HIJRAH LOVE
Just Both

"Darling, why so long?"

Yulian was shouting from the outside of the bathroom. It made me feel nervous to answer her question. And I was afraid that, if Yulian saw this wound on my cheek, that would make him ask me why and how it happened to me. When I was about to answer his question, suddenly the bathroom door that I forgot my keys had opened just like that. Is that Yulian or is it open on its own?

"Darling, what's wrong with you? Don't you usually stay here long?"

Suddenly Yulian just appeared before me without my consent. And it made me unable to cover the wound that had already melted down my cheek. It is so visible and painful to feel it. With great precision, Yulian finally learned of the wound. Then he said, "What's wrong with your cheeks, Aisha? Your lips ... hurt?"

For a moment I was silent with a thousand dumb. Thinking about where I would start answering Yulian's question, which I couldn't possibly answer just carelessly. Because for me, keeping a lie will only complicate a relationship even that will also make the estrangement and distrust of each owner of the heart.

"Emm, look ... Mas! I'll tell you everything, but let me take a shower first! Because I haven't had a shower." To relieve Yulian's worry, I smiled with a grin.

"That's not funny, Aisyah. I'm worried about your cheeks and your injured lips. Ok, I'll give you fifteen minutes as usual, after which I'd like to hear your honest answer." Yulian closed the door after I nodded slowly.

After the bathroom door closed again, I immediately opened my clothes and all the cloths covering my body. Then, light a warm shower to warm my body that feels cold. And coincidentally tonight in the city of Edinburgh feels so cold. Either the weather will change or it will be cold because of the strong wind.

Fifteen minutes had finally passed. I also finished my ritual in that square room. After that, I came out without wearing the hijab and also the veil that covered my most beautiful crown. Seen there, on the lips of the mattress Yulian was sitting faithfully waiting for me. For a moment, I threw out my breath which suddenly felt heavy. Then, I took a step slowly to approach Yulian.

"Mas Yulian wants to take a shower first or what?"

Instantly Yulian raised his head then, moved from his most comfortable seat and looked at me deeply. Which makes me unable to puckle at all. It was not that fascination that made me silence a thousand words, but rather that I was afraid that what I had done earlier had gone wrong in his thinking. And even I was afraid that if, Yulian would be angry with me. However, however, it has become a risk for me because, it has taken a decision without thinking long.

"Huf! No, Aisyah. I want to hear your explanation of all this. Explain what really happened!"

"Actually...." I stared fixedly at the face that always captivated my heart while telling everything to Yulian.

That night, Yulian became a good listener when my world felt filled with doubt, fear and all the feelings that were being mixed into one within me. And the one that makes me regret that is, not having time to ask what is His name and where does He live?

"I won't be angry with you, Aisha. I support what you do above your courage. Are not the descendants of our Prophet strong women? The woman who was made the leader to go to heaven? So why am I angry with you. However, your courage will be at great risk if the woman is still with you." Yulian said while treating my wounds.

"I know all that. But, I can't do anything more after He just disappeared. And I can't find him either, and I don't know exactly where he lives, Mas. But .. Yes, that's it! We have to take off the problems in people's countries. Better now we forget all this. May He be well wherever he may be." I always pray and hope that God will always take care of her.

"Ok, then I'll take a shower first! Soon pray isya, I want us to pray together here." Pinta Yulian while taking the towel that is still lying on the face of the mattress.

"Allahumma sholiaala sayyidina Muhammad, waala ali sayyidina Muhammad. O God, your creation is so beautiful, O God! And now I'm enjoying that beauty." From behind the window I stared at the bustling city of Edinburgh that night.

Fifteen minutes had passed, and as long as Yulian was still inside, I stared at the beauty of the universe in our Edinburgh at night. Which maybe I won't be able to see back even if I just want to visit. As I enjoyed the beauty of the bright lights like stars in the sky, I suddenly felt them.

"What are you doing here, Ayesha?"

A soft voice has whispered in my ear. However, I did not turn to look at his pair of sharp eagle eyes. Because I still want to enjoy a night that feels so beautiful with the presence of violin music down there. Suddenly the atmosphere felt so romantic after the violin was played with shrewdness.

"I'm enjoying the beauty of the world tonight in Edinburgh, Mas. Take a look there! There are so many people who enjoy the sound of violin music." I pointed my finger at the direction where someone was playing the violin.

"You're right, Ayesha. I didn't expect, that we finally got here too. And this moment reminds me of the time we were both in that place. Do you remember it too?"

"Obviously I remember, Mom. When we were on top of the restaurant building and at that time you proposed to me, decided to move on in a romantic relationship. And the paradise you've been describing all this time feels so beautiful to me, Mas. We're stepping together to get to that heaven." I remember that moment too.

I remember that moment back where it was just the two of us enjoying the beautiful night filled with flickering stars in the sky as witnesses to the love we chose together to be a better couple. Although before or even after we tie the sacred promise, there are so many obstacles in our lives that we have come. What we must face together with a patient heart.

Yulian turned my body upside down, so we came face to face. He said, "I created a romantic moment tonight for both of us. I have a surprise for you, Aisyah."

I looked at him with question marks. I even turned my eyes to think what surprise Yulian would give me tonight. While I was still thinking long, suddenly the middle room door was knocked slowly from the outside. And Yulian asked me to stay in my most comfortable position, while he opened the door to see who was present in the middle of the time just the two of them.

"Thank you so much!"

"You are welcome,"

The sound of Yulian's voice thanked me for being out there. Which makes me feel curious, but I don't seem willing to leave the night that looks so beautiful as a solace after the incident that hit me so hard. And I want to let go of my memory of him.

"Well, how did the lights die? My mother!"

I was surprised when the light that was so bright suddenly went out, while the other one I saw was on flaunting its bright light. However, I suddenly got an unexpected surprise from my beloved husband. And for a moment I was able to forget a turbulent taste in my heart.