A Bond's
chapter 41

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may we all be healthy always

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It was the feeling of longing and guilt for Alexander that made me like this, plus the feeling of disappointment towards my mother made me numb, now in addition to being pensive in the room after going home from college, rarely eating, insomnia is added with my Hobby drinking coffee even if I fall asleep often have nightmares and wake up and cry.

Is this how alexsander feels?!

This morning, my body and head were heavy hoping that the dizziness of my head was gone, I was fingering my forehead, oh my gosh this is so hot! with all my might I forced my body down from the bed but instead I fell on the floor suddenly my vision blurred.

"Am I dreaming..?!" hah I must be hallucinating my murmur slowly.I reached out caressing her face and smiled.

"Alexander...."

"Yes, you are dreaming." he said.

"When did you come?!" I was weak with disappointment because none of this was real.

"Since then." she answered by stroking my cheek.

"I miss you so much" I said quietly, almost whispering.

"Me too..."

"To.please sorry mama ya.." I said stammering because I could not stem my tears.

He was silent, not telling me and just looking at me.

"Don't leave me.Even though this is in a dream not real, I beg you not to go.....!!" I asked in a sobbing.I held my hand as hard as I could.

He smiled and kissed my forehead.

"I won't leave you, as long as you promise me" he said.

"What promise?!"

"Promise not to torture yourself like this again, understand?!"

I just nodded.

"Then go back to sleep, rest and don't think about anything, I'll be here" he said again.

I again nodded obediently, oh although this is in a dream and just a hallucination I am very happy.

I opened my eyes slowly and tried to straighten my body on the bed rest in one of the hospital rooms.

"Tan..has woken up?"

"Cock me here brother?!" ask curiously.

"Kemaren Nabila who took you to the hospital" replied kak nindi while offering a glass of water.

"It's a good thing that you call Nabila and tell him that you are sick again" said kak nindi again.

"Telfon?!" I sorted my forehead because I don't remember calling Nabila yesterday.

"Take care of Tan's health, being healthy is important" said kak nindi while fumbling at my forehead.

"From yesterday you were not aware of Tan, the same sister Nabila was very worried.

"From yesterday unconscious?! meaning last night was just a dream yes, I muttered to myself slowly.

"What's Tan?!"

"Ah.no!! my bell.

"Because you've woken up, sister went to college first yes later Nabila will be here, Nabila, oh yes brother also did not tell your brother and if there is anything call his sister yes said kak nindi at length.

"Sister, please don't tell Brother or mama first! i'm welding.

Nindi thought for a moment, then nodded.

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I closed my boarding gate with the origin, this morning the first lecture 15 minutes away.I put the last bite of my bread and rush down the sidewalk immediately to campus.

It is true that he said a few days ago even in a dream, I had to keep his promise that life should go on and I should not drag on in grief.

Walking towards the campus, I saw him get out of his car in the car park. As usual he was wearing black clothes, for a few seconds we looked at each other and then he threw the first hand away from me and then walked towards the veterinary school. I sighed, trying to neutralize the rumbling feeling of having to call him a stranger, but it was hard.....

"Tan..do you not want to go home?!

I was silent not answering Nabila's question, not that I did not want to go home but remembered what my mother did to make me so undo the intention to go home.

"Your mama every day nelfonin I Tan, ask you" said Nabila.

"Tan, can you forget your mama's past and apologize?! you can't forgive me, but why don't you?!" said Nabila again.

"Bil, mama has always cared for me and kept me strictly forbidding this but in fact my own mother who.." I can't continue my sentence.

"Tan, answer honestly.

"What?!"

"Actually you are disappointed because your mam cheated on you from the guy you love, right?!"

I just kept quiet and breathed.

Ragga D'Lory🥰🥰