Patience of the Heart Wulan
Chapter 25_

In life, there are problems. They come to test how strong the heart is to endure, or how weak the heart is to give up.

It all depends on a lump of blood called the heart. Then synchronize with negative or positive thoughts.

When in a state of death, negative thoughts rule the head, chaos and anxiety begin to occupy the heart.

Wulan always remembered the words of wisdom that provided motivation.

"The world is like a shadow. If you try to catch him, he'll run. However, if you turn his back on him, he has no choice but to follow you." - Ibn Qayyim Al Jauziyyah.

Wulan resuscitated her daydream. When the car driven by Mbak Leni began to enter the area of the old house.

"Mak Leni just go home, I want to be here" said Wulan when he arrived in the yard of the old house, the house he called the legendary house.

Leni's mother was surprised to hear Wulan's words. "When I go home, what do you do? I didn't pa-pa, Reyhan was just as symbiotic, so I could accompany you longer Lan."

"If you hear your son's name, I want to sing Ma'am." said Wulan.

Leni's sister connected, "It's hard to forget Reyhan...."

Wulan smiled wryly, at least some were quite comforting, when her heart was broken.

"Why am I singing?" Leni's mom, she scratched her head. However, he felt happy when he saw Wulan smiling even chuckling a little. That's a sign he's been quite entertaining. "i'll stay here, accompany you, I'm afraid something happens to you." keukeuh Mbak Leni.

Wulan let out a long sigh, her gaze circling staring at the courtyard of the house. "I'll be in this house for a while, until I feel calm."

"Yo ndak can do dong Lan, if later you contract suddenly how?"

"I'll be fine Ma'am, believe me. I just want to feel calmer. I need time alone." said Wulan then spend money on the wages of Mbak Leni who has been willing to be the driver today.

Mbak Leni was stunned to look at Wulan's pale face then turned to look at the money Wulan offered. "But Lan, I can't let you be alone. I'm not the one who doesn't have the feeling that I'm leaving you alone."

Wulan smiled knot. "Go home and say to Mom, I'm in the old house. And it could be that I will stay here, if I go home, I can't meet Damar yet, that's enough he said today."

"Whatever your problem is with Damar, you don't intend to part, do you? You're still thinking of giving birth to a child together with your husband right?" Leni feels her feelings are not good regarding Wulan and Damar, although she does not yet know what the problem is.

Wulan threw away her gaze, the next second she looked back at Mbak Leni. "Mbak Leni, this Mbak thinks too far. I will remain with Damar, even if later Damar prefers to live with others, I Nawang Wulan has decided to remain faithful, since Damar married me."

Hearing Wulan's words, Sister Leni guessed, Damar must have another woman. He looked at Wulan who was looking at him with a sad look. "I salute you, remain a strong woman, whatever your circumstances. It is okay to pause and rest, but rise again because God does not like the servant who gives up easily."

Wulan smiled and nodded slowly, opening the car door and standing in front of the car. Then waved to Mbak Leni.

I don't know what other words can be said Mbak Leni, when he saw Wulan had gotten out of the car. Then all he could do was go home and tell the Holy Mother that Wulan was in the old house. Regretful in Mbak Leni, a time like this. He doesn't have a Damar number.

Before starting the car engine, Mbak Leni saw Wulan who was standing on the porch of his house was opening the door. Before the pregnant woman entered the house, she saw Wulan again shaking her hands, as if telling her to go home.

Forced with a heavy heart, Ms. Leni turned on the car engine. Leni immediately slammed the steering wheel to go to Wulan's house in Pandansari village, she had to immediately tell the Holy Mother, she was afraid of something unexpected happening to Wulan.

"May Damar soon realize that there is a woman who is so patient and faithful. It seems Wulan already knows with everything the bad possibilities that will happen, which is why he tuned his heart with a tough heart suit." muttered Mbak Leni, driving Wulan car blend with other riders.

After the departure of Mbak Leni, Wulan went into the house and closed the door again, his gaze observing the entire living room. It was as if the silence was restraining him at this moment. Wulan started walking towards the room, opening the door wide.

Then walk up to the bed, and sit on its edge. Observing the entire room, with a slow hand movement Wulan rubbed the pillow that Damar used to lean.

Wulan pulled out the phone from her bag, the one she had turned off. Then he turned it back on, waiting for a while his phone was normal. As her phone lit up, there were a few calls from Damar, but for now, Wulan wanted to ignore them.

Wulan was looking for the phone number of someone who could help her. Because in an old pregnancy, he could not do it alone. Not because she considers her pregnancy is an obstacle to all her activities, only she must be careful, so that when labor arrives, it does not have a bad impact on her child.

"Help me to find the identity information of someone named Anggi Kumalasari" he said after the call.

A moment Wulan was silent to hear someone in contact answering.

"Well, I'll wait for your information." Wulan said, then turned off the phone.

Wulan stared at the picture frame with Damar at the White Pal Monument.

Time has buried old memories, memories of good times together with Damar, a moment of love and love.

During his first kiss, when everything he did was with Damar in this room. Moments, Damar whispered that the man wanted to have a child from her.

All those wonderful memories were imprinted in Wulan's mind. If only, then there was a thought of parting. There is a reason he is not willing, very, very unwilling, because later many memories will be wasted.

Wulan brushed her clenched hands, then switched to bristling brown sheets. His heart ached again, lying when he was not hurt by Damar's harsh and cruel changes in recent days.

His gaze began to fade, tears re-stained in the eye pelukan. It rained down into rain on her cheeks, as quickly as Wulan wiped away the trace of her tears, but it came back to drip.

It flashed in Wulan's memory when Holy Mother asked him to accompany Damar's life.

...flashback...

