Beautiful Monster
My explanation

Rajendra immediately forgot about the hunger from what he heard from the end of the call. Her boyfriend sounded in pain, for whatever reason. Then a few moments later there was the sound of a door and a quick step closer to the phone. Rajendra is still not calm though Athira has already said that everything is fine and Ignacia will call back later.

The thick-browed man stared intently at the phone, waiting for when Ignacia would contact him. He should have been able to come to know what happened. Ignacia cried, that was all she heard, that was all that Athira said. Rajendra is not angry, certainly not. He's worried. Very-very worried.

Lunch hours don't last forever. He had to eat before the next schedule. Maybe tonight after everything's under control, Ignacia just called. Let's just say Ignacia owes a detailed explanation of what happened today. Though initially Rajendra wanted to be accompanied when eating instead of falling into shock.

Time passed so slowly, Rajendra was waiting for his lover's message from noon. The afternoon changed, dinner was gone. Rajendra is still on standby next to his charging phone. And last night the two chatted loudly, now what happened? It is almost frustrating to wait without such certainty.

On the other hand, Ignacia is still gathering strength to explain to Rajendra. Finding her family who knew she was crying was embarrassing. Ignacia's sensitive feelings should have been hidden by herself. No one should have seen that emotional outburst other than himself. Fortunately, Athira tells everyone to leave, closes the door and returns to her brother.

There Ignacia spilled the confusion about Utari. Still assume that everything is a mess because of him. His family did not give the school a reaction something new happened. The pretenses they were displaying were so perfect that Ignacia felt even more guilty. His madness should not have been brought home.

Ignacia could not sleep even after her sleeping hours were missed. The girl sat in the middle of her bed leaning against the head of the mattress. He is considering whether he will contact Rajendra at this time or not. For hours he tried to think, then a decision finally came.

The first call came before Ignacia grabbed her phone. It was clearly a call from the lover. The girl gets a lot of question attacks. Now how will he explain? Rajendra probably won't understand because Ignacia is just very sensitive. His feelings may not come to his lover who uses more logic.

"I'm sorry I overreacted earlier."

"Why are you crying like that, Ignacia? Did something bad happen? You can share it with me. We find a solution together. How's it?" Isn't Rajendra too good? Even he cared about things that he definitely thought were unnatural. Ignacia was very lucky.

Ignacia weighed in on the answer, did she have to start everything from the emotional outburst her father had said? Because he was not close to his father, Ignacia suggested to Utari that a good man could like him again after knowing him for some time. If Ignacia told you that, Rajendra might be able to get things straight.

Without bringing his father's words about getting acquainted with the good people who had been guarding Ignacia all this time. Ignacia may have hidden intentions.

Begin Ignacia's story of the night's conversation, with her father and the story of the past. Gives an understanding of why the two have to date secretly from the girl's father. The reason Rajendra could not ask permission directly to his girl's parents before going on a date. Rajendra understood, the reason made sense.

Because of this story, Rajendra came to know why her girl was so difficult to leave alone. It was so sad when it felt like no one could stand next to it. The story of Ignacia's father takes her to another point of view besides the fact that Ignacia already likes her so much that she can't take things off once. Sensitive and emotional side of the girl.

Move to a meeting with Utari. The story of the man he likes and the advice Ignacia gives when she first learns that her friend is in love with a good man. Ignacia no longer cried when discussing it. His soul is too tired. Until here, Ignacia only revealed what she felt as a result of her father's story.

His feelings are still carried away by his father's story. Which is certainly a side effect of the past role playing is huge. If Rajendra had been at his house, now the two would have met. Calm her girl like a good man.

A little bit of regret enveloped Rajendra. When her girl faces a difficult problem, facing the other side of herself, Rajendra cannot attend to just be a comforter friend. He considers less if not physically present. Can't see the girl's condition directly.

"Now how are you doing? Everything all right?" Rajendra asked in a sad tone.

At the end of the call, Ignacia gave a small nod knowing her lover would not be able to see it. "I'm back to Ignacia, it's just that my energy is up. I'm running out of strength to do anything. Thank you for calling me first, Rajendra. Thank you for making sure I'm okay."

"Of course I'll make sure you're okay. No need to thank you, it's a role I should give you every time. I'll try to see you this month. We'll have quality time together and have fun."

This guy is perfect for Ignacia. After the senseless sad story, he would still welcome Ignacia well. Without thinking about the feelings of Ignacia that the girl herself considered to be sick and disabled. Everyone probably needs one guy like Rajendra.

"Yes, I like it. Next time I want to spend more time with you. Just you and me."

...*****...

The next day Ignacia did not want to leave the room. Even when we are invited to eat, we are reluctant. He asked everyone to leave himself to take care of the messy heart. Quietly also awaits a message from Rajendra. The only person he hangs hope on as an encouragement.

Audible people who could provide comfort did exist, just not those Ignacia wanted. Even though Ignacia was so nervous dealing with her lover, so stiff it even seemed to not care, the Ignacia always wanted Rajendra. There was Nesya and her nine best friends. Just like his father said, right?

The idolized man.

