Rose Bullet
episode 4: the togetherness

..."December 11, 1995"...

since the military operation that took place a week ago we have been on leave as juniors in the military, we spent a lot of time together to get to know each other and get along.

"hey Sora I have something for you" Erika said as she picked up something from her closet

"taraaa.this is a scope that you can put on your rifle" he said

"really? is this for me? thanks Erika you do understand what your friend needs" I reply

after that we both came out of our dormitory and saw Sovia who was carrying a medicine box

"hey Sovia why did you bring that medicine box? " ask me

"the commander is sick and he does not want to die his desk.I wonder with that man why he was willing to die for something that does not necessarily give him an advantage? " said Sovia

"sick commander?" ask Erika

"yes maybe he was too tired, since the last surgery he rarely came out of his room" Sovia replied

"emm Sovia let me bring her" I suggested

"yes, if you don't mind, you can bring it" Sovia replied

after that, Erika and I went to the commander's office, where she looked limp and pale, she still finished the report she made well and on time, I'm so amazed by her

"excuse this commander I'm Sora, I brought medicine for you Sovia said the commander is sick" I said, knocking on the door

"yes enter Sora" his permission with a limp voice

"captain why doesn't the captain just take a break? " ask me

"i can't improve my work Sora" she replied

"then why didn't the commander hand it over to someone? it will make you rest, right? " sof Erika

"no Erika I don't want to trouble anyone else" she replied

hearing that I felt something that made me even more amazed by his handsome face, his persistence that never broke, he said, and the way he leads us all I like his traits like that, like he's a hero in my eyes just like my older brother used to be.

"yes then I will replace you for a while commander" Erika suggested

"no I can't just give up this Erika, this is an important report" she argued

"no commander I am the daughter of a general so I often help him make reports, yes a little bit I know how to make a good and correct report" Erika explained

"it's true that the captain is a reliable secretary, it's really Erika" I added

"all right then I leave this to you two" Rio ordered us

"yes commander" replied the two of us

after persuading the commander we delivered the commander to his room.

"well, Sora, I'm in the commander's room first, I will finish the job" Erika suggested

"yes please help Erika" I reply

I also helped take care of the commander all day, we talked, joked and occasionally confided in each other, and finally I ventured to ask him about the same person as me.

"captain ready the man you mean is similar to me? " ask me

"yes she was a girl my age when I was 15 just like you" she replied

"so you met her about 5 years ago didn't you? " my mouth

"yes I forgot his name but I still remember the nickname of the people on him" he replied

"what's that guy's nickname? " ask me

"the white bullet, it's her nickname she got it because of her achievements in the winter of 1992 she was recorded to have killed about 597 more people in 5 missions" he said

"wow really? he must be a strong man" I admire

" yes until finally I had to part with her in a battle axe operation two years ago" he said

hearing that story I started thinking maybe he would not fall in love with another woman other than that person, I continued my question

"do you love his commander? " ask me

"yes I love her so much" she replied

hearing that at once my emotions were mixed up not because I wanted to be angry but I realized I was not the person he loved but if I was sad it was also useless because I was not necessarily accepted nya, but all this makes me feel devastated.

"good captain it's the night I went back to my room first huh" I said while kissing his forehead

after I said that, I went back to my room, in the hallway of the headquarters I shed tears of my disappointment my heart was broken into pieces but on the other hand I realized I was a nobody just a subordinate who admired his superiors that alone. when I got to my room, I slept in my bed crying in the dark of the night. even though I was in a room with Erika I tried not to tell her about this I didn't want to make anyone else worry.

"Hicks... Hicks.why why am I crying I'm nobody to her" I muttered in tears

yes I am indeed a subordinate but I am also a human I can feel love and affection but this is the first wound I feel in my first uncertain love