RUN
Caged Reason

After hearing the question I was still silent. Not because I can't talk like before, but I'm absolutely sure who I'm talking to right now.

Bad boy? Bad boy? Yes, it was a special call to me in front of me, but it will change if he talks to Ayuk. I will definitely be called Den Adam by him.

I was pensive, very happy when I found out that the person who first spoke to me after death was him, but I was also sad, because this strange vision proved that I was no longer as human as before.

School guard, as well as school handler. It was not something that was disrespectful to my words just now, it was just that I was unable to say or say his name. Just thinking about it made my ears buzz to the point of bleeding. Especially if I really mention his name.

Turns out. This is his greatness. I know that he is able to penetrate the mind and read my heart or that of others when we speak face to face when I am alive. But, when it had become a spirit like this, it seemed like I realized, what had made it feared by the ghosts in this school.

He, can not be seen by the eye tel*njang. We could only hear his voice without seeing his true appearance. He was protected by a blinding light, covered even more by strange wings that surrounded his entire body.

I blinked, rubbing my eyes to try to see it. But what happened, I instead saw the appearance of someone with a large height nearby. They were on their left and right sides, and their wings were really wide, beyond the wings of the typical false angel that I saw when the upperclassmen were playing the art. I gulped and pegged, afraid that if I moved, the man would flinch.

I was still speechless, deliberately giving him space and time to start a chat first. I held my gaze, saw him trying to get close, made the wings of the big man slowly tighten, as if he understood very well, it interfered with the communication between the two of us.

"I told you, don't go too far. It's a dangerous thing, even I can't fight the devil." he said softly, in the end opening a conversation between us.

"Pun I realized that I was too confident to trust a sixteen-year-old to do all this" he continued.

"Listen to the bad boy.. A stifling regret, which might hurt my feelings for a lifetime.." Her voice sounded strange. "I, letting the child as good and as good as you, die in this dangerous mission" he added, in a voice that shook violently. I don't know how he reacted and expressed it now. It's just that I feel like he's crying over my death.

"You died for that mission! You died because of that! You died trying to fight. I told you, I can't help and protect you completely. Why do you still insist and come every day to that place? Why?" the tanyanya softly, making my chest feel choked. "You're dead, because of my carelessness. I, I hate myself so much."

I fell silent, as if unable to debate him, and arguing was a habit I always did to him. I lowered my head, holding back the tears.

"Mom.." My voice sounded raucous, I shook my head because I could no longer speak.

"It's not that whoever I am is dead." I continued, trying hard to express what's in my heart.

"Not because of anyone's carelessness. Not because of any mission, not because it was challenging or not because it dared to fight." I was silent for a moment, letting the pause help me speak with a little relief.

"But my destiny is like this. It's something that's in line. The almighty knows what is best while I do not know it. Mate, sustenance and death, no one knows. So, don't blame anyone for this." I said, making a half-dead voice growl holding back the cries heard in my ears.

"Don't be afraid." I continued with a heavy weight stuck on my shoulder. "Never fear this death. No one can take the life of a human being, including the devil. I. hiks.."

"I died, because of destiny."

"Because I've been told to die" I said, making the person behind the light break his tears.

I grimaced, trying not to drop the tears that had first been spilled. My upper and lower teeth meet. My lips opened to grimace, revealing the teeth.

I clutched my chest with all my might. "Then what now? What am I doing in this place?? Why am I not somewhere else?" ask me in a hoarse voice.

"You have to take responsibility for your own words. The mistake you made yourself, you have to take responsibility and make up for it. You've promised to solve all these tragedies, then you've got to really solve them."

I shook my head because I knew I couldn't do it now. "How's it?" ask me bitterly. "How can I solve it, while I am in this condition? I was confused myself, and.." I stopped, not knowing what else to say.

"You have to complete this mission, with yourself, or someone you believe can do it." he said.

I was silent, understanding every language. "How can I trust someone? Even you know, I don't have any friends in the world."

"There is no man who cannot have friends. God created man more than one, that we may be grateful for the blessings, that we may share the joys, sorrows, sorrows, grievances, and grievances with those whom you believe."

"Your father, your mother in your house, your security guard, your driver, all of them are also friends to you." he said, making both my eyes wide open to hear it.

"And you know, God does not give tests beyond the limits of his people's ability. Although now you have failed, but later on I'm sure you managed to be with someone else. Someone, who you saw before my appearance." he continued, made me again gasp while shaking my head. Can't believe what he just said.