Several times Athira knocked on the door of the brother's room, telling him if he put a plate of food in front. Ignacia didn't touch her breakfast, lunch was just her side dish, and dinner was only half her time. Maybe less than half. His appetite was disturbed.

By the way, it was Ignacia's intention to deliver the sister to the boarding house. How could he deliver if his own condition was still so chaotic. Heart problems are hard to overcome on your own. With the help of others Ignacia was unable, feeling unworthy of it.

"Ignacia, I know you're an adult and want to make your own kris. Do you know that health is the most precious treasure of all? If you're not well, everything you do will feel heavier and more torturous, you know?"

The one he was talking to looked at the door he had locked from the inside. Find out what the other meant by his father's words. Does it have anything to do with that night? He hopes not. His soul is too tired. A day of confinement does not have a meaningful effect.

"Sleep well, maybe tomorrow you'll feel better. I hope you finish the breakfast Athira brought you tomorrow. Good night."

Ignacia was still in her position, curled up on the bed with a thick novel in hand. From morning Rajendra had not arrived. No, Ignacia won't blame anyone anymore. Just where did his favorite man go? Not all day is enough to do the activity. There is a girl who needs attention.

After a while, Ignacia began to yawn, drowsiness attacked even though he knew the body still wanted to be awake. It's not time to go to sleep yet, just finished dinner. Right too, Rajendra must be resting and eating. Hard workers like him deserve some time to relax.

So long waiting, Ignacia was about to finish the book she read from morning. A new record for him, reading a four hundred-page tome over the course of a day. Not one of his books that is too interesting even though it is true. It's just that Ignacia doesn't know what to do. In addition to doing what he usually does.

Silence, everyone may already be in their respective rooms. Relax and enjoy some precious time before the sun comes back up the next day. It might be okay if Ignacia comes out of the room for a while. His throat feels dry. Do not forget to bring empty glasses that are given along with food today.

Looking at the kitchen, Ignacia seemed to be able to see a shadow of herself with her father sitting by the door. His father peeled and passed the apples but none of Ignacia managed to eat. The girl pulled the chair, intending to sit there while drinking so that the glass could be washed immediately.

Time passed, with Ignacia's heavy steps back to the room. Close the door perfectly without making any noise. On the bed, something lit up. Quickly Ignacia grabbed the phone and swiped the button on it. So he sat down at the end of the bed.

"Hi, I'm glad you called. How was your day, Rajendra? I'm worried because you didn't tell." Slowly Ignacia positioned her seat comfortably. A smile expands like it just got a big reward. Finally the waiting came.

The noise around the call signifies Rajendra is outside the room. Must be on a public vehicle. "Sorry, I was busy. Sorry for worrying you. My day is running as usual, fun. How're you? From your voice, it sounds good today."

How would Ignacia say it? It's fun to be able to read a novel alone without any distractions. The world of last year's lectures made him no longer able to touch the novels he had not read. Only Fitbar packs that he always carries while facing the laptop.

"Yes, I'm happy to read another novel. Rajendra you're still out? Even though you are not working part-time, you still go home at night. Are you tired? After coming down later, hurry up and get some rest." His words just now were opposite to heart. There was no way Ignacia would have to charge so much time at this hour.

Rajendra, according to what his girlfriend said. Because there is good news that he wants to tell you. After this Rajendra will only be busy from morning until noon. Furthermore, there will be a lot of free time because it has succeeded in carrying out the task. Then there is one holiday Rajendra can use to go home and see Ignacia.

The girl's smile was so happy that it felt like there were a lot of butterflies flying in her stomach. Then Ignacia will end this time of confinement and begin to prepare mental and physical conditions to meet the idol. Oh before that, is Ignacia going to lie about going with her friend again? Rajendra is not a friend.

"I'll go home after my busy life is over and come back tomorrow night. You okay with that?"

"of course. What matters is that I can meet you. When will you be home again?"

Hearing that Rajendra chuckled, "I haven't done it yet you've asked me when I'm coming home again. About that I don't know. If possible, I'll go home." The man looked out the window at the bus, imagining a warm night before he had to leave Ignacia.

Still the plan has made Rajendra also smile widely. Hope he can come to Ignacia at least once a month. Rajendra will also adjust to Ignacia's schedule if only her girl has started working. Their life full of struggles will soon arrive at the finish. Just a few more steps.

"Rajendra, can I pick you up at the station?"

"No need, I'll come to you. Is it okay if I pick up my girlfriend during the day? You'll see how things are at home and I'll adjust as well." Back in time they had to hide dating even from their second school friends. Except those who caught Ignacia wet at Rajendra's house.

"Then I wait at home. Just tell me when we'll meet. I'll get ready quickly."

Ignacia did not know where her lover had arrived, because since then there was still motor vehicle noise. He did not dare also ask when Rajendra would soon arrive at the boarding house. Fear Rajendra hastened to end the call. And Ignacia had to wait a long time to chat with her lover.

Rajendra was confused as to what they should do when they met. All the dates that both of them can do are done. A date can be done in no time before both Ignacia's parents realize the odd thing. What other date night can they do?

"Eating three-flavored ice cream? All this time we ate only one. Hows it? You wanna try it?"

As always, dating is not afdol without ice cream.