Beautiful Monster
Towards Athira

In the morning, Ignacia hurriedly woke up to be able to clean her face again. After chatting with her father last night, Ignacia had already washed her face so as not to leave a mark later on. Unfortunately Ignacia thwarted the attempt by returning to tears before going to bed. His father's words made him very confused.

Therefore his father balked if Ignacia dated during school first. A reasonable reason why his father did not want his son not to be allowed to have romantic relationships with men. Approaching the people of Adam alone was not allowed first when still Junior High. Until Ignacia broke with a bad relationship with Bagas.

Athira awakens when she feels the sun touch her cheek. He did not find the whereabouts of his father and brother that morning. The father is most likely drinking coffee in the backyard because there is a smell of coffee from there. Then where's her brother? Athira gets up, checking if her brother is with her father.

"You want coffee?" His father offers when he realizes Athira's presence in the door frame. His second son shook his head, asking for his brother's whereabouts. Afraid last night she only dreamed her brother was home. Her father said, Ignacia seems to be in her room. Then I was doing the morning ritual.

Not yet arrived at the door of her brother's room, Athira was surprised by her brother who suddenly appeared. Apparently her brother's whereabouts were not a dream. Oh if you look around why does her brother's eyes look puffy? "Sister quarreled with Rajendra?" That's all Athira can guess. Last night's events must have been unthinkable for him.

"No, I just miss him."

Her brother did not look to be lying, let alone with that spiritless face. All right, Athira believe me. "If you're okay, what if you take me to buy some equipment for college?" Another request for help before the younger brother occupied his cost for three days to adjust.

Ignacia will not refuse. The place that Athira wanted to visit was inside a bookstore that Ignacia used to go to in addition to the one in the mall. Yes, Ignacia used to come there often, squandering money to love herself by reading many books she wanted. Now Ignacia will go there again.

The brothers left right after lunch. The kitchen has returned to its original state and is used for eating as it should. Ignacia was lazy to drive, so she let Athira do it. He will entrust the life and safety of his motorbike to his sister. Let him look around while the two headed for the bookstore.

Athira told me that he made a lot of paintings in sketchbooks rather than canvases so that his room was back. Too much canvas takes up too much space. Moreover, he is the type of artist who always wants to imagine his work on the wall. The room looks like an art exhibition.

Ignacia certainly listened to all her sister's stories throughout the journey. They haven't talked for a long time. The brother put his head on the shoulder of the sister, so that it is easier to hear the story. After the story was finished, Ignacia would return to her original position of noticing around the street.

As you can remember, this bookstore is always crowded with those who are students. More students than adults. The only reason is because the price is very friendly for students even though all books are original books.

Athira took her sister away to a shelf that sold a lot of paint as well as brushes. This kid already has a lot but still wants to buy a new one. The reason is because there are damaged and less comfortable to wear. Also it will distinguish the kiss for at home and brush the needs of college. For paint, some colors are exhausted and must be refilled.

"No, you can look through the books on the second floor if you want. No need to follow me here"

Ignacia who had been standing quietly watched her sister look at the many colors of paint and then passed away according to the suggestion of the first sister. Maybe he will refuse. Order to contact him if his business is done. Ignacia did not plan on choosing any books, unless one caught her eye.

More students than below. They swarm the shelves of fiction books published from online novel applications. It looks like there's a new book from their latest author. Ignacia traced another bookshelf. Looking for a light genre book, as a friend waiting for Rajendra. Ah the habit of waiting and venting on the novel back again.

Miss Cream may be putting out a new novel. Ignacia wants to try to find him here. He is not sure if this year his favorite author will publish a new book. Ignacia is not too focused on what she likes as a result of being busy in college. If Ignacia dreams of becoming Miss Cream's partner, is it a little overwhelming? To know his activities.

Ah but Ignacia doesn't have the ability to write novels. All he could do was read. If you read a lot, you can write. The idea was good, Ignacia could try it one day. A girl passed by Ignacia while clutching a novel. In terms of cover, Ignacia like seeing a novel that has the characteristics of Miss Cream.

He stopped the man and asked where he got the book from. It looked like the book that had been bermum Ignacia had known before. Then at the end of the hallway, Ignacia saw clearly who the girl she had just met was. "Utari, is that you?" Ignacia asked hesitantly.

When the girl turned her head, the girl's round eyes met Ignacia's brown bead. Right, it was his friend who was studying in a faraway place until the two had never met. Utari was surprised by the whereabouts of her friend. He walked towards Ignacia and hugged his friend. Instead of being happy, she was crying on her friend's shoulder.

Fortunately they were in a fairly quiet place so Ignacia did not need to explain anything to those who saw. Utari cried in silence, her lips seemed to quiver before hugging Ignacia earlier. This girl must have a lot to tell. The two of them had to sit down and chat somewhere.

There Utari is calm. His back in the bay was soft as an emotional support. For five minutes Utari was still hugging her friend. Then the hug loosened and Ignacia could see the wet face of the friend. As Ignacia thought, Utari had a sad story to say.

Ignacia asked her sister to go home first. If Ignacia was going home, Athira would call to pick her up. Now he has business with his friend. Utari was taken out of the bookstore. On the front sidewalk there is an empty bench. The one who was invited to obey, held all the tightness before telling a story.

