My husband is mentally ill
*Episode 37

The words made Jesi fixated. There are two feelings that now control his heart. First, a very happy feeling about Jona's invitation just now. But, there was another feeling that immediately made him feel sad. That is, the agreement between him and Mama Jona who inevitably had to be kept.

'I'd really like to accept your invitation to stay in another house, Jo. But ... There are things you don't know about me. The agreement between me and your mama is impossible for me to let go.'

'I promise to take care of you until you get well. I made my own decision so that you can heal as you are without any obstacles from your mother. I act as I please because I feel sorry for you. So you're not easy. If you are not healed, then you will remain in loneliness at all times. I don't want that to happen to you. On good people like you.'

Jesi kept pecking because of what she thought. As for Jona, she immediately woke up from her bed due to seeing the reaction of Jesi that was not what she expected.

"What's up, Je? Why are you mute? Don't you want to leave this house?"

"Wait on! Do you think I can't buy a house for you? Even though I haven't worked for a long time, I still have money, Jesika. If only to buy one house for you. I can still afford it."

"Yes .. though it won't be as big as the house we live in. But I assure you, the house that I'm going to buy for you is also still worthy of being called luxurious."

Speech by speech makes Jesi can not stem the tears anymore. Slowly, her tears flowed profusely across both cheeks.

Of course Jona was immediately shocked by what she saw now. He wiped the tears quickly.

"What's up, Jesi? Why are you even crying? Did I have a wrong conversation?" Jona spoke nervously with a very guilty feeling.

"No, Jo. You're not wrong. These are not sad tears because of a wounded heart. But, my tears are because of a happy heart."

"You're very attentive to me. I don't know what to tell you. But, one thing you should know. We can't leave this house. Because .... "

Jesi hung up her sentence. This made Jona very curious.

"Because what?"

"Because your mama will definitely hate me more, Jo. He'll accuse me of separating the child from the mother."

"Jona. Mama you love you so much that I don't want you to take it. He feels you are closer to me, so he is always angry with me. He thought, I've taken you."

"But Je .... "

That speech instantly made Jona weakened. He returned to his body to Jesika.

"Then ... What about you, Je? What about how you feel that you're always hurting, hm?"

"Me?"

"Yes. You."

"Who said I always get hurt? I'm a strong woman, Jonathan Wijaya. It is not easy to feel sad or hurt. You just calm down. Your woman is a tough woman."

Jesi spoke in an emphasis-filled tone. Hopefully, it can make Jona feel confident in what he says.

And that hope was granted. Jona looks calmer than ever. Either because it is really sure, or just trying to be sure that Jesi is happy. Clearly, this time, Jona no longer forced Jesi to come clean to her.

For a few moments, they kept quiet. Until Jesi realizes one thing. The man who was on his lap, was now sleeping beautifully.

Upon seeing Jona fall asleep on her lap, Jesi could not help but caress Jona. His hands could somehow be very light, as if acting on his own accord. The hand immediately stroked Jona's hair by itself.

"If I could, Jo. I want to stay beside you. Accompany you as your real wife. Live happily until old age."

"But .. I can't seem like it. Because of circumstances that do not want. Between us there's a separation distance that's too wide until I find it very difficult to remove that distance, Jonathan Wijaya."

Jesika wiped away her falling tears. I think it hurts a lot. Thinking of all the reality, made Jesi feel very fragile.

He wants to stay. But there are people who do not allow that desire. And if he forced it, then that person would probably ruin the hope he had been struggling with.

"May God understand and give us the best way, Jona." Jesi spoke again in a soft tone while closing her eyes.

He raised his head on the back of the soft sofa he was sitting on. Then, try to close your eyes to catch up with Jona who had slept a while before.