KISS NOTE
FOURTEEN: The First Part
-Taehyun
I stepped out of the room after saying it. Keep going without looking back or caring about my mother's broken cry.
That's all I can say, how else?
How can a father be cruel to his son?
Was I born a monster? Is he a monster?
He's gonna leave me without apologizing? Didn't he?
That's why I said, “let him die.” I whispered.
“LET HIM DIE!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!” I shouted after I held all the tears so that no one would see me. I screamed so loud that nature swallowed my screams. The only place that crossed my head while driving earlier was Han Sang's cliff.
My knees have fused with the earth because of my tight chest. Kupukuli my chest so that her tightness decreases while crying loudly.
“You can share it with me, Dad. You can tell me that. Everything was. Anything. Why are you keeping quiet? Why do you keep it to yourself? Although I can't solve every one of your problems but I can listen to you all the time,”
“ONLY IF YOU WANT TO START TALKING TO ME! AARRGH!” I shouted once more.
Ever since I was a kid, he never touched me like any other father, didn't look at me, worried about me and even glanced at me. He should have known I'd always missed him a long time ago, but why didn't he understand that even after 25 years had passed?
Mom must be crying again. Crying out of regret for not taking good care of him even though he had already risked all to look after father. That's why I went from there, just so that I wouldn't add to the burden of her grief with my tears.
Now, he's still being cruel to us. Wanted to leave us quietly without a word of forgiveness for all the sins he committed. Good, just die there!
“MY MOTHER AND I DON'T NEED YOU, OLD MAN!” shut me.
* * *
“Jinwoo-ya, uri Taehyunie.”
Jinwoo had been sitting next to Madame Kwon as soon as her tears broke after Taehyun left. He calms the mother of his best friend, “Don't worry about him, aunt. Taehyun just needs some time alone. He'll be fine when he gets back. There are things that he cannot show here, that's why he left.” Jinwoo replied while returning the hand of Madam Kwon.
“Where's Taehyun?” ask Mino who just came back.
“He hasn't returned yet? Cih, the boy.”.
“Dong Mino-ssi, please check my kidney as well.” Prevent Eunsoo from seeing Mino coming out of the waiting room.
Eunsoo's words not only made Mino surprised but everyone there was also shocked to hear it.
“If my kidney matches Kwon's president, just use my kidney. After all the health of the president is a priority for everyone at this time, including my priority.” Connect Eunsoo.
“Eunsoo-ya.” call lady Kwon soft.
“It's okay, Eommonie. This is all I can do for Taehyun and this family, because I can't wipe her tears or give my shoulder to back her up.” Eunsoo smiled gently. Lady Kwon pulled Eunsoo into her arms.
“Supposed to be my future wife only.” chirps Seungyoon who directly got a blow on the head by Seunghoon,
“Yes! Hyung!” seungyoon Protest.
“You want to be killed by President Kwon for taking his son-in-law?” seunghoon whispered which Seungyoon answered with a clumsy smile.
* * *
The feared Kwon president now looks helpless on the bed with cables and small hoses filling his body. Mrs Kwon awaits her sleeping husband as a result of an anesthetic injected through an infusion tube. Mino did it to restore the stamina of president Kwon after getting the results of the laboratory president Kwon.
“Mother.” Call Taehyun who goes into the ward of president Kwon.
“Ah, Taehyun's. Have you eaten?” lady Kwon's first question as soon as she saw her son back.
“Why is it still here?” ask Taehyun. He fixed Eunsoo's blanket and put on the suit he released onto her body while rubbing both hands on her mother's arms to keep her warm.
“Waiting for your father is also waiting for you back.” replied Miss Kwon.
Taehyun was silent, he looked at the bed of president Kwon while sitting on the armrest of the sofa where Madame Kwon was sitting right next to him.
“Taehyun-ah.” call lady Kwon.
“Hmm?” answer's short.
“You remember the middle school time you asked mom about something?” madam Kwon held the back of her son's hand gently until Taehyun shifted his gaze, staring at the sad face of Madame Kwon.
“I forgot.” Taehyun replied briefly. Even so, he tried to remember what he asked first.
“Mother will answer it now.” Ladies' heart soft Kwon.
“Mother accidentally bought two pairs of the same clothes because of your father.” Further.
“Because of dad?” reiterate Taehyun astonished.
“Every night until the morning, your father reduced his sleep to take care of you. Bringing her work to your room while waiting for you to sleep. He keeps watch if you cry in the middle of the night because of nightmares, thirst or bedwetting. Carrying you and changing your clothes wet from bedwet. In order not to be caught if he takes care of you, he will change the same clothes you were wearing before. That's why, I always overestimate your clothes when buying a new one.” Remember lady Kwon.