The Holy Mother looked at Wulan, then circulated her gaze at the door of the room. “As a child, Damar was funny. If asked what his ideals would be, he would answer to want to be a child who can boast parents,”

Wulan frowned, for some reason did Holy Mother suddenly start a chat with her eldest son's childhood, “I can see him Holy Mother, his respect for Mother, his, can not be separated from the role of Holy Mother as a Mother who educates her, therefore there is a saying that says, (Love Mother all the time) and I am proud of you,”

Wulan felt awkward to get a look of shady eyes from Holy Mother, she looked down, “I'm sorry, because I've been talking too much,”

Wulan raised her face, although it was strange to hear the request of the Holy Mother, yet Wulan extended her hand without asking. Holy Mother clasped her hands feelingly, making her heart feel enveloped by the affection of a Sacred Mother, it was no wonder the fruit fell not far from the tree. Such is the picture for the soft heart that Damar has.

“You have promised me one thing, Son,” said the Holy Mother, looking at Wulan with a sad look.

Wulan again felt something strange from the question of Holy Mother, “Promise?”

“Will you accompany the life of the eldest son of Mother, if one day Mother is gone?” said the Holy Mother, he knew that Wulan was still alone.

Wulan blinked her eyes, heard a question or a statement? He didn't answer. Sometimes there's a question that's like a shotgun bullet.

...flashback off...

"Holy Mother, Wulan should always remember that, should if Wulan sincerely to be Damar's life companion, should Wulan be able to accept all the shortcomings of Dam-" Wulan stopped her speech, crying increasingly sobbing. "wulan should have loved her in joy and sorrow.."

Back, Wulan felt his son kicking in his stomach.

"Don't be Sholeh's son, Mama and I love you very much" he said rahu.

Drowsiness whack his eyes, Wulan lying on Damar's pillow. She misses sleeping on her husband's arm, she misses. Slowly his eyes began to shut and drown in the cradle of dreams during the day.

**

After his talks with Farhan, Damar and Danum resumed their journey.

Along the way Damar circulated his gaze, he was reminded of Farhan's words that were thrown out, as if making him like a jerk. I don't know why he doesn't remember anything about what Farhan said.

"Who is the woman who walks with me, why am I hypnotized? I also felt my whole body hot, my heart empty of faith. Why am I such a dazed person?"

But if it is proven true, he has been fussy and walks along with a woman. It would definitely be a regret to have betrayed and hurt Wulan.

"Protection is a gift from God that warns you that what you do violates your soul" Farhan said.

Damar keeps remembering, Wulan's favorite place. He kept remembering in his confusion and his chaotic mind.

"What's possible?" Damar remembered one thing. He then patted Danum on the shoulder. "we go to the old house, Num."

"Okay Mas." replied Danum, although had to buy the steering wheel of the motorbike, because the road to the old house had passed and it took quite a long time to get there. But for Danum it is not a problem, the most important thing now is that his brother can solve a problem that is already like looking for a needle in a well.

Danum also thought, it could be by helping his brother's problem, could be a valuable lesson when he married and married later. Experience is the best teacher in living a better life. So that he learns from the problems faced by Mbak Wulan and Mas Damar.

During the trip that almost took two hours. Now that Damar was in the courtyard of the house, Damar came down from the bonds. He observed the old house, the house he called along with Wulan, the legendary house. I don't know why, as if someone pulled him into this house.

The time on his watch shows at 14:35 wib.

"Mas sure Sister Wulan is here?" Danum turned off the engine, looking at Damar from the right rear side.

"Somehow, the phone can't be reached" Damar replied without switching his attention. His eyes continued to look at the closed main house door.

"If it turns out that Ma'am Wulan has gone home how?" ask Danum.

Damar observed the surroundings, he only nodded and smiled faintly as some of his neighbors greeted.

"Go home Num," this time Damar saw his sister who seemed clearly worried about him. "if what you told me along the way I was hit by pellets. Then I should have healed my own soul."

"But Mas, where can I leave Mas Damar alone, how about until the influence of the pellets affects Mas Damar again after I return to the house in Pandansari?" danum said worriedly.

Damar again saw the state of the old house deserted. "God will not forsake his patient servant, Satan will disturb Adam's posterity until the day of the apocalypse."

"But Mas" said Danum floating when his brother had already said.

"Go back with Mom and let me know if Wulan has returned home. Tell Mom too, we should pack up and move out of the house, maybe that way we can avoid people who are doing bad things to me."

Without wanting to be discussed or in the debate, Damar walked to the terrace of the house. Maybe by moving from the house he built to be efficient in saving time to go to the factory will avoid the temptation of pellets that are sent by no one.

Danum saw his brother, "always Mas Damar can make me checkmate." He finally decided to go back home.

Damar looking for the key of the house that he often put under the orchid flower pot. But he was stunned when he did not find the key to the house, Damar rounded his eyes to look at the door. It was as if his breath was stuck in his throat.

"Don't-don't.." Not something bad, like a thief. However, Damar thinks that Wulan is in the house.

Damar immediately rushed to open the door and looked for his wife's whereabouts in the living room and arrived at the middle room, his manic seeing the wide open door of his room.

Damar rushed towards his room, and at that instant he felt faint, his legs suffocating slowly released lightly.

"Wulan.." his voice that originally felt heavy, was now slowly raised up and getting lighter.

Very slowly Damar approached the bed and kneeled on the right side looking at Wulan's face that looked swollen, the sigh of Wulan sounded regular as if indicating that his wife had not slept well in recent days.

So here, Wulan can sleep soundly. Not a second did Damar shift his attention, he continued to look at the face because of his wife. With a slow hand movement, he rubbed Wulan's large belly.

*****

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