Wife Sah Rasa Kebaban
Awaiting you.

Pov Aisyah's.

I got off the taxi that took us to a big hospital in the city center. I ran away from Mbok Sariyah who was shuffled to match my quick footsteps.

"Non, wait for Non!" he cried and I stopped my footsteps when I heard his call.

Mbok Sariyah was already standing in front of me with a stingy breath.

"Come Mbok, Brother really needs us," I said by pulling one hand that feels cold and wet with sweat.Being my husband's nanny since he was a toddler makes the bond between the two feel very tight. Until his worry was bigger than me who was even a matter of months to be his wife.

I stopped when a gurney with a patient whose entire face was barely recognizable flashed in front of me. A few nurses beside a man with a stethoscope around his neck walked quickly with the patient.

I decided to follow the group of patients. I don't know why my feeling is so bad right now. My mind is far away somewhere. When a female nurse wearing a white hijab flashed in front of me I ventured to intercept her to ask.

"Sus.May I know about the patient who just entered the room," I pointed to the room that read the letters ICU on the door.

"The accident patient Brother. His name is Mr. Al" he said, rushing away and as if he had given me no chance to ask again.

My world really felt cramped and too dark this second. All the similarities that could have happened like this?

My brain is like it's repeating all the encyclopedias about Bang Ale. All of his sweet words and promises this morning were perfectly summed up in my memory. And without me replaying it is now the sound of Bang Ale like the thump of mariam that bersalu in my sense of hearing. I covered my ears, then wept bitterly in Mbok Sariyah's arms.

"Istighfar Non's. Pray that the Young Master can go through his critical years, "I shook my head not caring about the advice of the woman whose hair remained black despite her twilight years.

"What a lie again Mbok! He said he would be with me this weekend. But, now what? In fact, he was still at home with his eyes closed. Brother!" I shouted hysterically from behind the glass of this room.

"Patience Non. God is never wrong in giving tests to His servants. It's gonna be okay. Mr. Ale is a strong man Non. Rest assured!" he said by using my body to sit in the chair in front of the room.

Every time I remember Bang Ale's sweet words, then my tears flowed too. I didn't even think of contacting my two in-laws. Until now I saw them without panicking in his quick footsteps. I just kept watching them come. There was Abram who was also present.

"Ai" Mama immediately hugged me with her sobbing cry. I know as fucked up and as worried what his feelings are right now. The one who first felt his presence, even before his body was born into this world. The one who always and always will pray for him even long before my husband's Bang Ale is present in his womb.

"Watch where's Brother?" I turned my head to hear the same sister-in-law question as this Bang Ale.

Without answering I turned my eyes to this room in front of me. Papa, Mama and Abraam immediately ran into the room. Mama without wiping the glass divider of the room, as if she was rubbing the face of her eldest son who was still sleeping with his peace there.

"All, wake up Al. Mama's here Al, "that's all I can still hear. How devastated his feelings were when the son who became his pride rolled helplessly like this moment. Papa rubs Mama's back slowly, giving her strength. Although I know his feelings are no less ruined with Mama.

"We should pray for Brother Ma" I saw that my brother-in-law was now walking towards the mosque followed by Papa.

I'm like a man who has no faith right now. I seem to have forgotten that There is a Supreme Being all over me above all my anxieties and worries. That it was all very easy for him. Only sometimes a little problem given by Him can eliminate the billions of favors that we have received.

I walked with the help of Mbok Sariyah who always faithfully held one hand.

The atmosphere is very quiet in this mushola. Papa and Abram have been out since.

I put all the trouble on him. He gives and I'm sure He will finish it.

A doctor without him came out of the room where Bang Ale was handled.

"How is my husband doc?" many approached.

"Your husband is still unconscious. The wound that hit his head without it was very serious. Need intensive care,"

"Can I go with him, Doc?" ask again.

" Just one person, yes" he said kindly and hurried away.

I looked at Papa and Mama-in-law who were now focusing on her eldest son.

"Ma, Pa," Mama and Papa approached.

"Go Ai. You are more worthy of your husband. Mama and Papa will always accompany you here," said Papa as if he understood what I was going to say.

I nodded with relief hearing her words. I know they want to get into that room too. However, the comfort of my husband is the main thing right now. In addition, he has not been aware of fainting or worse than his coma.

After wearing a special green dress complete with a hat and mask. I'm in.

My footsteps who were originally very excited to see the condition of my husband with a closer distance without a barrier in fact are now changing slowly.Entah why, the sadness and pain is now like rampant in my heart.

I was sitting next to hospital bed Bang Ale which I had not really been able to recognize his face which was now covered in bandages. Not to mention a few infusion hoses that stick to his nose and also his hands. And there are still more tools connected to the monitor screen that flickers with the sound of his heartbeat is still weak.

"Abang," I said with one hand. I carried his hand in my arms. Kuciumi over and over again and for much longer. My tears came down earlier than my voice.

"The promise will not be a loser who never keeps his promise. But now what? Brother even left me without a sound like this. Don't sleep too long Bang. Aisyah longs," I have not dared to embrace her body, remembering the advice of the doctor before I entered this room.

"Don't shock the patient. Whisper sentences about the future life you will live. Do not transfer words that are disappointed, sad and desperate. Tell me all about a wonderful and happy life with her,"

I wiped away the tears that were still faithfully flowing nonstop. I must be strong for Bang Ale who now desperately needs an injection of spirit from me. There's no point in suing. After all, he is just like us. He is also undergoing his play.

"The gate must wake up. My brother promised to accompany me this week. I don't want to go with Mbok Sariyah. Not happy Bang. I also want to be like a married couple in general Bang. I want to be in a gang with Brother. Not in the same direction Mbok Sariyah. I want to be bribed with Brother. Not eating together Mbok Sariyah," I said by presenting a fake smile between the taste buds on my chest.

It felt like I really wanted to hit his chest when he didn't respond at all to my words earlier. If what happened was not like this. Surely Bang Ale has been chasing and seducing me.

Ah, Brother. Why are you still silent?

*

*

*