
Living life alone without a husband is very difficult for me. Moreover, I have to work after giving birth to my son who is now six months old.
I had to leave him to Miss Fatimah, my real mother. He was the one who took care of Dennis, my son, and my love for the late Mas Abizar.
Just saying her name made my chest feel tight. Especially if you remember the times he was alive. It felt like his smile never disappeared when I closed my eyes.
Although we are different, but I always pray for him. Dying in a state of no pain is a sign that he is a good person.
It was with this heart when she left me when I was pregnant. In less than a few weeks I gave birth, but she was called first by the Almighty.
No one knows when someone will die. They cannot predict. Nor would they have expected it to come suddenly. I can only accept my destiny as a widow.
Having a child that I now need to bear all her needs makes me have to work outside the home. Thankfully, my parents supported me. I teach as a tutoring teacher at a tutoring institution. In addition I am also a student of a college because I continue my education to the S2 level.
If I thought I was too busy. Even sharing time with my son was a bit of a problem. I think twenty-four hours a day is less for me. If in the morning I attend college until the end, in the afternoon I will teach the children in a dumbbell class.
I just finished at night. My son was asleep when I got home. My daughter never felt my love when she woke up. I can only accompany him when he sleeps.
Sometimes at night I have to wake up because he's hungry. I never complained about that. I am tired but I enjoy it. Taking care of Dennis is the way I love my late husband. Both mean equally.
"I'm sorry, dear. Mama can't accompany you to play in the morning until the afternoon" I muttered while carrying my son.
After he fell asleep again, I also fell down beside him. To me smelling her scent made me feel stressed all day.
"I wonder why I smell telon oil whenever I'm close to you?" ask one of my friends. I did not tell you that my status is a one-child widow.
I didn't answer the question. I just smiled in response to Tiara's words.
"Good morning" said my lecturer who filled the course this morning. I always take college seriously. Even so seriously my grades never dropped. Lecturers like me a lot because I am a good student.
But there is one teacher who sucks the most among all the lecturers I know. "Annisa, can you please bring your friends' tasks at the table?" The lecturer just told me. He left after giving me orders.
I don't know what that means? Why always oppress me like this? That's what's always on my mind. Of the many students who followed his lecture, only I was always ruled by Mr. Raka.
"Tiara, I'm so sorry. I have to take this to Mr. Raka's room" I said farewell to my best friend.
"I suspect that Mr. Raka likes you" Tiara recalls.
"As far as you are. But even if there were no more stock of men in the world, I wouldn't have chosen them by force."
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