Someone I saw before his appearance?? Is the man with such shady eyes and beautiful looks? But is it really real? It is almost similar to the fictional form that is made so perfect in the imagination.

"But, still. Unseen things, usually first known by the supernatural rather than humans. That demon must have been wary at your request just now. And indeed, he was terrified of it." kiyai stopped, though unable to look at his face, but I knew.

"Fear, the blood of his male offspring" he added.

I cringe. "There's no more fear now. I am dead, and my Ayuk will not be able to make him flinch. She's just a descendant of her nagging daughter."

The school guard was silent, he was silent for about a few minutes after my speech.

"Some will be born and some will die. Wait, even during anything. Until whenever. You know, if in the world God does not grant your prayers, then in the hereafter he will surely give it. In essence, he always granted the request of every servant who prayed. Whether it was when he was alive, or when he was not.

I was silent, re-digesting his words. Will anyone be born, and will anyone die? Prayer.. will it always be granted?? And he, asked me to wait.

"Would it be that, in fact, a handsome man who resembles me, it really exists in this world? Really really? But why is it so perfect? Without the slightest flaw? That man, created to be real, not perfect." I continued, made the school guard snort with laughter.

"You're really going to meet him. With the hope you always say, with the best friend you've always dreamed of. And he, is the perfect form of perfection that is in you. And he, will carry out a heavy mission by standing firmly in the name of Religion, and in the name of Adam Suganda" he said firmly.

I was silent, my whole body was goosebumps on him. What the fuck are those words. Like a fantasy and a wishful thinking. Butwhy?? Wh why? Why do I swallow it raw, and believe it.

Unknowingly, a smile puffed up thinly on my lips. I don't know myself, but it felt so relieved and happy to hear those words.

Loved it.

"When? When can I meet him? Whereabouts? Where can I find and find it? In which corner of the earth? Which hemisphere?" I asked quickly, subconsciously smiling with tears falling.

"He is in your heart" he said briefly, and it made me stare again mute.

"You're cleverly warning me?" ask me, a little offended.

"He'll show up, a dozen more years." in short, and it's as if tore my heart and chest apart.

Can I trust a human being? His words seemed convincing, but..is that true? Can he really see the future?? I know this school guard personally, and I know he said things he had seen before.

"Out of a dozen years?" I repeat his words. "Then, how do I find it?" ask me again, with the remnants of hope that will not come true.

"Allow me, to lock you up in this place."

The deg!!

I was surprised to hear his words. What the fuck? Why would he want to keep me in this place? In what place does it mean?

"Do you want to reject my wish?? I actually had a point to do this." I cringe at hearing it. "Because later, he will find you in this place. Right on the clock, you're dead." I goosebumps again at his words.

"I'll just lock you up during the day. And by nightfall, I'll free you to explore. Do you agree to this?" ask again.

"Why should I be in brackets? During the day anyway, do you have a reason?" I'm fast.

"Of course I'll do something for a good reason. After this, there will probably be a normal forgotten memory. Because the next taste is so painful. So I hope your confinement during the day will make you curious and find out why you can be locked up in this place. Or else, you'll be bodo with it and completely forget it."

"But gradually, you will remember this conversation of ours, and the figure of the handsome man who longed for you. So, do you allow me to lock you up in this place during the day?"

I was silent, hoping that there were doubts stored. But si*lnya, this heart immediately approves of it.

"alright.. Me, ready in brackets in this place." I said, so sure.

"In that case, I will restore your spirit. Close your eyes, and..."

"...Sleep on."

At once, my entire vision blackened. I was pushed somewhere, feeling like I was whizzing through a storm. And...

Buuum!!

My body, head, and legs were blown away. It was like falling from the tens floor and all my bones were broken, even my skeleton was broken.

Everything was blackened and I felt this death twice.

Painful. Once.

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Darkness rippled out between the flying curtains. My eyes are still open, although I am not fully conscious. The walls I knew felt dry and dusty, now they felt damp and smelled of rust, a kind of blood.

Too stinging to force my consciousness in the clouds to immediately wake up and move.

But...

It shouldn't be like this, I don't understand what's happened. Even the noise that I had never known before, felt swirling in the head to make dizziness.

Again, I was conscious but not completely. I don't know what happened, but it felt like a dream.

A light body and a random place that has never been traced. The atmosphere was dark and I only saw similar colors black and white. Not for color blindness, I was a painter and I was able to create thousands of colors with just three basic colors.

This is indeed strange, awkward, irregular body similar to flying but quite stiff. I have never felt this kind of situation before. And this further confirms that everything is just a dream.

*End Of Flashback

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