ALYA DIARY
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Angga and Alya live their days full of enthusiasm and optimistic that they will have a baby.

Alya never told anyone about the diagnosis of doctors because they do not have a baby it feels not ready if later hear insults and reproaches from people.

He always tries to think positive and confident to the Creator later if it is time will definitely have a baby.

Some of the drugs given by the doctor he always consumed for the first month and very big hope he can be positive this month.

Angga is also always encouraging and supporting whatever Alya does, he does not want to pressure his wife just sometimes Alya looks sad and he will be someone who always entertains him.

It is undeniable that sometimes Angga himself also feels sad when he sees his peers already holding children and taking them for a walk in the afternoon on a motorcycle. There is envy of the favors given by the Creator to others.

As an ordinary human Angga also has a feeling of shame if he runs into his friend there is even someone below him but has carried his child. Angga's age almost stepped on the head of three and that sometimes makes him think harder to immediately have a baby.

Alya understood that and she could catch from the facial features of her husband's face that seemed very keen to hold his own child.

"I'm ashamed I haven't had a child." She often asked her husband that question.

"Dear not, but I'd like to take a walk in the afternoon and evening gini riding a motorcycle."

Angga's speech makes Alya's heart niches feel pierced.

"I'm sorry Alya Mas."

It was in Alya's heart but on her face she was still smiling to show that she was okay.

"Aamiin Mas, hopefully soon."

Alya felt she was the one who could not give children to her husband, so sometimes she often cried herself in her shoes.

Alya also has a sense of wanting to avoid everyone because they are reluctant to ask when pregnant, told to check to and fro not to mention who massaged there.

"Hufft.... Who wants to believe this." His own complaints after being reprimanded by his neighbors.

"They're not racist, try if it's his own son."

Alya grumbled to himself rubbing his chest and uttering an istighfar.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim, Alya can't be like that."

Therefore Alya lazy if asked to leave the house not to mention sometimes compared to other people who just married already pregnant.

If parents they never offend the baby sometimes it is in the business with a massage there or by to the Doctor which they heard and succeeded after from there.

"What is Alya also a massage."

Because hearing from people makes Alya confused and it feels like trying other ways in order to get pregnant soon.

"Don't you, we've been to the doctor in the wait." Angga.

Alya continued to remain silent, it felt like the burden he carried was heavy.

"Can't I go from here, go where no one knows me. No one knows my problem. Go where everyone doesn't take care of other people's business."

Alya's mind rumbled every time it responded to people's speech.

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