Visible Loser
WHO IS THAT GUY ?

The incident in Jogja, makes it difficult for me to accept this situation. My affection for Dian has not been so growing but my journey and Dian for one year is not also arguably for a moment.

I seem too early to judge Dian's loyalty. Even though we do activities almost every day. Maybe in the midst of my busy life, Dian took advantage of this moment to connect with the man.

It was exactly as I thought at the beginning, when I first got to know Dian. Dian was so aggressive, because she felt lonely. Or because the person he loves is more concerned with the principle than Dian.

From the Meta of my former hostel friend, I finally knew who the man was. Meta is classmate Dian, She has always been a friend of Dian's story because Dian always visits her boarding room if I am not in my room.

Meta tells me, (Meta is pretty too, like Lyodra Idol) that I might be Dian's runaway. Dian is difficult to forget her first love as well as the first person to introduce Dian about the affection of a lover.

Dian's selfishness grew because of that man as well. The man was named Yoga.

Yoga is Dian's schoolmate in high school. Yoga has always been with Dian since I was in my eleventh grade.

Actually Meta was also surprised, Dian was even more often with me than with Yoga. Because as far as Meta knows, Yoga is still a girlfriend from Dian. Their relationship is serious, they always go where the two are.

Meta did not dare to tell all this before, because Meta is still frequented by Dian. Meta is afraid of Dian getting angry and considers him a traitor.

Yoga at that time was still a medical faculty student at one of the state universities in the city of Jogja. The intensity of Dian's encounter with Yoga may be reduced as they separate cities.

This is where Dian always feels lonely, because Dian is the type of person who can not be far from her partner. Actually Meta does not know also that Dian and Yoga are still dating because Meta see Dian always with me.

But when I was first in London. Meta was also surprised that Yoga still picked up Dian at her KKN place. In fact they are always together in each of us holding meetings to complete our group tasks.

Here Meta knows the reason, why Dian does not want to live with Meta or his other KKN group friends. It's all because of Yoga.

He said Yoga had an apartment there, so they could be more free to live together. That apartment might be what I consider a hostel.

Thus, the story of Meta is related to Yoga. I ventured to ask this to Meta a month later from the incident in Jogja. Because indeed Meta I have considered as a close friend of Dian in my boarding house especially they were once a class in high school.

Initially Meta did not dare to tell. But when Meta found out, I would leave that hostel and move to another one. It was Meta himself who invited me to listen to his story.

Meta also did not have the heart with me to start telling everything. But because of the coercion of me and I promise I will no longer ask this to Meta, if everything is clear. Then he began to dare and comfortably reveal everything.

Finally I am also relieved and feel this is the best path for all of us.

Meta can stay at the boarding house comfortably, because I am no longer one with him. Dian has also returned with her ex-boyfriend and hopefully always happy. While I will be happy with my own world, trying to forget everything that has happened with Dian.

Yoga is indeed I often pergoki in the Dian sms box. I occasionally try kepo with the contents of Dian's phone. But I guess Yoga was her sister's name, it was an answer from Dian when the text was caught from me.

"Who's that, Yan ?" ask me at that time.

"Oh.. That's Chris Mas. He is often called Yoga with his theater friends if they are all here. So I type the name Yoga compared to Mas Chris. At the same time ridiculing him is also the one who cheated." Dian replied at that time.

Stupidly I believe also with Dian and it turns out Yoga was the one who called Dian when I first visited Dian's house.

This was my first experience in dating. My first experience in getting to know a woman I consider to be, innocent, graceful, kind and loyal. I also recently became a victim of a female crush.

I feel like a loser. I'm like a loser who loses in the cage. I'm like an away loser.

Nevi also when hearing this story felt disappointed as well. But as a friend, he can only strengthen me by treating me to my favorite food.

Risa was even worse, she said she was so angry with Dian. Said Meta, Risa had grabbed Dian's hair and told Dian to stay away from me. Meta said it was the spontaneous emotion of a woman when she knew that a sincere person had been wasted.

Because of this too, I once somewhat rose his emotions with Risa. Because do not let this carelessness, make Risa called to the Dean's room. Nevi also calmed the mood and apologized with me.

But it's all happened, it's all good.

Risa is still close to Nevi, even Nevi is being monitored continuously by Risa in order to graduate together. Risa's dream, she wants me, Nevi and He can take a photo using the toga on the same day.

