Love without limits
TAYU AND A REQUEST

At sunset, I left the boarding house.

Lift your head high, sherry. "Chap ayame smiled kindly and escorted me away."

Next to her, ayumi looked worried.

He remembered how I cried a few days ago.

Looking back, I felt as if I had worried her since I came here.

She taught me how to wear a kimono .. she was very worried when she heard me sick ...

In lieu of words, I gave her a sincere smile.

Sherry ... You look so beautiful .. sherry .. really, so beautiful. I'm so proud to call you my friend. “Ucap ayumi smile”

Umbrella holder calling tayu.

I nodded and slowly started walking.

The tayu pedestrian area also consists of a place of umbrellas and kamuro, young girls, even younger than Shinzo.

Kamuro has bells in their kimono that make a pleasant sound as they walk. And they signify the coming of the wood.

Led by the ringing of the bell, I proceeded down the boulevard taking the elaborate steps known as the 'letter of eight into'.

Wearing tall clogs, and elegantly drawing arches on the road, I headed for the pleasure house one step at a time.

The road was full of spectators.

Oh .. how beautiful .. “viewer”

No wonder he was popular even when he was a Shinzo. “Other viewers”

My hair was decorated with quality hair ornaments, and I wore a shiny outer kimono.

The underkimono collar is rotated back to show a deep red layer.

Scarlet is the color of my rank and signifies that I can hold an audience with the emperor. This is proof that the woo is a special prostitute.

Amidst the shouts and cheers, I couldn't help but think ...

I wonder just how many wood runs on this road before me?

And what do they feel about each one?

Do they have hopes and worries? Do they cry when they walk?

Gritting my teeth, I continued walking forward.

I'm sure of it.

Every woo has walked probably feels the same way.

And all the sadness and hardship within her made the woo even more beautiful.

I looked straight ahead and walked into the night of Shimabara.

When I arrived at the pleasure house, the chief officer led me to the party room.

Standing in front of the sliding door, I took a deep breath.

When the woo and the customer first meet, there are certain steps that are observed.

First, there is the initial ceremony .. which is like a wedding meeting ceremony.

Unless this is done, there will be no dance or samisen performances.

And during the ceremony, no words could be exchanged with the customer. It's tradition here.

I had to beg her secretly, and when her customers agreed, that was when the party officially started.

Slowly, the sliding door opened.

Inside the room illuminated by lanterns, takasugi sat alone.

Normally, it was Kamuro who accompanied me to the party room and now it was just me alone.

This time, at the request of the customer, our meeting will be held with just the two of us.

I entered the party room and grabbed the sake cup placed on him.

Then, I lifted up and showed the insides of the cup.

This was similar to a woo that introduced itself.

Takasugi's mouth forms a grin.

My eyes do not deceive me at all. You are an ulung “ucap takasugi”

My heart is beating fast.

I'm really happy to hear the words takasugi.

But soon, I was worried about his health.

He looks healthy, but does he really feel better?

Seeing my gaze, takasugi smiled wryly.

I may have lung TB, but I don't cough 24 hours. And I feel good tonight. Because my ideal woman is sitting in front of my eyes. “Ucapnya smile happy”

I felt my cheeks getting warm.

I calmed my heartbeat, then started dancing.

Breathing deeply, I felt nervous all the way to the tip of my finger.

The use of my eyes, the movement of my eyebrows .. I focused and took my position.

I've practiced this dance hundreds, no, thousands of times.

And that's all for now.

Awesome “takasugi smile satisfied”

Just one word . and that is the highest compliment.

Now, if takasugi will nod, the first meeting will be conducted.

But all Takasugi does is look at me.

Say, sherry . "takasugi called my name suddenly"

I tilted my head doubtfully, and takasugi took the samisen placed nearby.

Do you remember the first time I snuck into your room? “Tanyanya”

takasugis?

Why is he suddenly talking about this? The ceremony is not over.

But takasugi doesn't seem to care and keeps talking.

Back then, I thought of you as an ambitious girl, and when I looked at you the first time I knew you were a good girl “Tapnya again”

He plucked a few times on the strings, as if checking the sound.

I've lived until now, ready to die at any moment. If it is necessary to take down the shogun, I will gladly die.

And that's why I turn a deaf ear to opinions I don't want to hear, and do whatever I like. “Ucap takasugi”

I kind of understand.

Takasugi had a special aura, and no one could stop him.

I have to be like this, so that when I die, I won't hesitate. “Ucapnya again”

My eyes are slightly widened.

I never imagined that takasugi would bring up something like having doubts.

Why do you look like that? Do you think that I have never had any doubts in my life? “Takasugi chuckles soft”

I'm just a human being, even I think about my parents, and respect my superiors. And when this feeling clashed with my mission to destroy the shogun, I hesitated. And each time, I chose to live for my mission. However .. "takasugi voice changed slightly .."

His hand holding the plectrum stopped completely.

One day, here in Shimabara, I met a woman who almost destroyed my faith. She misled me and made me form a deep attachment to her. And that woman is you, sherry. I liked you from the beginning. Every time I find something new about you, I get closer to you. And before I knew it, you were on my mind. And those days are growing more and more often. “Ucap takasugi”

taka .. sugi ...*in my heart*

I realized when I was told by the doctor that I had lung TB. When the doctor told me, the first picture that came to my mind, was your face.I was even shocked. It was not my parents or my master, who were the reason for my doubts until now. When I was told that I was dying, it was your face that I saw. Good or bad, I was in choshu at the time.

So, no matter how careless I am, I cannot hear your voice. For a moment, I thought I could push it and keep lying to myself. But ...it was impossible, in the end. When kogoro forced me to come to Shimabara again .. when I saw you, I realized it again.

you're the only woman who ever stole my heart. “Takasugi explains everything”

Hiks .. “sobbingku”

I clasped my trembling hand under the obi belt.

I almost fainted from my heartbeat with every word takasugi spoke. And I agree.

Takasugi is undoubtedly the only man who stole my heart.

But..

So, I have to accept this feeling inside of me. “Ucapnya again”

Takasugi's next words will freeze my heart.

The hero who gave his life to destroy the shogun, which is who I am. “Ucap takasugi”

what ...?

Takasugi's right arm started moving again.

He smiled slightly, and looked at me very seriously.

My wish, Sherry, is for the highest geisha to grieve in front of my grave with joy, when I die. “Takasugi smiles and she picks samisen gently”

That melody is what I remember.

* I want to kill the crow three thousand worlds .. and sleep with you. * "takasugi"

Yes .. it's a song that takasugi sang to me when we first met. I don't know what it means, but after learning so many things to be a tayu, I understand now.

Three thousand worlds is a term in Buddhism. Simply put, it means everything in the world.

The crow refers to the messenger of the kumano temple god.

When the prostitute promises herself to the 'only customer', she sends the amulet from the kumano shrine.

And every time he reneged on a promise, one raven messenger died.

The more popular the prostitute, the more promises she made, and the more dead crows.

But I want to be with you.

Even if all the crows die, I want to sleep by your side.

hiks.with those words ...with those words, every time, takasugi leaves me ...

I gave you this samisen, when I die, I want you to fulfill your wish. “Ucap takasugi and smile”

Hiks .. “sobbingku”

Be with you.tayu . This is the first, and last time. “Ucap takasugi”

I gasped at his words, and I wondered if he was playing a trick on me.

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*continuing*