Mega Tears
Nineteen

Some of the steps we have taken are not all perfect. Not everything is good and useful. Sometimes there are steps we actually make regrets in the future. Sometimes humans only realize once lost, then realize the great pleasure when it has disappeared. Just feel important if it is not in the grasp. That is, man is too busy demanding, too much want until his eyes are closed when looking at favors.

Regrets always come later. Indeed so. Nothing will change, because the more this self echoes regret, the darker the gaze of the face is flooded with tears. Feeling sorry is necessary, as a sign that we are aware of the mistakes we made. But there is something more important, which is to improve yourself and not to repeat mistakes. 

Generally that makes there is regret because there is a sense of disappointment with the circumstances that give birth to negative reactions because the desire is expected not in accordance with expectations and reality that occurs or is accepted. Jonathan's father has been blinded by his love for his wife. Whatever his wife does, Jonathan's father can always forgive. In fact he accepted when his wife refused to hum his child, even though she desperately wanted there to be a child in her family. Disappointment to the hidden wife makes Jonathan's father to dark eyes until desperate to establish a relationship with another woman. And he felt very happy when Jonathan was born into the world. That happiness had blinded his eyes and heart, so he focused only on Jonathan and his wife. He forgets that there are still other women that he deserves attention for and needs his protection.

For years Jonathan's father never entered his son's room. That's because Jonathan forbade her from entering the area where there was a photo of the mother on display. Jonathan never let his father see the picture of the mother because for him it would only add to his hatred of the old man. This time, however, for the first time his father Jonathan disobeys his son's orders. With trembling hands in his open room door Jonathan. He came in and immediately rested under the photo of Jonathan's mother.

"Sophia.... I regretted my inappropriate choice because I could have done better, but it ended up falling apart like this." Jonathan's father said in between his sobs. "our son deserves to hate me, I deserve it. My regret is to have been in your life and destroyed your perfection. I can't express my feelings right now, except to say I'm so sorry. When I say I love you, I mean it. But at the end of it I hurt you, now I'm sorry and I mean it. With a sick heart, a sad soul, and a bowed head. I apologize to you unconditionally. Honey, I'm really sorry...."

"sad?" yonathan exclaimed from the doorway. "never say such words in front of my mother.!!"

"Give me one chance to show you that I can be a better person. I'm not perfect, I made a mistake, I hurt you and your mother. But when I apologize, I mean it. Crying my regret, I know this may be karma, and I accept this karma, the fact that time will not be able to come back again, therefore let me make up for all my mistakes.."

"how are you going to redeem him? Tell me?. My mother's gone, you'll never be able to make up for all your wrongs on her." Jonathan tried to hold back his tears from falling.

Mega who heard the father and son quarrel immediately went to them. Sadness emanated clearly from his second face. Although only heard a piece of the story, Mega can understand the hatred, disappointment and anger that Jonathan felt. But Mega also knows that Jonathan's father has truly regretted his past deeds.

"should I go after your mother so I can apologize to her?"

"cheek, you're too confident. Do you think in the afterlife my mother would be willing to meet you?" jonathan said in a mocking tone.

Jonathan's father speaks a thousand languages. True what Jonathan said, Sofia does not necessarily want to meet sinners like herself. It could even be that the woman's hatred was greater than Jonathan's.

"get out, there's no need to waste time doing useless things" Jonathan said.

With a downcast face Jonathan's father walked out of his son's room. Jonathan's father passed Mega and just stared at the girl without saying anything. Of course Mega felt pity, because at the age of his who was not young anymore, Jonathan's father had to live tormented because of the hatred of his own son.

Mega looked at Jonathan's back who was turning her back. The back was moving along with his hunting breath. Right now Jonathan must be in a state of emotion. Mega thought of trying to find a way to cheer up the man.

Just looking at Mega can make Jonathan's emotions subside. She smiled sweetly looking at Mega who was wearing a dress, looking more beautiful and graceful.

"you look good on that shirt"

"really? I don't think it's bad either" Mega walked up to Jonathan and grabbed the man's arm. "let's teach me to swim"

Jonathan raised his eyebrows. "tomorrow, it's late afternoon. Don't you have to go to work soon?"

"ah you're right" because you want to comfort Jonathan, Mega to forget that it's time for him to go to work. "Jo, what about my bike?"

"no need to think about it. I'll take you to work. Let's get ready"

On the way to the hotel, Mega's thoughts continue to rage thinking about Jonathan's father. Somehow the feeling of Mega can not calm down, like there is fear in the felt. "Jo, after you drop me off are you going somewhere?"

"i have to see my manager, there's something we need to talk about. What's the matter?"

Mega took a deep breath so she could be calmer. The topic of the talk about Jonathan's father was quite sensitive for the man. And Mega had to choose and sort out the right words so as not to offend him. "sorry before, actually I heard the debate you and your father" Mega was silent for a moment to look at Jonathan's expression. When he saw the man still remained calm Mega continued his sentence. "when he said he wanted to catch up with your mother, somehow I felt that he was really going to do it. Since I've been feeling restless, I don't know why I can go that far, but Jo, I beg you after this come back home and check the situation. Like, I'll just calm down after you make sure it's okay"

Long enough Jonathan fell silent, wanting his taste he refused but somehow he couldn't. The girl's eyes could completely tear down the wall between her and her father's. "well"

Hearing Jonathan willing to do it makes Mega can breathe a sigh of relief. "What is the function of holding anger, if that nature will make you suffer more. Hate, anger, and resentment will only hurt yourself. Help your heart to forgive. For forgiving others will be hard if it does not come from the heart".

Human relations are complicated. Sometimes it brings happiness and can help each other. But not infrequently also the braid makes someone feel sadness. There are misunderstandings, problems, ego attitudes, anger, making relationships with others can be tenuous. If you do not want the relationship to get worse, there must be an apology said. The word 'sorry' is easy to say, but hard to do. It's not as easy as turning your hand. Often tucked into a sense of prestige that makes the word can not reach. Same with the word 'forgive'. The word forgiveness is not easy either. Especially considering what hurt me.

Seriate.....