Love Sholeha
Forced to surrender

After remaining silent on her alphabet, Sholeha was reluctant to think about what her mother had said earlier. He was still comfortable with his chin up while muttering to call God's Asma, Sholeha a little unraveling all the images of everything that happened on that day.

With a slightly pitched offer of orders from his mother made Sholeha look lethargic after the Dzuhur prayer.

"May not be it if Leha can't talk Mom, Sholeha does not want, later Sholeha can't" he said to himself.

He took a deep breath, lazily Sholeha folded her prayer mat and face, standing while staring out the window.

"Tell me God," he murmured.

Before the Adhan, my mother came to see Sholeha in her room. Mother gave advice and some advice, after being seen by her daughter who had not left her bed since morning.

"Nduk, nduk, wake up anyway Sholeha, you're not bosen there anyway. Koyok uler mattress for a long time!" mom patted Sholeha's shoulder. He came again when Adzan finished reverberating.

"Bentar Buk, all dzuhur-an later," he said still closed and writhing.

"This look at Mom, there needs to be a mother ki kok even ndak wake up!" Sholeha was still silent, she did not want to respond to the mother.

"Sholeha the son of Ibuk MasyaAllah Nduk, come sit here!" his orders once again.

Sholeha hurried to move on, after feeling her mother was heard talking about important things. " What's the matter my dear mother, how is it really that important ?" sahut while struggling spoiled in the hands of the mother.

"Where ? Arman went to the house this Sunday, he said he wanted to apply for you, if so let your mother call, let's come here on Saturday, let's ndak mepet. It's easy to arrange food and other preparations."

Not done yet his mother spoke to see the face of Sholeha who grew moody.

"Mom, Mas Arman isn't here. He said he's not ready to get married this year"

"However Nduk, how long ago this mother was not sure of him. Seriously what's up, you're not sad at that ?"

Mother seemed very upset given Sholeha's promise delivered last night. As much as Sholeha's energy held back the tears, given the disappointment towards Arman.

"Propay ma'am, Leha is also confused"

"Talk again Nduk, news of your application has been heard a lot, what else are your friends. If you can, don't be long ! " her mother stepped out of the room.

"What do I need to do ?" he said in his heart.

After a brief pause, Sholeha went to pray. Still very busy heart and mind, he began to remember how Arman delivered the cancellation promise later Sunday.

After dating Arman one year ago, Sholeha wants to have a family soon, because of the mother's insistence too often. But whatever the power, not so in lamar even Arman broke off the relationship as if giving up before struggling.

Surprisingly Sholeha did not look sad, only she felt bad for her mother. He has not told the truth to his mother. Especially seeing an impatient mother who wants to immediately have a ghost this year.

Sholeha, more precisely Rahma Nia Sholeha is the youngest child in the family of the father of Sulaiman and the mother of Fatma, who is old enough to be married. He did not introduce his girlfriend to his parents. He only told Arman about his parents occasionally.

Given all the complaints his mother every day makes him worried about his comfort in an old relationship without clarity with Arman. When he asked for marriage, it was decided by Arman. Yes, it was broken even hard, his intention to make the family happy was even disappointing, so great regret in the heart.

"Yes, surrender is the important effort" he said to himself.

Later after Maghrib Sholeha will talk again with his parents.

His courage and calmness came after he prayed and prayed earlier.

What needs to be underlined, he does not look the slightest bit sad, but does not lie if his heart is injured and disappointed or he is tired of facing his story that is repeatedly given unclear expectations by Arman.

Sholeha could not wait any longer if there was no certainty, she did not give up but decided to admit defeat from her patience to accompany Arman without clarity of the direction of the relationship.

Although he eventually had to be heartbroken, Sholeha could not care anymore, he could not continue this story.

***

At that time Sholeha met Arman after returning from work, the two talked at their subscription meatball stall.

" She, I'm asking for a proposal right away"

" Ha, Mas will often tell you we are like this before, not ready for me to marry this year, " replied Arman without hesitation.

" We can postpone the marriage Mas, the others are too"

" I still need to make a lot of money"

Sholeha didn't want much more to say, she was tired of persuading him.

Suddenly Arman looked at Sholeha, "We just cut off this relationship, I see you don't want to be with me anymore, you look impatient lately" Arman said suddenly.

His eyes did not see the slightest sadness, no matter what possessed Arman at that time, Sholeha could not understand the man.

" Why?" Sholeha asked confusedly.

" In order for you to get married soon, just find someone who wants to marry you in the near future "he replied firmly.

" It's like it's heartbreak, you're too brave to hurt me like this"

At that time, Sholeha did not want to cry.

Too disappointed, making his tears freeze, the harsh words hurt him were unable to drop his tears.

Sholeha rubbed her chest violently, remembering the last meeting with Arman who is now her ex-lover a year ago. Sholeha did not even imagine this would be the end of the story, although only hope Sholeha also wanted to have a family with Arman to old age.

"Maybe we're just a matchmaker up here, if I can get married sooner than you, I hope I can forget and immediately fix the expectations of being with someone new" Sholeha steeled herself with her own words.

I don't know what kind of gaping wound was in his heart, which was clear though a small one must be painful. Only Sholeha could feel it.

" We fight once again, we reassemble your heart that begins to collapse formless. We entrust all to God, may and may ah I not be able to mention many more prayers" whispered Sholeha to herself who was preparing to meet her parents.

***

At least fight for me first

You know I love you so much

Don't force me to come

Giving up is waiting for you too

Or not even a little

About our story for a year?

Secuil heart, Sholeha.