“He loves you more than his own life, Taehyun-ah.” Lady Kwon started sobbing.
“Your father, is just a person who is not good at expressing his feelings. He may never have loved me as his wife but he loved you as his son. Everything he got during the building of Kwon Group, he prepared for you and your future.” Madame Kwon interrupted her sobs.
“Your father was ice cream addicted, because Eunhye-ssi liked ice cream and died while they ate ice cream together, but after you were born, he stopped touching ice cream. Trying to forget his love throughout your current age. You're the reason he did it.” Madame Kwon's voice rattled with tears.
“Today the one that made me cry the most was you, not your father. You're too cruel to punish him for something you don't understand.” Close madam Kwon.
Taehyun swallowed his saliva with difficulty because he was surprised to hear a story that he had never known before from Kwon but he did not easily accept the story, tend to reject the reality that was just revealed by Kwon.
“Long!” Taehyun moved on from sitting next to Kwon's mistress, now kneeling before her mother. Staring closely at his mother's pair of eyes, “if it is as I told you, why didn't he talk to me? Why is he acting like I'm his enemy? Why, Bu?”
“Because for him it was a punishment he deserved from you for hurting me.” Lady Kwon touched Taehyun's face with both hands. His face was soaked with tears that did not stop flowing.
“Try talking to him first, my son. Until when are you gonna hold her? Mellowed. Only once. Talk to him just once. She is equally tormented because she cannot touch her own son.” Lady Kwon's gaze returned sad to see her son.
Taehyun grabbed the hands of Madam Kwon and placed them on her lap, standing up without speaking and began to walk towards the exit. Taehyun staggered because he felt that both of his leg muscles could not support his body.
“Taehyun-ah.” call lady Kwon but there is no reaction from her son who keeps going.
“Eommoni.” Eunsoo grabs the hand of Kwon's mistress who is immediately reciprocated by holding Eunsoo's hand tightly.
“You heard everything? Please follow Taehyun, Eunsoo-ya.” pinta mrs Kwon. It's true, Eunsoo hasn't really slept since Miss Kwon's sobs broke.
“But, Eommoni.”
“I'm fine but Taehyun isn't. Follow her, Eunsoo.”
* * *
His every move now brings his memory back to every abusive behavior he gave his father.
“Before interfering in my affairs, ADMIT ME FIRST AS YOUR SON!”
Shouted Taehyun as he refused to be betrothed to Eunsoo. Considering that the steps are getting heavier.
“I will not stop being friends with them as long as you are still friends with those spoiled ajushi. Young people make mistakes considered as a search for identity and used as learning, but if you are old to make mistakes like young people, it does not know its name, Father?”
Her steps came to a halt, crying sobbing alone on the hospital emergency stairs. As soon as the weight of his feet stepped up the stairs with the shadows of the past that flashed across his head made his chest even more claustrophobic.
“Don't talk like you're capable of educating your own child. Saying such words makes you look more disgusting, president Kwon Jiyong.” the words he said when president Kwon insulted Choi Seungyoon.
Her tears won't stop even if she doesn't want to cry. Standing rigidly on the roof of the building with his head bowed after recalling all his rude behavior to the president Kwon.
“Let him die.”
The words he said a few hours ago made his knee lose strength until he finally knelt on the cold roof of the hospital building.
Eunsoo, who managed to find Taehyun, quickly walked over to Taehyun and knelt down before Taehyun. He pulled the man into his arms and cried with him without saying a word. Letting the man take off all the burdens in his heart in his broken cry.
“It wasn't him and Yoon Eunhye who robbed me of my little happiness, but I wasted it myself.” Taehyun raved among her cries.
“I WASTED IT!” Shouted Taehyun while hitting his chest.
Seeing Taehyun hit his chest, Eunsoo clasped the hand even though Taehyun was struggling. Eunsoo also tightened her embrace, trying to make her man calmer.
Poor Kwon Taehyun, this is your misfortune. Vengeful.
* * *
Don't let vengeance rule you because it has no benefit. Do you think vengeance will make the people you hate suffer? Nah! only you will be hurt by revenge. Am I wrong?
– Yoon Eunsoo–
Revenge does not fix you, it fixes the people you inhabit. You're the one who's going to lose and the person you're living with is going to be lucky. So, stop being a vengeful person unless you want to lose money.
– Kwon Taehyun –