The Twin Sons the Ruler
A letter to Papa.

Amanda searches for Aby's whereabouts who went somewhere after leaving the dinner table. The area of Bagaskara's family home is vast, so Amanda has little trouble finding Aby.

Unable to find Aby, her son, Amanda decides to return to the pavilion where they live.

"Aci ... Aby ... Where are you, son?" call Amanda while walking around looking all over the room. However, there was no sign that Aby was there. Amanda swung her legs, stepped into her son's room, but she still could not find Aby in the room.

Amanda almost came out of the room again, but suddenly stopped because there was something popping out from under the pillow that caught her attention. Amanda lifted the pillow, and grabbed the object that turned out to be a small book, which she believed belonged to Aby, because her name was written on it.

Amanda opened the little book, to see what her son had written.

A letter to Papa

Papa's? daddy's?

A very foreign word to me, but I'd love to say it.

How are you, papa? maybe I**I don't know if I deserve to ask anyone who's still asking me who and where.

Papa, meet me, I'm Abyasa, your eldest son. I have a twin sister named Anin.

Papa, sometimes I ask in my heart why my sister and I can be different from my friends. They have complete parents but why don't we? Mama always told Aby to play together with friends, not Aby did not want to. Aby also wants to play with them. But every time they told me about their papa, Abi was sad. If staying at home does not make Aby sad, Aby will stay at home.

Papa ...

know not one of Aby's ideals that Aby desperately wants to achieve? Aby is eager to create a 'fatherless country' so that all the children in it can be happy, and do not feel that he is different from his friends as Aby and Anin feel.

The thing that Aby likes the most is 'sleeping'. Because by sleeping, Aby hopes papa comes to greet Aby in a dream, so that Aby can feel happy to have papa even if only in a dream.

Aby wants to hate papa, because she has the heart to leave us, but honestly papa, Aby can't. Aby can't hate people Aby doesn't know at all. Aby wanted to ask mommy, who is our papa? is he alive or dead? if she's alive, Aby wants to know who and where? but when he's dead, Aby wants to know where your grave is. But Aby was scared, so mom was sad when Aby asked like that. Aby can only pray that you will tell me and Anin who our father is and where he is now.

Aby wanted to say the name of papa, every time Aby prayed, but would she say what name? Aby doesn't know papa's name at all.

Papa, Aby knows that many say Aby is strange, still small but rich adults. But this isn't Aby's wish, pa. Aby just wants to be a boy and an older brother who can protect Mom and Anin.

Pa, Aby is dying to scream 'Aby hates papa!' but hugging you was the thing Aby wanted more. Pa, Aby prayed that someday we could meet, so that I could really hug you.

Greetings from Aby.

Amanda closed the little book containing her son's curses. Amanda's cheeks are soaked in tears. Amanda never thought, behind the silence of Aby, it was a big longing for her father. He tried to cover up the longing just to keep his mother from being sad.

"What should I do, son? you don't even know who and where your father is. I'm sorry, son, I'm sorry!" Amanda held Aby's little book to her chest tightly.

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"Where have you been, honey?" Amanda clutches up with Aby as soon as Aby comes in.

"Aby's not going anywhere, Mah. Aby just went around outside." Aby expanded her smile, covering up all her sadness.

"Not that, Mama should have started working today? why is my mom still home?" aby asked with a slight tilt of her head.

"Mama was worried about you, so mama's permission to start working tomorrow." Amanda gives a brief kiss on the top of Aby's head.

"Go to the main house first. Mama doesn't feel good about Mr. Rudi and Amara's mother." Aby nodded her head, and immediately stepped inside the room as soon as Amanda stepped out.

"Sister, Aby!"

Just as Aby was sitting on the bed, Anin suddenly appeared with a very pale face like no blood at all, and from the nose was bleeding.

" Anin, are you nosebleed again?! Anin nodded weakly. Aby got down from the bed and went straight to her sister and wiped the blood that was still seeping out of Anin's nose.

"You wait here, brother find cotton in big brother's bag first!" Aby ran towards her bag and looked for the thing she always carried and stored there. Because he knew, if he must need it to clean and hold the blood coming out of his sister's nose, which for several months often nosebleed and complained of pain in the stomach.

"Does your stomach hurt too?" ask Aby while wiping Anin's nose. And Anin just nodded her head, assuring.

"Sister, don't tell mama? later mama became sad again." Anin sighed softly while enduring the pain.

"But you need to be examined Anin.You've had long nosebleeds and stomach pains." said Aby.

"It's just an ordinary nosebleed, brother. Maybe because it was Anin soy sauce, playing the same oma Amara. If the stomach hurts, maybe because the fried rice was spicy," Anin gave an excuse, calming her brother.

"But you've been like this for a long time, Anin. When are you going to tell Mom?" scowl Aby with a voice that began to rise.

"Do you know what Brother? Anin is fine." Anin now wants bobo first." Anin walked with a slight limp, while holding her painful back.

"Why again your back and legs, Nin?" Aby swiftly petrified Anin walking towards the mattress.

"Sister, it hurts all of a sudden!" hissing Anin while grimacing in pain.

"I have to tell my mom!"

"No, Brother! Anin please, mama will be sad," Anin's face paled, pleading.

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