Drunk Duda (Ceria Skalane Time)
MD6666666666666. Social status
“Distinct, Ria.“ Keith turned his gaze away when he said that.
So, you mean if Shauwi is more special than me?
“I'm not inferior to him, he's both Givan bang workers. Until now, I'll still be Givan's bang guy, I'm his errand boy and I'm in a lifelong working relationship. If I miss that deal, the fine is incredible. Even I think selling my kidneys is not enough cake to pay the fine. My employment contract relationship could be lost, if bang Givan fired me with my mistakes that hurt him. Meanwhile, I don't want to make my name smudged myself. Take that guy's trust is hard, I don't want to make Givan upset with me and not believe me anymore. For anything else, I have no particular reason to choose Shauwi. I clicked on her, let alone the way she handled Ceysa. She's more than a nanny, she's been a friend's cake for Ceysa, she's been a sister's cake for Ceysa, she's been to Ceysa's parents in terms of taking care of Ceysa. His order and discipline are the rules of his life, signifying his consistent strength if he is in a relationship. I can't see it because he's zero experience, so I can be kibulin or all sorts. I understand how hard it is to take people's trust, so I can't intentionally lie to him. I also told him that my past was wrong. But so far, I do intend to improve myself.“ Keith spoke with me.
I'm getting offended. Can't I commit? What motherly woman, is the dream of all the men out there? But, Shauwi became like that because of running her job.
“You just have to say, Keith.“ I turned my face towards the window.
I no longer have any taste for him. But really, I was disappointed and angry because I felt Keith was waiting for a time when our relationship was tenuous so he could marry the woman of his dreams. I'm not her dream, but a woman can be her dream as long as her man is open about what he wants to change from me.
“I don't want to be demanding much from you, because I have too many shortcomings. I don't want to ask you to be someone else, because you're special in the hands of the right person, Ria. As for privileging you, I cannot. You're from the upper family, you're my boss's family. How many hundred of your dowry? And I understand that ordinary women are very valuable here. I know about the custom, because in the area of my biological father there is also a custom to privileging women.“ Keith cupped the back of my hand.
I pulled my hand, then looked at her face. This is how adults talk, even one sentence he understands my point. It's just that, I feel lower, every time he differentiates our social status.
“You know, Keith. The rich, my brother-in-law. They are rich families, from their origins they are family. My mother, myself, my brother-in-law's dependents I think. Mom and I, just enjoying the success of my brother-in-law. We don't have any assets, we just hitchhiked and got some compassion from Givan's bang. Now you compare social status, your status is higher than mine.“ I was blind to education. My mother only taught me to read and count as she could.
Didn't she? Is it less than? What about me? Should I be a minder too? Hey, but he should have been a cinder a long time ago. Not that after he finished fondling me then he was inferior. Where's his brain been all this time? Where has her mind been all this time? Where do you know about your social status all this time?
“You're just looking for an excuse, Keith. You just have to say that Shauwi is the right person. Don't tell too many stories if you're inferior, our social status is different, you're a messenger while I'm his sister. If you are indeed insecure, look at our social status, you should have been disinclined from the beginning to touch me.“ I spoke near his ear.
Bang Nando is still here and I don't want him to know anything bad about me.
“You hurt me more, for the reasons you love about your desire and our social status. Speech about your sensibility, inversely proportional to the facts. I can't stop thinking, you said inferior after we finished our closeness. You're insecure, you should have been disinclined from the beginning to relate to me. I may be stupid, because of the comfort you love. But I'm not stupid, with your irrational confessional. You just have to be honest, if you're really in love with Shauwi, not with me. It doesn't take much of this discussion that, like this, compare the sun and the moon, praise the stars and rainbows, you just have to say that you feel Shauwi is right and make you fall in love. You saw b***** it was, Keith. I feel even more stupid, for all the reasons you love. You shouldn't play me, love me comfort, love me joy, love me attention, feelings I lose with the moves you love. From the beginning, you were quite unresponsive to me and being professional, I would understand that you are not interested and disinclined by me. That's not the way, Keith. You act fine, you play softly, you set the conditions where I am wrong, because basically you have no intention to make me the companion you mean can commit it. Never mind committing, living with you so my qibla I can do it. I can be a dream, if you say. It's just the basics, you don't respect how I feel. You just need it, not really. If you want to withdraw social status, look at Zuhdi who can get Giska's sister. If you want to talk about wealth, bang Ghifar the owner of the company, he married a widow who is from among the ordinary. Their families, there is no social status in their households now. Aca's brother remains his wife, not his maid. My mother, she is just an orphan in the city of Cirebon. Up here and now, she's a big mistress with all the facilities available. So, what social status do you make up that excuse? You don't seem to have any logic, Keith. You say, like I'm a plain kid with no logic. You have many reasons! You planned everything!“ My breath was wheezing from speaking without pause. At least I said a little what I was thinking.
“Sorry...“ He bowed languidly.
“Sorry? That easy? Ck…. You make your name as white as snow, but I know that the snow in the confession you keep a lot of microorganisms and dirt. I now know the habits of Givan's bang confidant.“ I looked at him sharply and full of annoyance.
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