Beautiful Monster
Secrets Again?

"I came here to see you. I want to take you to the parking lot."

Rajendra's two simple sentences rattled Ignacia. There was something about this man that made him touched when he only said something that everyone must have heard.

Ignacia glanced at Nesya who had already walked first. He really wanted to give some distance to the pair of lovers who looked tenuous next door. Ignacia quickly made up her mind, nodding in agreement. But after that, Rajendra will be busy again.

"Why not wear shoes?" Ask Ignacia astonishment. It's not usually Rajendra to walk barefoot.

"The rain made my shoes wet."

It's true the rain came this afternoon. But where were Rajendra's shoes? Wasn't he in the chemistry lab and doing a lot of work? What does this have to do with rain? Never mind, Ignacia was lazy to think about it.

Nothing the two are talking about. Rajendra could not find the topic. Because to be honest, he only wanted to meet his girl before leaving her alone. There was no sense of regret when letting Ignacia also get busy with her own world. It is considered that everything Rajendra is doing right now is only for his future.

In addition, Ignacia could not ask anything. There was nothing Ignacia knew about Rajendra at this time. Like meeting a stranger for the first time. It's like just a few days into a relationship with someone who likes you first.

Both hands are in the middle. There is a sense of entwining if only this is not a school area. Only Ignacia seems to think so. Rajendra instead took the opportunity to just touch his girl for a second. I don't know what this guy thinks.

"When are you going home?"

"Maybe before dark."

"What did you do that long?"

"My busy."

How important is the secret to Rajendra?

Ignacia nodded without much protest. He does not want to be considered too meddling and interfering with Rajendra's life. If Ignacia had remained silent despite not being told much about Rajendra, she should have kept pretending not to know.

"Ignacia, I'm sending you a message. But why don't you give it back?" Rajendra whispers. A little closer to Ignacia.

"School wifi doesn't work very well. So I didn't open the phone. Ii'm sorry. I don't know if you're calling." Ignacia is not entirely lying. But since morning Ignacia did not use a cell phone to recover energy. Just read the online novel offline.

"really? Though WiFi in the school's chemistry lab is fine."

The parking lot is empty. People have gone home except those who still have important things at school. Ignacia has found the bike, Rajendra can leave it there.

"Thank you for driving me here. Come back, may your day go well."

Smiling at something that doesn't make you happy isn't easy. Ignacia forced him not to look disappointed. For the sake of a long-lasting and calm relationship without quarrels. The most important thing is that Rajendra may soon realize that he has died by Ignacia himself.

"certain. See you around. Be careful on the road."

...*****...

Not once did Rajendra show up when Ignacia was with Nesya when it was time to go home from school. Three four days passed with a slight 'emergence' of Rajendra in the middle of Ignacia and her friends. Even when around Ignacia there were still many friends, Rajendra was present.

What bothered Ignacia the most was that she was walking with some friends yesterday, coming out of the classroom through a new park. Rajendra is in a new park with two girls, friends for sure. I don't know what to say, but Ignacia must not have been told.

Seeing Ignacia walking through the park makes Rajendra then rise. He thought Rajendra would meet a male friend who often disturbed Ignacia. The bespectacled man who was also a member of MPK in the past. Haha Ignacia is always satisfied when talking about MPK in the past.

But apparently not. It is true what Nesya calls for.

"Rajendra will meet Ignacia."

Rajendra then took a position next to Ignacia, walking together like a few days before. In front of Ignacia were some of her friends, behind them too. Both are in the middle of the crowd. Not a crowd, but some people Ignacia knew.

"When are you home?" Ignacia asked.

As vigorously as he tried not to discuss something too sensitive as there were two people behind them. Ask about the usual. Commonly asked between couples.

"Eitherway. But I try not to come home too late."

The conversation stopped, both feeling awkward. Even so Rajendra turned back several times to look at Ignacia's friends. It feels uncomfortable if someone walks behind you. They most likely heard the conversation of the two.

"Why are you staring at us like that?" Ask a friend in the back. "Oh code for us to step aside? We'll get ahead of you soon."

After the departure of the two bullies, Rajendra could freely talk to Ignacia. "I'm sorry I couldn't reach you yesterday. When I sent you a message, you were inactive. You've gone to bed." That's not what Ignacia wants.

"No problem. I know if you're busy. Enjoy those busy times before they end."

"Don't apologize if you can't make me feel better, Rajendra. You're sorry but you didn't give me what you've saved" Ignacia said.

...*****...

It's been a week Rajendra has been doing his thing by taking Ignacia and then back somewhere. It had been a week that Ignacia's happiness faded away from the rain. It feels hot and uncomfortable. If you want to be busy, be busy. Why should I come back?

That day Ignacia had an important presentation. Yes he said the presentation, but apparently the task of making a video presentation. After finishing with his group, Ignacia went to Nesya's group. Unfortunately, the two are not one group because the group is determined by the teacher.

They are never lucky to be in such a situation.

"So Rajendra's running a boat race out of town?" Asked a male friend from Nesya's group. A male friend who is apparently an extracurricular with Rajendra in robotics. Hearing that Ignacia frowned, feeling awkward and strange.

"The race to make ships?" Ignacia Beo.

"Oh you don't know? It's been a week's walk. I don't know when they're leaving, because I'm not coming. Isn't Rajendra going to tell you something before he leaves?"

No. gabe. Rajendra said nothing. But Ignacia didn't want to admit it. "Oh really? It seems I forgot. That's right, so he's been busy lately. I rarely even see it."