Nevi and Risa are currently the same as I am compiling the thesis. Their theme is also the same as mine, related to the development of pharmaceutical industry. So that there are also mentors who are the same.

It's just, they're the process of completing it both while I'm alone. But Risa and Nevi are ready to help as well, if I need their help in executing the data.

Three more months is a long schedule for all of us to prepare for and face the final exam. Now there is no more play, we all seem serious about this final task.

Risa sometimes I see crying in Nevi's arms, when she is down or facing a lot of revisition in her script.

Nevi is also the same, he more often invites me and Risa to enjoy nature to open her inspiration and creativity. I was very lucky to be in their neighborhood. When I get ideas too, I sometimes invite them to eat while discussing.

My ideal, I just want to graduate from this campus in a good way. No longer thinking about the past, because for my future, I will also leave this city and will never return again.

I have been able to forget my story with Dian, although once we have met and passed each other on campus, I can also avoid him. Sometimes a glimpse of Dian is heard calling me when I am seen by her, but I can already hurriedly unplug leaving her alone.

In college I was always with Nevi and Risa, there were even people I greeted other than them. If you have Meta, I might join you. But Meta is still too busy with his gang. Meta also seems to be no longer close to Dian. Because according to Meta, Dian always where with Yoga lover. Because of the info after graduation, they will hold a wedding reception.

I hope this is the best for Dian. I also had I finished my mission, I could have left this city comfortably. There is no heart waiting for me in this city. But that is if my thesis trial can be passed.well and not until repeated next semester.

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Three months had finally passed so quickly, Risa and Nevi had already finished her trial with satisfactory results. Now it's my turn, Risa and Nevi come to me.

"Eagerness, Mas. You can definitely !" risa's Message.

"Yes Sa, thank you" I replied.

Nevi hugged me, gave me encouragement and spirit that I too could definitely complete this last mission.

"Can it be Broo !" whisky Nevi.

"Ready, I've bought you guys to eat ya eat." answered me again.

I left them both to enter my thesis exam room.

In that room I started my presentation, I opened all my research files in front of the examiners. I served the three examiners quietly and until I finally managed to get them to close the hearing with their applause.

"I've graduated, I've succeeded God." I bowed in gratitude before them. I'm grateful I've been through all this well. The examiner took turns shaking my hand to congratulate me.

When outside the testing room, Risa and Nevi greeted me with joy. We finally got to graduate together. Me, Nevi and Risa plan to celebrate this all in our campus cafeteria. I'll pay for their meal to the fullest, but when we're busy celebrating all this.

"Now !" Someone called my name from behind.

I immediately turned to the direction of the call, it turned out that Dian was already standing behind me.

Risa and Nevi seemed to immediately attract me to no longer serve Dian. But I hold back their intentions.

"Before a minute, you go to the cafeteria first. I'll take it." Later." Pint me to Deer and Nevi.

Finally Nevi and Risa followed my will, they first went down the stairs of the second-floor corridor to head towards the canteen.

"Why Yan ?" ask me.

"Congratulations, you've managed to solve everything" Dian replied.

"Thank you, you're done too." I asked again. "Waiting for graduation too. Congratulations to you !" I stretched my hand out before Dian.

Dian shook my hand.

"Ok, I say yes." I asked, "That's good, I've been waiting for them in the cafeteria." I turned and left Dian. Dian kept watching me leave her and disappeared behind the stepmother.

Thank you Yan, it is fortunate that we are not dissolved in feelings. Maybe if we don't do this, we'll be shackled between our beliefs and our affections.

Inside the canteen saw Nevi and Risa waiting for me. This time I'm going to buy them lunch. They are very enthusiastic and really happy, like having released a heavy burden on each shoulder.

"Ka, what was Dian doing ?" tanya Risa arrived.

"Oh, he just wanted to congratulate me" I replied.

"Is that all ?" reply Nevi.

"That's it." answered me again.

"If Doi asks for a return how Ka ?" Risa Fishing.

"No, Hahahaha." I replied with a laugh.

I don't know, I've completely forgotten it. Although my last meeting with Dian was later, only at graduation. But there was not the slightest desire for me to go back to him.

He's already put his true love and I'm just reciprocating his affection with sincerity. When it was all over, I could only look at it from a distance and continue to pray for it for their affection to last forever.

As for me, I am just a piece of his story. Which he will always forget.

And I, as a loser, have to keep smiling to find new love.

(connecting.).