FALL IN LOVE ALONE
JCS 2'S. Section 85.
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Not all smiles are made of happiness. Because there are some smiles that become the covering of the heart that is injured. There was a smile that made me forget where I was hurt. If you have ever enjoyed rain when the sky is not cloudy, maybe you know the taste of tears falling when you smile. When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, give life a thousand reasons to smile.
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I stood up from my seat, and I immediately set my foot in my study, I didn't want anyone to see me cry, I didn't want them to laugh at me, I didn't want them to pity me. Falling taught me how to be brave. Also how to be patient when you leave yourself. Why must you appear when I begin to forget you from my heart. No matter how broken my heart is right now, it never comes to my mind to hate you. There's one of the most beautiful things that will never go away when I'm with you it's the first time you give me a birthday present.
I continued walking without caring for the gazes - the gazes of the people in the restaurant at this moment, although I promised myself not to cry, these tears fell on their own without asking permission. This may be the best way when the mouth can no longer speak.
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The day has gone up in the afternoon, I immediately tidied up the books that were scattered on the table, after everything was done, I tidied up, I immediately grabbed my bag that was on my desk and I would step my feet out of the room to the parking lot. Now I'm inside and ready to drive my car to the highway.
A moment later now I was in my yard and immediately got out of the car and immediately stepped my feet into the house.
"Assalamualaikum" I said before entering the house.
"Waalaikumsalam," replied the Mother.
I also put my foot into the house. Once inside, "Bun, get a wedding invitation from Mami Yoelitta."
"When was Antony's wedding done?" ask Mommy.
"Two days ahead, Bun," I replied.
She grabbed my shoulder and said, "You're okay, right?" ask Mother to make sure.
"Ara is fine, Bun," I replied, although in fact in the heart can not be described about the mood for the moment.
"Yes, Bun, Ara to the room first," I said later.
I wish there was a bandage I could use to heal the wounds in my heart. If you can feel what heartache feels like .. why are you asking me to break up. Why should I feel empty for no reason after we part. I can't forget you, but I can let you go.
Now that I'm in the room, I'm laying this body on the bed. The events of a few years ago are now back to spin in my mind. I will try to be sincere even if my heart is hurt maybe this is the best for both of us.
"If he is not my soul mate, then keep him out of my mind and bring close to the person who is my true soul mate" I said in my heart.
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Day H.
I went back and forth on the invitation card on my desk, clearly inscribed with the name of someone who had stopped in my heart a few years ago. I can't stop him if he'd prefer another woman over me.
I also put on my best dress to go to Antony's wedding. After everything was in order, I immediately stepped out of the room, and went down the stairs one by one.
"Are you sure Ra wants to go to Antony's wedding?" ask my mother when I have come downstairs.
"Yakin Bun, I will show them that without him, Ara can still smile and God willing Ara is sincere Bun," I said steadily.
"Yes, you have lost your heart and send greetings to Joelitta. Tell him Mother apologizes for not being able to attend on this happy day," said Mother.
"Getishalight."
I also took my feet out of the house to the car garage. It did not take long now I was in the car and ready to drive my car to the highway. It didn't take long now that I was in the luxury building where they had their wedding reception.
With a step surely I came to his wedding party. The moment I came and entered the hall building where they were having their wedding reception all eyes were on me. Maybe they feel weird about my presence here, but I'm trying to be ignorant. I'll show them and the world without him I'm fine.
"Hi .. you finally came too" said Fhani.
"I have to come dong time no," I said for sure.
"Are you okay?" ask Fhani.
"What do you mean?" ask me while frowning me.
"Hi ... Ra, you just came too?" ask Laras who is now near me with Ray and Kevin.
I turned to the sound and said, "Yes I just came?"
"You are patient" said Ray.
"Surely," while sharing my best smile.
"Our gap is long standing here, let's just go inside, and congratulate the bride and groom!" take Ray later.
We also stepped in together, and went straight to the guarantee where the two brides were.
We also one by one congratulate the bride and groom, and now comes the time for me to congratulate them both.
I stretched out my hand to shake Antony's hand and said, "Congratulations on the marriage of the two of you, may peace, mawaddah, and warohmah until death do you two part." After saying so I immediately left, and left the wedding.
My heart is broken, my heart hurts so much. A broken heart is like a broken bone. From the outside everything looks good - fine, but just to breathe hurts. Thank you for letting me down, this is hikamah from your friendship.
The calls of Fhani, Laras, Ray and Kevin are no longer ignored. If I have the power to disappear, maybe I want to disappear for now. I kept running until I didn't care about people - people who might be looking at me weird....
"Ara wait," cried Ray.
"We can't let him go in this situation" Fhani said, worried about his friend.
"Then what are we going to do?" ask Kevin then.
"Let's follow him to the parking lot, who knows Ara is still there" suggested Laras.
"I promised not to cry, but why do these tears still fall without asking permission first," I said when I was in the car and drove my car without direction and purpose.
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Sorry for the word - the word bertele - tele.....
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