Earth Without Dusk
62. Dusk's Answer

“Sen...Do you love me?”

Deg.

The world around him stopped when Earth asked him if he loved the man. The tremors in his soul firmed up and further pushed his lips to answer, ‘ya, I love you like Dusk who never stops loving his earth, so does this love for you.’

But...

Can he say that sentence plainly to the man in front of him now? While on the other side of her brain kept reminding her of Nesya's words, “Earth was my last happiness and my mama.” How did he take away their last happiness?

Even not only that, it is still recorded clearly in his head how the sad look of Tari's face when fighting with Adrian. The reason is because of the presence of a third person. Then this time..why did he become the third person between Earth and Nesya?

O universe, what do you mean bring us together but give us no way to unite? Is the fate of my love only as short as twilight in the life of the earth? Meeting for a moment just to give a hopeful orange red light and then dim again lost in the dark of the night?

Nah! Dusk certainly can not answer this question. It's too torturing his mind. If he lied, he betrayed his heart. But if he were to be honest, there would be another heart hurting. Then, what should he answer?

“Senja...” wavy Earth when you see something damming in both eyes beautiful girl.

The hand that had been at the waist was now creeping cupped into a beautiful face that always captivated his gaze.

“Senja...kid you why? Hm?” ask the Earth gently when Dusk has shed its tears. The question from Earth really shook his soul.

Slowly the two thumbs of the Earth slowly wiped away her tears. Not only the tears that the Earth hopes will disappear, but also the sadness that emanates from both of her eyeballs.

“What question did I hurt your heart?” ask the Earth who does not understand why Dusk suddenly cried.

Dusk grabbed both of Earth's hands and lowered them from his face. He tried to calm himself and did not make the Earth confused by his crying.

“I guess... I can't answer it,” replied Dusk in a hoarse voice. He did not even dare to look into the eyes of the Earth anymore.

“Why? Why can't you answer that?” ask Earth a little urgently.

“You will be engaged to Sister Nesya!” said Dusk a little higher.

“Therefore I need certainty. Let me not choose the wrong decision,” said Bumi firmly.

The earth again summarized the face of Dusk with both hands. He raised the face so that their eyes would meet each other.

“See me, Dusk! Look me in the eye and answer my question!" pinta Bumi is a little pushy.

"Do you love me? Is my name in your heart? And do you always want me to be next to you?” ask the Earth with lots of questions.

Earth, please don't torture me with all your questions. Of all your questions, only one answer. Ja. Yes to all your questions. Screeched the Twilight in his heart.

“I told you I couldn't answer it,” said Dusk again.

“Why? Is it because you love me? Or you...love others?” ask the Earth who is increasingly curious about the answer Dusk is still gray.

“What answers can make you stop asking about my feelings?” the word twilight asked.

Whether the answer will be Dusk yes or no, which is clear Earth needs certainty. And he wants to hear it directly from the mouth of the twilight. He wants Dusk himself to tell him.

Dusk took a deep breath. This was the toughest answer he had to answer in his entire life. But this time he would still answer, because he knew the Earth would not stop asking before hearing the answer from his mouth.

“Answers...no! I don't love you, your name isn't in my heart, and I don't always want to be next to you.”

Deg.

The earth felt as if the sky above it would collapse upon hearing the reply of Dusk. It was as if a huge storm had struck his heart to formless crumble. He has given him all the hope he has wanted. Twilight's answer made Earth feel she was losing the light of her life again.

Dusk, is there really no name in your heart? Even in the smallest corner of your heart is it really not written my name? Then what does the vibration I feel when I'm near you? Am I the only one feeling it?

 Dusk, did you not know that the earth would not be beautiful without its twilight? So is my life without you. Everything will go back to gray.

The earth fell silent at the response of Dusk. Slowly her hands gradually moved away from the face she had always wanted to touch. Dusk did not choose him. Lost all hope of having it.

“Sorry, if my answer hurt you. About our closeness so far, maybe this is like a relationship between brother and sister who protect each other,” said Dusk trying to entertain Earth. His heart also needs to be entertained. He must be strong. He did not want Earth until he thought he loved her.

The earth does not answer anymore. He nodded in agreement to the words of Dusk. Twilight's answer was enough to answer his curiosity. Although he actually half-believed when he heard the answer. His heart vehemently refused to accept Dusk's reply. But now he can what, Dusk has told him. Now he knows what he will do next.

Even the twilight removed the remains of his tears. He then extended his hand to the earth. Earth did not understand why Dusk reached out to her.

“His birthday will soon set,” said Dusk.

Only then did Earth understand the meaning of Dusk. Earth, still disappointed by the response of Dusk, also tried to toughen up and hide his sadness. He grabbed the outstretched hand of Dusk and folded it in front of the belly of Dusk, while he shifted just behind Dusk.

“Earth..”

“Let it be like this,” whispered the Earth right in the ear of Dusk to Dusk can clearly feel the warm that the man's breath.

Right now the Earth is hugging Dusk from behind. His hand tightly grasped the hand of Dusk as if unwilling to take it off. Today they watched the sunset along with different positions. A position closer to the heart that is moving away. They both have decided in their hearts to love in silence.

The sun in the western horizon was slowly sinking at the end of the ocean. But their position has not changed one bit. They enjoy the warmth given to each other. The warmth and peace that they will never feel again.

The earth tightened his embrace from behind. Even he did not hesitate to immerse his face on the shoulders of the Dusk after the sun returned to his contest. Even the twilight did not refuse. He knew the Earth needed his shoulders to support the heavy weight on his head.

Let them be like that. Let time pause to give them space to both calm down from the name of heartbreak.

Seriate...

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