Project : Alterization
Chapter 8's

I began to suffer from opium in composing this endless story. I can't stop writing for a day. It was as if writing had become a routine that I could not leave every day. Every time a friend tries to read my writing, they will criticize, mock, and vilify me. "When they can't do it themselves" I thought. But I was never discouraged. I make all their criticisms, whether it's about writing style, groove, or just the names of characters who are a bit strange, as a driver to be better. What I initially thought was that my writing would cease to exist when it reached forty pages because I could not bear it, and I do not feel that I have now succeeded in writing a book of four hundred and forty-four pages. It was unimaginable at first, but it really did happen.

Last year, exactly when I was third grade MTW, I had achieved some achievements that were the result of my hard work all along. One of them is the one I mentioned just now. In one semester, I managed to write a novel title until it was completed. Although, my first writing was still very ugly. But I'm proud. Because by experiencing the process, I can currently write a book that you are reading right now. Besides, I also managed to completely cull my rote of thirty juz. Again, although the quality of rote is also not as good as the memorizing santri of shuqqoh tahfidz. I was just trying to memorize it myself without depositing it. So, of course there will still be a lot of errors in my reading. And also, I am so weak on the memorized side. Because at that time, I only focused on memorizing without attach importance to the name muroja'ah. And lastly, I have started to become an expert in martial arts that I learned since the first grade of MTW first. Now I'm starting to enter new stages that might be more challenging. All of that made me forget about the reputation I was fighting for so much.

Here's life. Like a wheel, sometimes above and sometimes below. I began to understand some of the worst things like the harsh realities of life. But, what I want to emphasize here is one thing. Yes, a desire to change. I wouldn't have changed so far if I didn't have the will to change. And that desire is only owned by certain people. People who see the world as an immutable thing. Because everything will grow and change. Thus the discussion of growth mindset and fixed mindset.

The end of the word as the end of the chapter, I want to say a word. Someone once said this to me. "Where there is a will, there is an ability."