It's about the man Utari likes. The man she told me about when she reunited with friends last time. Yes, that's the inspiration of the painting man. After a long time the two know each other and are close, Utari must accept the bitter reality because Ilham is dating others. Utari blames herself for wishing too much for people who do not know her feelings.

Even more sad, the woman Ilham dated was a girl from the Utari class. He was better than Utari in all his courses. He got to understand why people as perfect as Ilham could like his friend. Besides being beautiful and smart, her personality is also good. Utari felt unable to match him.

Utari is fully aware that Ilham is interested in him just because both have the same hobby, just that seeing a good man he likes makes the heart hurt. Utari saw with her own eyes that Ilham joined hands with her lover. On a clear day, why should Utari see Inspiration with people who are not her?

The sadness he was feeling while watching the man's affection exploded upon seeing Ignacia. People he believes can make himself feel better. He was in the same university as Indri, it would have been different if not to tell Ignacia.

"After they dated, Ilham rarely sent me messages in games. At first, we talked a lot while playing together. It was like losing a new close friend."

It might be natural for Utari to feel hurt alone. They have no relationship other than good friends. Inspiration attitude is reasonable if you start rarely contact Utari in the second game. The attitude that will be done any good man who has been in a relationship with a girl of his tribe. It's just that the attitude of Inspiration is too good until the pain of Utari deepens.

Ignacia was confused as to how to talk. All you can do is listen, give your full attention. Utari also added that he made several paintings for Ilham before he knew if the paintings were eaten with his girlfriend. The girl who told Utari, she thanked him for the painting.

Maybe the disappointed one should be Ilham's lover because there was a girl who made her lover paint several times. If Ignacia was in that position, she would feel hurt. Afraid that his girlfriend will change her mind. The relationship of inspiration with the girl must have been more meaningful. The girl thanked Utari politely.

"I'm ashamed to have to deal with my friend, Ignacia. I'm worried about what she's thinking because I'm paying attention to her lover." Utari looked at Ignacia, "I think she was disappointed, angry, mixed with sadness. Like when I found Rajendra chatting with other women, right?"

"You know best, Utari."

Utari exhaled a long breath, leaning the tensed body onto the backrest. He gave up, it's just not good if he doesn't tell someone. Now he will forget the feelings he has felt for the past four years. Think of it yesterday as just a decoration for the world of Utari that has not flowered.

Ignacia still had to wait for Athira after the departure of her friend. Hearing Utari's story earlier, is it possible that Rajendra can get the same attention? That means there might be a girl who gives him something because she doesn't know if Rajendra has one. If so, Rajendra will tell Ignacia or not?

"Sister," Finally the one waiting came too. "Sister's friend was okay? I'm a little worried."

"Yes, he's fine. I think he just blew up waiting for time to tell me."

Arriving home, Ignacia went straight to the room. The messy-looking utari really made him afraid as well as feel guilty. Ignacia should not have encouraged Utari to approach Inspiration. It is wrong to give support for what his friend feels.

The phone is on, a message is coming in. Rajendra sent a message. Ignacia stared at her phone without any intention of grabbing it. His life was like half left, not strong to just reach for the phone on the bed. His hands shook, afraid to face Rajendra.

Since Ignacia did not respond, Rajendra switched to voice calls. Ignacia should raise before making anxiety on the lover. "Ignacia, hello. I miss you so much." Rajendra's voice sounded so happy. He paid all attention to his lover.

Rajendra apologizes for missing the hour to send a message. He has been busy until now just getting in touch. Reportedly the man is eating now. So just think of it as eating while chatting as usual. Ignacia's lips twitched, her tongue was a mute tongue to speak.

"Ignacia, are you there? Why didn't you respond? Ignacia, are you okay?"

Ignacia's body fell to the floor. Both of his legs lost the strength to stand. The phone in his hand was out of his grasp. Rajendra's question made the dam in his eye crack. Flooding Ignacia's smooth cheeks. His mess was heard by Rajendra, making the one who heard him panic.

Ignacia was crying alone, making no noise. He used his own mouth hold, after last night's incident, now he's making others suffer. Why did Ignacia have to say that to Utari? Why should Inspiration thwart the happiness of his friend? Why did the world make Ignacia feel so bad?

His name continues to be called, Rajendra almost desperate because there is only a sound of sobbing. Shortly after, the sound of the door being opened suddenly made a noise. From her voice, it was probably Athira who came. His brother's issue almost stopped, his face flushed red from trying to hold back.

The sister took her brother into a hug, trying to calm down as she had to. Athira looked around, finding her sister's phone still connected to someone's call. Athira tries to explain what happened, saying that later her brother will contact Rajendra. The call ended.

"I encouraged Utari to approach a man. But apparently those guys are dating someone else." A sense of tightness enveloped Ignacia's heart. This must have been a side effect of talking to his father last night. Ignacia's heart became even more sensitive after someone hugged her while crying in pain.

There was no point in saying that her brother was innocent. Athira was at a loss for words. His sister looked so sad, blaming herself so many times. Athira was sure that what her brother was stirring but not because of the brother's interference. God has made another groove for his friend, not Ignacia's fault.

"I feel guilty for him. Utari wept," said Ignacia again.

Athira strengthens his decapitation. From the door frame, his entire family stood staring at the brothers there. I feel pain when I hear the first child.