All About Missing
Love dose

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Missing cannot control a fast-paced heartbeat. His heart was struggling, "Ardi .. My heart was starting to feel unsafe. But, sorry I can't return your love, I'm not ready. Honestly, the feeling is still there, whether the love is still strong or not. Let's see how it's going."

Missed not knowing what to say. "Ardi, I can't accept a relationship like a courtship."

Ardian took off his embrace, he pushed slowly until they faced each other. "It's okay, honey. I'll wait until you can accept me. Can I call it that? Darling?"

"No, it sounds weird," she refused.

"OK, but we can, right, we're as close as ever?"

"Emm, sure." Longing to nod slowly, Ardian hugged again.

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Love can not be explained how big, people might judge love as big as the world, the ocean, even the sky. But no one can measure how much he loves logic. When you have found true love, do not intend to find it again. Hold her and hold her as long as you have her.

"Love doesn't begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up." – James Baldwin

(Love doesn't start and end the way we think. Love is battle, love is war; love is growing up)

That's how Ardian feels now. He did not know how much his love for Miss was. Unmeasurable, the more he thought about, the stronger the longing and love in his heart. Missing is his true love. When love must choose between stay and go, Ardian chooses to stay in the power of love he possesses. His love now is a struggle, a battle.

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"Germ, Ardi. How much longer are you gonna let go?" Ardian's hands still wrapped around his body.

"Wait a minute, I still want to hug you" said Ardian still want to hang on.

"It's been stuck from earlier, I'm not sure how long it will last, I can just bite you," said Miss Nahil.

"Aahh, you." Ardian pushed their bodies a little rough, the woman chuckled.

"Look, even you can't help it." Missed glancing down Ardian's stomach. He still wanted to tease the man.

"Cckk .. Don't tease me, Rin! Huh." Ardian covered with his hands.

"Hahaha .. I don't tease you, you're easily tempted."

"Rin—" Ardian wants to protest. However, it was stopped by the words of Miss.

"Would you like to see how I flirt?" his gaze was sharp on Ardian, his voice sounding sensual.

Ardian's body was pushed rough to the point of lying down and underneath. Longing to feel starting from the forehead, nose to the neck Ardian using the index finger, continuously repeated. The man stiffened, almost out of breath, his face was red.

"Rin, stop." Her voice choked.

"I said stop it! Miss, Arhhh …!" Ardian pushed Miss back to sit down.

"Look, even just like that you can't stand it." Misses also chuckle.

Ardian also rose up when he felt his little sister getting stiffened. He ran to the bathroom in his room. He had to calm his brother down.

"Ardi, need my help? Hahaha ...," cried Miss as Ardian rushed to the bathroom, the man looked annoyed.

"Since when have you been a bar like this? Fuck up!" reply Ardian shouted before going inside.

Longing to get worse, his stomach hurt from laughing. He admitted, Ardian's body is indeed very tempting. In the past, the man's body was not and contained as it is now. Maybe because of his hobby of exercising, so it can form very athletic. Now Ardian's body is filled with muscles that look sexy in his eyes. Any woman would be hard to resist if they were close together. Moreover, the smell of the body was giving off a masculine aroma. Missing was already hard to resist, it was fortunate that she could resist earlier.

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Ardian walked out of the room with a relieved face. Missing really made it hard to breathe. He should marry that woman immediately. It's just a day, what about tomorrow and the days that follow? Ardian could have a headache.

I miss looking good with my phone. Listen to songs from his favorite music app. When he saw Ardian coming out of the room, Miss wanted to laugh again. Seizing his own mouth so as not to let go, the man snickered.

"Here, enough, don't go on." Her tone cynically crossed, then threw her body next to Miss, a little distance away.

"Are you relieved?" Missed taking off the earphones in her ears.

"Don't ask, it's embarrassing" replied Ardian pouting. "Other times, if something like this happens again, I won't let you go." He tried to threaten.

"Oohh, really?" Missed seems to be in disbelief at all. He even challenged back.

Ardian sighed. "Rin, listen .. Even if I wanted it so badly, I wouldn't do it because of the napsu. I want everything based on love. I want you to love me first" she softly explained.

Misses amazed, this man is so guarding his honor. It seems that Ardian has never played around with women. His heart was also moved to ask. "Ardian, you had a lover before?"

"No," replied Ardian leaning back. Fast and straightforward.

"Then, what about the women out there, there must be a lot of flirting, right? They don't interest you?" Missing seems to still hope Ardian forgets the intention to interfere with her.

The man shook his head. "I've never reacted to any woman, except you. Even just thinking about you has driven me crazy" explained Ardia honestly.

"Huh, that's right. Then how have you been handling it all this time?"

"Yes, just like you saw." Ardian seemed to think for a moment. "Rin, you think I'm a reckless guy hanging out out there? Rin, remember, how much I love you that I didn't mean to find another woman. I wouldn't be happy if I let go of the feelings I had. Even to play around with it I avoided, because what? Because I don't want to tarnish the sanctity of the love I feel for you. With me guarding my heart just for you, I'll be more deserving of your heart."

Ardian's gaze straightened to the brown nostalgic bead of eyes. That made the woman unable to argue. Either directly or in him. Missed silence, out of words.

Is that how much Ardian's love for Miss all this time?

Missing to express her heart, in silence. "But I don't feel worthy to accept your love, Ardi. If only I could tell you how hard it is for me to forget you. I lost my way, I tried to hold on. Trying to convince myself that we'll never be together. And it's all finally really over, but in a painful way."

In the end they were silent. Missed to take her eyes off. Put the earphones in the ear. Clearly, the woman was avoiding the conversation in order to avoid a more serious conversation.

Ardian realized that, he let out a long sigh. Patience, again that word that Arisan said in the heart. By hoping, someday, Miss will believe in her sincerity.

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