Love without limits
Stay with me ..

How can it be indifferent? It's your body. You have to .. "my word"

Okita watched me as I stood there.

There was a little silence, and then he smiled.

If I were a regular at Shimabara .. I think I might fall in love with you "say okita smile"

My eyes were wide open in shock.

Due to the fact that okita told me, but also .. that short word, 'if' resonates as if I were staring at a distant star, far away.

When you love someone, you want to make him happy.you don't want him to cry, that's why I won't fall in love. I wouldn't expect something that wouldn't come true “he said with a face I find hard to describe”

His voice was cold, like a refreshing breeze piercing through the air.

That's right .. I rarely see him at parties.

When I saw her in Shimabara, always with the rest of the squad, who often looked upset at her ..

When he eats food at his own pace.

I think the last time we spoke, he was also in the middle of a patrol.

And it was never thought about how boring Shimabara was, or how sincere he was.

It's never that simple.

In his gentle smile was the same strong determination that takasugi possessed.

I felt pain inside me, I sobbed about his illness.

Takasugi, hijikata, okita .. they are all very good.

Why should they all be hurt?

Shedding blood .. coughing blood ...

Why should they fight until the last part of their lives is cut off?

I pursed my lips to stop my crying.

I saw the sparkle in okita's narrowed eyes.

There's someone you love, isn't there? I heard it from Hijikata. Or rather, I forced the story from her. she said a woman sneered at her. She acted like she didn't care, but I think she was hurt. “Okita laughs slowly”

I'm sure the people you love love love you too. “Ucapnya smile”

His words are very clear.

I was so surprised, tears were flowing out.

Oh .. If I make you cry, sherry, that man will be angry, won't he? "Speaking okita looks guilty, she wipes my tears"

Okita whispered to keep it a secret, and when I nodded, it made me wonder.

Will takasugi be angry?

If he heard that another man made me cry .. would he be angry?

I tried to remember his face, but ...

The only picture in my head is the one he said so long ago and turned his back on me.

I'm back "my word"

I thanked okita at the entrance of the boarding house, and after she left, I called out to the store.

There's no answer.

I came back early, so the other prostitutes still have to work.

After I go in and call, someone will show up.

I went to the garden to wash my face.

If anyone sees me, I'm obviously crying.

If they try to comfort me, I don't know what I'm going to say.

I walked along the deserted corridor, my voice was only my only step.

I went out into the garden and scooped water from the well.

Spring is almost here, but the night air is still very cold.

Cupping water from the bucket, I washed my face repeatedly.

The cold water on my hot cheeks felt very fresh.

I kept splashing water on my face, not thinking about anything.

In the water, the moon's reflection vibrates, then spins again.

After washing my face a few times, I stopped and took a breath.

Water dripped from my chin.

This place was secluded, and was not connected to the alley to the pleasure house, so there was no sound.

There was no samisen music, not even in the distance.

I realized it was just my breathing and my heartbeat.

Feeling the tears close to my eyes again, I quickly picked up the water with both hands ..

Sherry .. "call saki"

I heard a voice and quickly turned around.

Saki stood on the porch, looking at me.

I put down the bucket and lowered my head.

Sorry, saki .. I know it's work time . "my words are bad"

Secretly, he walked closer.

Enough "saki said"

Then he squeezed my hand hard.

Saki's hands feel warm. And I realized how cold my hands were.

Enough..? “Tanyaku”

That's kind of a guy like takasugi. For the sake of this nation, for the sake of his comrades .. and most importantly, for the sake of his mission. He will sacrifice everything for it. “ucap saki does not spare the words”

His comments are outspoken, as is kogoro.

For those who love Japan, the man is like a bright light in the dark, for those who stand on the battlefield with him, the man is like a god of war. But for a woman .. "say again"

He was cruel . someone who should not be loved.

It was clear to me what Saki wanted to say without hearing her say it.

That ... that's not true .. takasugi is a strong and kind man .. "my word"

I remember what Kogoro said to me.

Takasugi said a girl like me could never be by his side.

Someone like me shouldn't be with him.

But .. even if I don't have the right to stand next to her ..

He has a right to his happiness too ..

With a beautiful woman, exchanging feelings of love . definitely, no one will deny that.

Not just takasugi.

Everyone who lives in this era must feel the same way.

Even if he had to risk his life. Even if he could fall on the battlefield at any time.

There's no rule that says you can't fall in love.

I bit my lips and shook my head.

But saki's expression did not change.

Stop over. “Ucapnya again”

At that moment, I watched him for a moment.

Saki's breathing was a little uneven.

Maybe.but ...

Maybe the chief employee told him that I was crying, and he rushed over?

Sherry . "take it again"

Surprised, I looked at him.

Saki never mentioned my name that way.

Stayhere. "Saki took my hand and muttered"

Her soft Kyoto accent is gone.

I'll take good care of you. “Ucap saki”

I looked at Saki and gulped my saliva ..

I'll take care of you.. “ucapnya”.

You're kidding, aren't you? "my word"

Saki pressed a kiss on my finger.

I was so shocked, my body was shaking, and my legs almost hit the bucket.

The water did not spill, but it made a thud, and the scenery reflected in the water shook.

No more .. I don't want to see you crying again "saki said"

The scenery in front of me, those words .. everything was like an illusion.

But this is no joke. His eyes are serious ..

With warmth, with affection ..he placed his lips on the tip of my finger again.

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*continuing*