Hacking Flavors
Bereft

Wet red soil. The light rain continued to pour down on the city in that shady morning.

I wait for a mound with colorful flowers. The place where the body of my Love lay eternal now.

Laila's.. Love... so soon did you leave me?

You take my world with you. Until I feel the tightness of squeezing this chest now.

You break the rope of destiny with me, when I hope to be with you always until I age.

Love, I truly regret your wordless departure. I remember right, you just gave me an sorry look, behind an oxygen mask that covered half your wooing ayu face.

Love.want her I join in the wind that has brought your tribe away. So that I can always accompany you wherever you are now.

This wound in my heart, along with the raindrops mixed with my tears that decayed unstoppably.

I don't care about the world around me. Because your resting place alone now fills my screen. Although my gaze was now limited by the curtain of tears of sadness I felt.

Love.wanted me to reflect on my sadness, but I knew. If my roar will only intensify your steps towards your new world.

For this reason, I endured my sad and lonely wounds only in tears that flowed silently on this silent morning.

Don't want me to tighten your steps, love. Meksi I don't know, until when do I think his gaping wound in this heart will close again healed.

The love.. What I can promise you is that I will learn to take this away, Love.. And I will fulfill your last wish that you did not have time to say in full sentences in our last conversation on the porch.

You leave two names you love for me to take care of later.

Mark's.. Tilapia..

They are the fruits of our love that you think about until the end of your life, Love.

And I remember that I was made jealous of the love you had for them. I thought you loved them more, didn't you, Love?

Well. I know maybe I'm a child for fighting over your love for our children, Love. And slowly I understood. Your love for them, and the love we have together are two different things.

Just like my love for you. Also the love that I slowly grew towards Mark and Nila, were two different things.

Each of those loves will always be whole. Because there is no definite division when it comes to love, Yes, Love.

I realize that now. The moment you left me alone with this desolate and raining.

For this reason, Love... let me stretch my sadness with raindrops for now only huh? Don't forbid me to do this, love. Because my sadness is also a form of my love for you, right?

But I promise you, Love, that I will keep the two names you have given me as good and good as I can. Even if I have to pay with my life and the rest of the time I have in this world.

I'll take care of them, love.I'll keep the fruit of our love together.

Mark. and Nila..

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"People.. Let's go home, Bang? It's raining more and more" Mark invited near me.

"Who. I'm home, you too, welcome home to your new home!" Pamit me with a choked voice.

I rubbed my wet face. Only then did I turn around to follow in Mark's footsteps walking in front of me.

My steps feel shaky. The power I have to step up feels like I'm no more. Because I know, in every step I take away from Laila's tomb, it brings my love closer to life after her.

'La. I will definitely miss you, Yang.' My inner voice complains of longing.

I got into the car that Mark was driving. I deliberately took a sitting position next to Mark. While in the back seat, Nila was downcast sadly.

Suddenly I remembered the moment when Laila was pronounced dead by Shara's doctor.

Flashbacks.

"Mama!" Pekik Nila shrieked her call to Laila.

My daughter hugged Laila's body, which was now stiffened. I myself, still sitting limp next to Laila's body.

My face immediately shed tears in silence as soon as I knew that my Laila was gone.

I peed at my Laila's forehead for the last time. And I could still feel the trace of warmth that was still left on my Laila's body.

The warmth I knew would soon disappear from the body of the woman I loved most in the world. And this fact, like a sharp dagger that draws my heart so strong. That's how painful it is. It hurts so much.

'Laip.. Love... Why did you just leave me?!' my screams are in my heart. Maaih has not accepted the departure of this Love of mine.

"Yama!!" In front of me Nila was still tightly hugging her recently deceased Mama's body. Nila was crying so hard. So that finally I was the one who realized to immediately announce this news to Mark.

At that time, Mark who was outside the city rushed back home to accompany Laila's funeral.

A short cemetery, and not much accompanied by a crowd.

Mark and Nila are indeed the only one-stau family owned by Laila. In addition to some of Laila's friends, Mark and also Nila who know my Love during his life first.

"Mama!!" Back crying Nila I heard broke in the room of the new hospital occupied by my Laila yesterday afternoon.

Who could have guessed, if it turned out we would be separated for as long as he was in this room?

"Mama.hiks!"

After telling Mark about Laila. I also approached Nila who had stopped crying.

I brought Nila into my arms. Hope with my embrace that Nila can be comforted. He knew that I was just as sad as him. That I lost Laila just like her.

The difference is only, Nila lost her estuary where she learned about love. While I lost the estuary of love I flowed love.

Flashback complete.

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