Life
life

I never knew what kind of life I was living.I was like between life and no.. But, still I have to stay alive no matter how.There are times when I also think maybe I better die.. and maybe I'd rather not be created..

However, my mind became very deep and stifling. "why was I born if you could not be free, if I had to keep following all the rules in the house, and had to stay at home, even out must be permission with datail.where to go, with whom, I know I am a woman and must always be careful.. I'm like I'm locked up and tied up. I can't be free.."

" It hurts, it hurts a lot, but I try to keep thinking positively.that there will be times when I can feel that freedom.. my mind continues to be tormented and confined. restless, yes, it makes me very restless. This very dominating fear in myself. will not be able to disappear so easily.."

I don't know what I'm supposed to be like. All of that I keep tightly covered, not even everyone near me has ever felt my sadness and pain, she said, sometimes I show it a little. But still they seem to think it is just a normal thing.

I feel like I don't want anything in the world anymore. Even though I still believe in him, I believe that he will grant all my prayers and hopes in the future. And make myself continue to believe that maybe this is the best thing and the only thing that will be hard to do again, until finally I keep acting normal and continue to follow whatever they want.

I'm still like this until they're satisfied. Even so I still try hard to silence them with my hard work. But, again I lost to the affection they sometimes showed me. Sometimes I hate him.. No, I hate myself.I can't do anything, and I can't fight this..

Until I was completely immersed in memories I could never reach and wanted.

However, now that I open my eyes, I begin to realize that there are still people who want to understand me and pay attention to me. A very new person I know, but this person is what makes me feel that I am still needed in this world..

Maybe from now on I'll move on with my life and reorganize it. And trying to heal myself again.

" Jul.. hey.. Have you realized??" tama said with a face that was very worried about her.

Juli who had just realized, he immediately faced the face that was always on his mind.

" Em.. yes, I'm aware.but, wait... lest I was downstairs and wanted to get into this apartment... But, why am I here?? how come??" july said who kept remembering what had happened to her.

" Yes, I brought you inside, you passed out there and someone told me you fainted there.. So, I brought you." Tama lied to her in July about the real thing.

" Hkk. like that.. Aw, auw. sshh.. "

" why?? what's up??" tanya Tama who suddenly panicked.

" My head hurts. It feels like this head is muter-muter.sshh.."

" Huh...how... I don't know what to do?? did I just call a doctor?? "

" Already.maybe this is just the effect of my fainting earlier.. Can you please accompany me here. I want company.." she asked Juli.

" Well, if that's what you want." said Tama following his wife's will.

He finally fell asleep beside her and continued to look at her face close as he closed his eyes, which he had not seen since they were married. He could only look at her and continue to notice how she was sleeping beside him.

Until, he did not realize if he also began to feel sleepy and fall asleep also beside him. Those who are currently both sleeping are finally both hugging each other.

Before long, Juli woke up and moved herself a little. He realized that he was hugging someone who was always on his mind. Until he did not realize if his tears just flowed, his feeling was like very moved to see his hand was coiled and hugged himself.

" Is this what it feels like to be loved?? does this feel like being noticed and pampered?? I used to wish this for as long as I lived, and it turned out that desire was realized.. Really, I don't know what to say and do for him later.."

“ Maybe if, this is not the case.I will remain in that gloom.I am, very grateful to you who want to accept this match.. At first I thought you wouldn't and let go of me, but. You accepted it and accepted this marriage.and it's very funny to me. You were the first to meet you near the house, and you at that time, very annoying.Yes very annoying, just met and still not familiar..” July's laughter in a small tone at his words while continuing to look at the man in front of him who was sound asleep.

“ Emm.. I even thought, I will be locked back, and maybe there will be things that make me hurt again, maybe if I tried to keep this heart open, and keep knowing everything about you, I would be able to love you with all my heart as anything.

“ Sometimes anyway, I think. Can I be a good wife?? Can I stay with this guy?? And do I deserve to be with him?? I know a lot of people would say that I wouldn't be worthy of someone like this guy in front of me.. But, seeing you. made me want to continue to be beside her and not want to leave.” said Juli was cut off because the person in front of her replied.

“ Yes.. already.. You will never be my permission to leave me. until anytime.”

“ Hah.. oouuppss.. You, are you awake??” Juli was very surprised when she found out she heard all the curses.

“ He’emm. I heard it all.”.

“ So, have you loved this shitty man Hem.??” tama asked as she tightened her embrace on the bed.

“ Aiihhh... emmm.. you, tuh evil.” shamefully July that time until he just keep covering his face it.

“ Eh... eh.. Why did the face cap try?? Shame yes.. Emm.. but I'm evil from where huh??” while pretending to think.

“ Ah. ga tau ah.. “

“ So.. have you fallen in love with me?? If... yes.. What if I too have fallen in love with you too?? Hemm??.”

“ .......”

“ Ko diem?? Answer dong.”

“ Hemm.. maybe. but you were so mean, you, let me keep saying but. You shut me up. and pretend to be asleep.. Hemm.. evil tau ga.”

“ Yes.. yes.. I am indeed evil.. but, this evil man has now fallen for the woman who is now in front of him. How dong??”

“ ...... , What's it like??” ask the plain Juli.

“ Emm... yes how.. so, can we be a real couple??”

“ Emm.. but, am I worth it with you??”

“ No..”

“ Ah.. Hemm.. yes I know..”

“ Not for the past it is. But now you are already very worthy of me.. I understand so much about myself that I don't even understand why I was able to be a different person back then. And now you give me all those answers.. “ says Tama while peeping her forehead.

“ Pfftt. yes. I do too. Thank you for all this.. I am very happy..What answer did you find??”

“ Ah.. no, I'll let you know later. when I find the thing I was looking for when my mother died.”

“ Did you meet your mother??”

“ Yes.. I met him. and he said everything.Even now we have to be careful.. will you keep me company then and until anytime??”

“ Yes.. I want to. because there are things that I have been wanting to say for a long time.. I, often meet with your Mother.” said Juli to Tama which actually makes Tama very surprised.

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