? But I don't want to make Orion's brother angry again, serem. I just nodded.
As I was tidying my clothes in the closet, I saw the diary I kept under my pile. Diary book giving the god bang when I'm birthday. I haven't seen my family in a long time. Do they miss me too, but even if they never call me even if they just ask me. Did dad really cut his relationship with me. No, there's never been such a thing as an ex-child or vice versa. I am still my father's son and my father's father. Well, Dira never forgets to doain dad, hopefully healthy dad always. I could not feel my tears dripping down a picture of me with my father.
***
“Kak” Sapa Salsa's
“Our business is done never appear before gw again” Lucas said ketus without staring at Salsa
“Wait for kak” Salsa to hold Lucas' hand
“Lepasin” Quickly Lucas flings Salsa's hand with sarcasm
“It's disgusting that you're the same gw” Pekik Salsa, seeing Lucas' departure.
No one knows what Lucas really felt, how many women Lucas had broken. Just because of his disappointment with his parents. Even innocent women have to be victims. Danira Egawasta, since when did Lucas know the name. Lucas himself did not know when Lucas clearly regretted his actions to the girl. His best friend is responsible for the incident. Lucas cursed himself, why he had to choose this way to vent his emotions, why not another way. Basketball for example, but basketball has become his daily food and has become a regular thing for him. Because since Junior High Lucas and his friends have been an undefeated basketball team.
But of all those things there is one thing that Lucas regrets, he regrets to have taken away the girl's honor.