NOT PERPETRATORS
Drizzle Hit the Heart
I'm still waiting for the answer to come out of Bastian's mouth. I don't know what other reason he's gonna put out to make me believe. Already this afternoon I want to hear the answer about this one thing. When I opened one by one the groceries in Bastian's plastic bag, I grew suspicious.
"That?" Mas Bastian turned his face away from my sight.
"Mas!" I still held back the emotions in the chest that were about to explode. Although I was anxious there was another answer that would not hurt me.
"That's .. I just want to try."
I looked at him in wonder. "Don't you know that we're doing the Family Planning program? So, what's this thing for?"
"What's wrong with trying?" Mas Bastian said as he looked at me. There was a lie in his eyes. I feel that.
I also took a deep breath. Something that felt tight in my chest made me harder to speak. "Your reasons don't make sense, Mum!"
Mas Bastian stood up then pointed his index finger in front of my face. "Look! I'm tired! Your husband just got home! You're accusing me of all sorts! What kind of wife are you!"
I also stood facing him. I looked at those eyes sharp. Eyes that have been implying a glow of warmth. The eyes that have been highlighting our little family with affection. Eyes that shade this heart with sincerity and tenderness. Where are those eyes? While what is seen now, is an eye with a flash of red anger, as if behind the eye is stored anger that will soon spill. Eyes covered in a flash of lies.
"Mas, what have you been doing behind my back? Answer!" With all emotions, holding back the water that will spill over the face. All I want is an explanation from the depths of his heart. "Say, Mas!" I said while patting his chest. I hope he will be honest.
"I never did anything! Don't accuse me of anything!" Bastian's voice grew louder and louder. He had only ever behaved like this. Is this my tender husband?
"Then what is this?" I'm still trying to control my emotions. While holding one piece of evidence in hand.
"I'm tired of talking to you! I'm going to bed. Tired!"
Bastian went to the room. Letting me stand up and tear up. I dropped the body on the floor. My heart was collapsing, along with my trust.
What exactly was my fault? What caused him to turn away from me? What is my lack? So that he could betray the loyalty that had been awake all this time. In fact, I can still reject someone who was once very special. In order to maintain the integrity of my household.
Not yet dry these tears, followed by the specks of rain falling, soaking the earth so cold night. I went to the room. Laying down beside Arka-who was between us. I looked at the body of the man who betrayed me. He lay on his back to us. For a moment I stroked Arka's hair slowly, then kissed her forehead. In my heart I pray, to be strengthened. Yes, Lord .. Strengthen and strengthen my soul.
I hug the little guy who's awake. With tears constantly drenching my cheeks, I chanted a prayer. We ask for patience and safety for us. Ask Him to always maintain the harmony and integrity of our household. Even if I don't know. Can you forgive yourself.
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The birdsong sounded simple. Arousing people who are still awake in deep. These eyes are half open. There was a heavy burden when it forced him open. I think my eyes are already swollen enough from the drizzle that hit my heart last night.
I washed my face with water flowing from inside the faucet. These eyes are already very sore due to the burden of feeling all night. Enough's enough! I need to talk to him again! After all, I don't know if Bastian has done that or if he will. I took a deep breath. Resisting the anger that is still stirring in the mind.
After washing my face, I headed to the kitchen. Take water to refresh the throat. As I began to gulp, there was the sound of footsteps approaching..
"My wife."
I stopped gulping. Put the glass in the sink. Look back. I saw a man standing right behind me.
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Hi, Dear Readers ....
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Uh, how, here! Bastian has been found out. Imania wants to forgive him or not?
Hm .. it hurts, I think. Do you feel the feeling of Faith? Or maybe ... Have you ever experienced the same thing as Imania? Ah, no, donk? Hope not, huh?
I'll do well You guys are the same couple? There is no lie between us!
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