Love Triangle
be discovered

sierli's days are no longer as they used to be, he can only lie in a room full of tools that have been memorized every sound,,,, he said,, day after day Sierli who used to be able to go to campus, laughing with his friends now can not be felt anymore, how can the level to the toilet he relied on the help of his mother,, how can,, sometimes he wants to give up and he thinks to end it all makes him not to suffer anymore,,

sierli, who was that morning at the point where his fatigue had been well, the nurse who had come to give breakfast to the hospitalized patients, slowly open the room and put the meal on the table next to the bed.

"it's breakfast yes ser" said the nurse, yes some of the contents of this hospital may already know me. the nurse then left me. I was back alone in the room, too, mom and dad went home for a little while to get some clothes and take a shower to refresh their tub which might have been 3 days without a shower since I was transferred to a special room.

I don't know what demon possessed me, suddenly the tears I've been holding back all this time were able to come out, instantly I hated everything, I hated my sick self, I hate having to trouble my parents, I hate my helpless self whose level of going out just can't, I hate everything, I accidentally push down the tray that contains my breakfast, I just want to get out of it, and "brukkkkk" instantly everything fell apart on the floor with that loud bang.

mama who was walking slowly in the corridor of the hospital immediately ran because she was worried about the sound of a loud blow.

mama who opened the door quickly saw sierli sitting down and crying while staring at the food that had been scattered on the floor.

his mother could only close her mouth and shed her tears unable to see the sierli that perhaps whoever was in her position might do as well or perhaps more.. mama approached sierli slowly,

mama immediately pulled sierli into her arms, sierli who let go of her mama's embrace forcefully,,,

mama Sierli rounded her eyes in wonder at the attitude of the sierli "you why son?",, while wiping away tears.

"i hate, I hate ma as sierli himself, why sierli can gini, I hate ma, I want to go home, sierli is not strong ma, sierli is bored, sierli wants to DIE aja,,,,,, sierli,,,,,serli, don't want to make mama bother,,,," while yelling, he said,

mama Sierli then hugged the already perhaps somewhat frustrated sierli while patting his back,,, without a word actually mama sierli do not know what else to do for sierli who according to doctors his condition did show in the direction of improving but lately he is getting worse, but lately he is getting worse, maybe because of the stress with the pain he was suffering.

"you'll be all right, baby, mama's here just like you, mama's there" patted sierli's back gently to calm him down.

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that day somehow day might have been at my saturation point, I don't know what to do, my days with just drugs, injections, drops, enter this room, enter that room, enter that room, this check that check, I don't know, I'm so frustrated, why hasn't it improved, why hasn't it healed,, is it going to be like this forever?, I don't know, either,

only the night can understand me and always accompany me when the teardrops begin to fall, so that the night is a silent witness when the sierli can not withstand everything.

that morning Sierli returned as usual, not as angry as yesterday,

mama who feeds me breakfast while telling me something funny so I can smile at the beginning of this morning. I can only smile thinly to mama to appreciate the struggle of mama who wants to make me forget the pain of my body.

that morning mama did want to go home to the first boarding house to rest because I had not seen her sleep well for a long time, now the dull face of the mother also looks like a lack of sleep with the presence of the black part in the eye area of the mother, often called the panda eyes effect of staying up late.

my mother's return to the boarding house was replaced with my best friend iza, iza who then took care of me for today.

iza sat next to me and told me things that happened as long as I didn't go to college. With her cute accent I could be made to laugh loosely, she said, and my feeling has been a long time since I laughed like this as if the burden of my life was no longer there and as if I was healing, but it was just my feeling.

isa also took out a diary book that I know.

"this is my book I pinjem kemaren, hehehh" with a suspicious smile.

I picked it up and checked it out, but there was nothing strange about it, after I read it, I just understood, "lo read it all?" while rounding his eyes...

"heheheheh, dikit doang mah I read it, sorry I yak, it's sassy to read your personal",, while putting up a guilty expression.

"mas-alah lo who likes the same adrian, you really ser?"

I can't answer, I don't think without me even answering iza knows the answer, "lo I think you already know the answer",,, I guess",,

"jeez ser, you are not kapok-kapok ya, have been hurt as adrian still lo nyimpen dalem"

sierli also explained everything about his feelings towards adrian to iza, iza who is only a good listener.

unexpectedly that day Adrian apparently heard the conversation between sierli and iza about him, at that time he really wanted to visit sierli, but because there was special talk about him his steps came to a halt right in front of the door of the room sierli was treated. he did not expect all this time Sierli really loved her and so many sacrifices that sierli gave to her, but his attitude to sieli was just like playing around all this time,, adrian was so sorry for his actions.really sorry, but this is the right time to meet Sierli.

adrian also undoes his intention to visit Sierli.

maybe tomorrow he can meet with Sierli and question what he has heard......

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a bit disappointed anyway because the reading is not much, maybe because the story is monotonous yak,,,

so sad I nyah,,,, 😢😢😢😢