...*****...

There was a chance to meet Rajendra after school that day. Ignacia wants to talk about going out of town for the race this time. Rajendra could not avoid being questioned. The water of a happy looking face turned confused. There may be a desire to lie but not to do so.

"I didn't talk about it because I didn't feel good about leaving you. I left you before without spending much time together. So, I want to leave for a while before you look for me."

"It's not the first time I've known news about you but not directly from you, Rajendra." Sorry if it's too much, but it feels Ignacia is nobody if you don't know anything saol Rajendra. Like no ordinary lover.

"I'm sorry. This time I want to let you know if we've won the award. If we make it home with the champions. That way I can explain the reason why I've been so busy lately."

"That's what it looks like." Never mind, Ignacia was lazy to talk about it.

"By the way, Rajendra," Ignacia spoke again. Before that he looked towards his friends who were in front. Friends who were chatting without involving him. "I want to say something."

"Can you just let me go home with friends if it's not just me and Nesya? Nesya might be able to handle it, but if there are other friends, I'm a little uncomfortable."

May Ignacia's words not hurt her. But it doesn't seem like it. Instead of answering, Rajendra makes an appointment for the two to meet tomorrow night. When Rajendra does not have the busy making ships. He will give you the answer that day.

"I'm sorry if you're offended, Rajendra."

"No, that's not what it means. Now I'll get you to the parking lot and be right back."

...*****...

Rajendra comes to pick her up, takes her girl away to a place that Ignacia says she will love. A cafe with many books in it. There was no way Ignacia could close her eyes and pretend not to see him. It might change the mood of the girl.

There was a small, fluffy smile when I saw Ignacia amazed by the cafe Rajendra had managed to find. But of course it can not be separated from Nesya's recommendation. Someone who knows his lover best.

Rajendra likes that facial expression. The look on Ignacia's face that looked like a nice little boy got a birthday present. He usually changes the water of that face.

"Ignacia," call Rajendra. The girl had just sat down with a book in her hand. The views of the two met immediately. "I'm sorry I was too busy and didn't say anything to you. I'm sorry I didn't tell you and let you know."

Rajendra took one of Ignacia's hands, grasping it gently. Coupled with a stern look and looked very different. "If I tell you that I'm leaving, I'm afraid to see your reaction. I'm afraid of ruining your day like last time when I was busy and couldn't be contacted often."

Rajendra is sorry?

"But if you don't tell me, there will be someone to tell you. I hate it when it happens." Ignacia looked down, looking at her hand which was in the grasp of Rajendra's two hands. Too embarrassed to look both of Rajendra's black eyes.

"You're making me lonely, Rajendra. I don't know much about your activities. Even your friends know, but why don't I? You left me alone with no news."

"I'm sorry."

Just an apology? That's not what Ignacia was trying to get.

"I'm leaving next week, I'm not ready to tell you yet," Rajendra's hand moved to raise Ignacia's face to look at her, "want to go somewhere again after this? I want to be with you longer. I don't want to go when I miss you."

...*****...

Ignacia didn't say much in the backseat. He only strengthened his grip on the end of Rajendra's jacket because he was upset. His mind was too busy thinking about what he should do if Rajendra could not be contacted. How about when Rajendra should be so busy and forget about him all day.

Or what if Rajendra takes more pictures with women? Feby's a threat. Sarah too. Should there be any other female names on Ignacia's list after Rajendra returns from the race?

"Holding it right" Rajendra scolded from behind the helmet as it stopped at a red light. Even Ignacia was not aware if her hands were in Rajendra's hands to hug her waist as usual when shaking hands.

"Don't till you fall for not holding on to me properly."

"I-Yes," nervous Ignacia.

Rajendra's motorcycle stopped on a hill. Again the place that makes Ignacia keep on remembering Rajendra. A place he says can make Ignacia realize Rajendra isn't everything. But why should this man say that to someone who likes him?

Someone who loves him.

The two sat on empty garden chairs. Staring at the night view of the busy city. Sunday Night. Of course everyone will enjoy this most enjoyable holiday by going out. Take a walk to remove all the burden of the mind. Rajendra did the same.

"Ignacia," Rajendra opened his voice, "if you want to contact me, just send me a message. I don't like your hesitant attitude to contact me. Why should you doubt? I never mind if you send a message. Call me anytime."

Ignacia listened, slowly leaning her head on Rajendra's shoulder. As soon as Rajendra finished talking, the girl responded. "If I call you when you're busy, doesn't that interfere with your concentration? I don't like to disturb others. I feel guilty."

"Don't talk like that. I don't like."

"Then I'm sorry."

The mood changed quietly. Both silent. Wrestling with each other's minds.

"To be honest, there was a big brother who asked me to leave tonight" Rajendra said. Making Ignacia justify her sitting position and staring at Rajendra as if asking, 'then why not go?'

"But I refused because I wanted to go with you. When else can I take you out for nights like this? I don't want to lose anything."

Ignacia smiled faintly, putting her head back on Rajendra's shoulder. "Rajendra, sometimes I think about how I feel about you. Both of us, but why do I feel like I'm still alone? And after I thought, apparently because I was too hesitant to contact you and you have a busy world. I just realized our world is different."

"Therefore," Rajendra turned his head, "ask you to keep contacting me even though I am busy. You know how nervous I was when I didn't get the message? I'm afraid of something bad is broken"

The cup!

Ignacia stopped Rajendra's sentence. A brief peck of the lips she missed. "If we're afraid, can't we go back to the past? When I can really see you around me."